Fail on boobs trying to kill me. :)
A second biopsy confirmed the presence of 2 more tumors in my right breast, disqualifying me for a lumpectomy. I decided to do pre-operative chemo to shrink the tumors - especially the one closest to the chest wall.
Five months of chemo, from July 1 through November 11th (biweekly and then weekly). Lots of selfies with my bald ‘do. Good friends brought food and coloring books, drove me to appointments and more. Cancer organizations helped me with expenses. I am so grateful for the kindness I have received!
While the cancer was a devastating diagnosis - especially after going through healing from a breakdown during a difficult separation - I felt that it was my body attempting to heal me by containing the toxins into tumors. I read and researched and looked for my strength.
Everyone is different but I saw how I had contributed to my condition by pushing myself too hard in the wrong ways. I had to set myself free from the need to push myself so hard. Even during treatment it has been difficult for me to ask for help. It is my lesson, because if we don’t ask we can’t receive. I feel it's the time for me to take the next step and ask for help in a new way.
Treatment summary: I am going through reconstruction right now, which is done in phases. The good news is that I am in remission!
First phase: On super bowl weekend, February 6th, I had a total mastectomy. The usual overnight stay turned into three days as they monitored hemoglobin levels and gave me a blood transfusion when they dropped too low.
Second phase: The next surgery will be scheduled by the end of this month, to replace the tissue expanders with permanent (and softer, more comfortable!!) implants.
This is my final month of infusion treatments (targeted therapy through a chest port) after 16 chemo sessions.
I cannot work right now - but I have a vision: I am sharing my story on social media to bring awareness to breast cancer and other challenges many of us face. My blog is www.mikohargett.com
My goal: In time I hope to open my online bookstore and fulfill my dream of creating and publishing stories that inspire people of all ages to fulfill their potential.
I have such high hopes for our children - and our culture. I believe in the power of creativity and imagination to give us the resilience that gives the human spirit the strength to reach for excellence again and again.
During this healing time I work on my vision as I have energy. My visions are big but my needs right now are small.
This amount will help to cover my basic expenses through December.
Thank you for honoring me with your time, attention and consideration of my request.
And to those who can help financially, thank you for your generosity!! - I wish for you to receive threefold what you've given.
Let me tell you, radiation is a creeper! For me anyway. The burns were only barely tolerable with aloe and coconut oil. If I moved my right arm too fast I thought the skin was going to split open. Thank goodness for mucho pillows!!! One of the essentials in life lol.
Anyway I found out about this synergy cbd balm that has other essential oils in it - holy moly, a couple hours after I put some on to test, that area was dry and peeling and no longer tender to the touch. Thank God for that little plant.
I am mad at Sessions by the way for some of his recent comments about cannabis. It's just such a strange sense of priorities our government has - anyway sorry lol.
I will be putting an end to all this and crafting my opinions and ideas in novels and short stories because I am done with self help. Lol.
Self enjoyment I think, is a really divine gift that we can give ourselves and others.
If you like the plan, stay tuned - otherwise bye for now - and until we think alike again. ;-)
See previous update for how red my burns were. Compared to now. Radiation tech said she had not seen people heal so quickly before their treatment was over, and most people hadn't healed that fast even in a month.
Thank God for cannabis. He is ever merciful. ;-)
The worst is behind me. This next week they will only be radiating my mastectomy scar, so the rest of my skin can start to heal. It burns and itches, is cracked and peeling in places, but we are treating with the coconut oil, aloe, and cannabis (RSO or Phoenix Tears on the menu now).
I'm right handed and the worst burns are under my right arm - so my brain gets some new exercise with using my left hand more. A little upside: ambidexterity practice, lol.
I could use financial help with my natural pain relief and healing. I prefer not to use opiates because they mess up my digestion.
Thank you again all those who have shared your funds with me - I am super grateful!!
To those who can help me out this time - I know it has been a long stretch - super huge thank you for your generosity.
More updates soon, a new journey begins... Hv a wonderful, blessed day!
Much love and thanks, Miko
The radiation is painless but it comes at the "end" of a long long journey that includes therapy and counseling for mental and emotional health challenges. I feel like I am in a dream swimming and can't move.
In spite of my happiness and silliness, and strength, and outspoken opinions while I write through things, that is just a miracle - in the best of times I am still in a mental fog and it is frustrating for me to manage finances and do simple things. If you have $5 or more to share with me, it will add up and alleviate stress and I would appreciate it hugely.
I have the government assistance I qualify for officially and their process is so slow and annoying. I don't have faith in their governance but I have faith in the people that make it up and so I work with them in their limited authority - and also I am hoping that maybe my sharing the journey and my ups and downs as honestly as I can - even the things I support that are more controversial today -
I am hoping that means at least $5 to you.
To those that have already given, you have brought me a lot of joy and relief. Thank you.
It worked for chemo. :)
Thank you for your help, love, prayers - I know you all work hard for your funds, and I am extremely grateful for your generosity.
I'm honored, and I am using the time to heal and make plans for paying it forward big time.
Meantime, I hope you are doing well and have a prosperous year abundant in all good things.
Love you guys and gals. xoxo