Trans* Boy need help

Hello,

I'm 17year old trans*boy /agender (I don't know yet, but I'm feel like a boy, most oft the time and the genderrule stuff just really fucked me up..sorry to say that so!)

I have finished school two weeks ago, but i don't find a job (I get no commitments), and i think its because i am trans. The problem for me is also that if i am out as trans i don#t feel save but if i don't say that i am a boy ( or feel like one) that would kill me, and i'll get more depressed and i don't want it.

I can't get the things I really need (Like Hormones, Namechange and stuff..) because of my family, they don't  understand me or even care about what happened in my mind.
I tried to sell my Clothes who don't fit anymore to other Trans* Kids, a few bought something from me, but its not enough & I have more Clothes who i Don't fit in anymore, then who fit yet (I lost ten kg) ..
So i tried to sell my manga, anime, CD, Book etc. although i wanted to keep them, but nobody was interested in these.

The money I had I've spent on other people, because i started a project named trans healthkit,  ( https://www.facebook.com/transhealthkit/) because i think they need the help more than I.


So I hope a few understand my situation and want to help me, for what i need the money?

I need it to buy:

- Packer

- Clothes that fit

- 1 - 2 Binder, because i just one that fits me and don't hurt, and if i could buy me two i could wear the other one for swimming

- Swimmshirt

You would really help me with my disphoria and with my bad thoughts! You can message me, if you have any question or because i don't get much into details here..

I'm just so afraid..I'm sorry!

And I'm also sorry for my english, its not my first language! ._.

Thank you so much!

~ Silver (or Andy)