Help Cookie walk 1000 miles!
Hi - I'm Cookie and my dream is to complete a 3-month expedition to walk 1000 miles solo in Iceland.
This started as me wanting to go on an epic adventure but it's become more than that: through my experience of battling low self-worth, I hope to inspire others to see beyond their limits, be a bit braver and live what's truly in their core. I've been sharing my journey online for the past few years, during which time I've slowly but surely dragged myself out of the hell of addiction, anxiety, depression and agoraphobia towards a more confident place. I've battled two nervous breakdowns along the way, the second quite recently, but it was the best thing that could have happened because it was so severe: my life stopped completely, all the nonsense was removed overnight, and I had no choice but to reassess the way I was living and seize the opportunity to put back only the parts of my life that I wanted to take into my future.
I've always wanted to be an adventurer. I've been lucky enough to go on several amazing voyages and expeditions but this one's in a different league because it's under my own steam and I've only myself to rely on.
This will be my 3rd attempt:
2016, ATTEMPT 1 ... postponed my first attempt just 5 days before I was due to fly, when my husband was diagnosed with cancer of the bladder.
2017, ATTEMPT 2 ... set off on my first solo expedition but was forced to stop early on after being blasted off the road in a storm and damaging my trolley beyond use (couldn't afford the time required to ship another out).
2019, ATTEMPT 3 ... after a difficult year battling the after effects of a severe nervous breakdown I'm more determined than ever to get back out there and try again.
The thousands of people I've met over the past few years have confirmed to me how quick the majority of us are to hold ourselves back for fear of what other people think. We put ourselves down, assume we're incapable of pushing boundaries and choose to let life lead us instead of truly going after what's in our core. We watch other people living their dreams and don't believe we deserve the same. We see failure as an end point instead of a step towards success and too often allow others' limitations to define our own. We delay, make excuses, put our passions on hold until bam! it's too late and all we have left is regret that we weren't a bit braver while we had the chance. Well, I'm being a bit braver while I have the chance.
Why I've turned to GoFundMe: my followers have for years been suggesting I start a campaign - in fact a few of them have arranged campaigns on my behalf and though I was hugely touched by the sentiment I found it too hard to accept. I have more confidence now and since all my adventurer friends use campaigns for their own expeditions, I'm going out of my comfort zone and asking for help.
What I've got: 99% of what I need - tent, gadgets, clothing, recording equipment, money for flights/insurance etc.
What I need: help with paying for campsites, gas and food.
Any amount donated will be gratefully and humbly received. Thank you for taking the time to read this, thank you for your support and, most of all, thank you for believing in me ;)
Love, Cookie x
Just a quick update. Iceland is uppermost in my mind and training is underway. Financially though, my only option is to save/raise as much as I need throughout the next year or so and delay Iceland until summer 2020. Can't be avoided at the moment. It only makes this more of a challenge - I'm chomping at the bit to get out there but my circumstances are dictating otherwise at the moment and I have no other choice. Instead of being despondent about the delay I'll use the extra time to build up even more physically and mentally. Rest assured, your kindly donated money is safe in a pot, untouched other than for the purchase of my expedition trolley, and there it will stay.
Just want to thank you for your support and for bearing with me <3
My route is bang on 1001 miles - wouldn't you know it? That last mile is going to be a right old bugger! :D
Taking into account streams, campsites and ascent/descent, some days I'll be walking 5 miles, other days 25 miles, some days walking for a couple of hours, other days walking 10+ hours straight. I've tried to incorporate as many campsites as I can and as much as possible I've planned it so that my wild campsites are by streams, so that I can wash without wasting the water I'm carrying, and can easily top up water bottles and drink my fill before I set off in the mornings etc.
In all, and if I can stick to my plan, it should take just over 70 days of actual walking, so I have a couple of weeks spare to play with if I need to take rest days (which I definitely will).
Next step: kit re-planning ...