Blueberry Creek Recovery Fund

Hey guys! Everywhere I look it seems like people are having a hard time and it makes asking for help even harder. I don't know how we're going to make it to all my appointments if I don't, though. If you have $5 to spare, please help. I want to get better, and getting to these appointments is the only way I know how at this point. I eat well and in moderation. I exercise every day. I take all the medicines my doctors tell me to and I still cannot live a normal life.

But, I digress. The appointments!
Sleep study consult this week.
Echocardiogram this week.
Botox with the neurologist next week.

Six of my care providers are 2 hours away. I only have two that are local. Thankfully, the car we borrow to get to my appointments gets pretty decent gas mileage so it costs ~$20 in gas there and back.

I got a sleep study referral from my primary doctor to try to figure out this chronic fatigue thing. It, of course, requires a consult first. The consult is Wednesday. Then later in the month, yet to be determined, the study itself. For that, we'll either need to look at a hotel for Rory overnight, or another 4 hour round trip to pick me up at some ungodly hour in the morning. I imagine the appointment to have the doctor tell me the results of the study is going to be next month.

The echo / ultrasound for this heart of mine, to hopefully make sure there's nothing physically wrong with it, is Friday. My heart has been fluttering and skipping beats for years. Never thought much of it. Until recently, I couldn't tell you one time to the next when it skipped beats. Now, it happens almost every day, and often takes my breath away.

I also have a 30 day heart monitor that I get to wear, until the 7th of next month, when I send it back to Houston.

At some point after sending the heart monitor back, I'll have an appointment with the cardiologist to go over the results. But the way it's set up, if there's anything that the monitor catches and flags, it goes to my Dr's office in real time, so it's not like he'll have to take days to go over all the data. If he sees something before my 30 days are up, he can schedule an appointment sooner. It's pretty neat.

My first botox appointment with my neurologist is next week. It will hopefully help reduce my daily migraines. My body has built a tolerance to the three migraine medications I've been on for almost a year now and no longer do much but take the edge off. I wake up with a migraine, I go to sleep with a migraine. It's really kind of a nightmare. They don't make sunglasses dark enough to suit me when I have to go into a store or public building.

If you're still with me, thank you for taking the time to read through to this point! It feels like the struggles and doctors appointments never end. I still have three or four to call and make appointments with for next month, to discuss results of tests and xrays, etc.. But those aren't the ones I'm concerned with right this moment.

The ones I'm concerned with are the ones that are set up, or are imminent, while I have no money to get to them, no car to be able to get a job to make money, and have yet to receive any notification about the possibility of a light at the end of the tunnel with social security approving me for disability. All I know is that, at some point, hopefully this year, I'll have a hearing in front of a tv screen to talk to a judge about my case.

I'm going to end this here. Thank you, again, for reading. Thank you so much from the bottom of my heart to everyone who has helped us these past 16, 18 months that I've had this set up. You have been life savers more than you'll ever know.

If all of you reading this can donate even $5, it would greatly help me continue on my path to getting better.

Over Christmas we spent hundreds of dollars replacing the suspension, hoping to be done with repairs on the car for a while. Instead, we have another motor that needs to be rebuilt, and no means to rebuild it, or work on the next project car sitting in the yard.

Last week I rescheduled all of my appointments that I'd put off since November when the car had to be parked because it wasn't safe to drive. I need to be able to keep them this time so that my doctors don't discontinue my care. I have friends and family that are able to take me to my local appointments, but the Little Rock and Hot Springs trips are too much for them, considering they all have smal kids and/or jobs during the week.

Please find it in your heart, if you have anything to spare, we could use the help. We already priced the front end kit that we need and it's going to be $400.

Merry Christmas and happy holidays, everyone! What are you all thankful for? I'm thankful for having one of my kids with us for the school break. I'm also thankful that my husband is such a good driver. Our poor car just broke one of its "legs" on our last trip to town before Christmas to get the last ingredients needed for dinner and dessert. Singing Christmas songs in the car, waiting on a tow truck to get here isn't the ideal way to spend quality time but it works for us.