A computer to start over
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Sigh. Ok. I am going to just be brutally and completely honest. I have successfully screwed up everything. Like I mean it here. I have totally and absolutely screwed my entire life up. There is no area that is not up in smoke and I am not even being dramatic. And although some areas are beyond my control, others are not and I own those areas. Regardless of what, everything ties together, creating a tidal wave of fail.
There have been multiple times that I thought that I was at rock bottom. Nope. Right now, right at this moment....this is, indeed, rock freakin' bottom.
I am going to spare the major details as really, they aren't completely necessary to re-hash and I am trying desperately to hold onto the tiny shred of dignity that I have left here. The fact that I am making a GoFundMe for a computer of all things sort of sums it up. It is taking every ounce of courage that I have here to do this.
So, let's skip the train wreck and get to the end goal. I am going to tell you why, of all things, that my first step in attempting to somehow fix this starts with a working computer.
For years, I have been self-educating myself about creating websites, learning about e-commerce, and making endless attempts at figuring out a concrete and viable way to legitimately work from home. There are factors that have made it very challenging for me to find and maintain "normal" employment. Such as living in a remote podunk town, having a vehicle that breaks down often, being a single parent, yadda yadda.
Poverty is a wretched, mind-numbing experience and quite frankly, I am absolutely tired of the endless struggle and a hamster wheel of problems that I lack resources to solve. Enough is enough.
To change my life, I am starting with a computer.
My ultimate goal is to one day, run an online business. I have been entrepreneurial ever since childhood. This right now seems like a totally out of reach fluff dream, but, I will get there eventually. But first, I need a computer.
In the meantime, while I work on that one above, there are legitimate companies that offer call center, real remote employment to people like myself who live in the middle of nowhere with broke-down-often vehicles. With the proper tools and of course, my natural ability to relate well to others, problem solve, and generate sales very easily, this is absolutely an option to work and have a respectable income. But first, I need a computer.
So here I am. The Queen Bee of the Mess Up Hive, deciding to not throw in the towel. I was real close though a few days ago. I suppose that when you get to such a low place, you only really have one direction left to go. It didn't kill me, so lets just assume that I will be coming out as the she-hulk eventually. Fingers crossed.
I would honestly and truly appreciate any assistance in making this happen. I wouldn't dare ask if it wasn't serious. I have to completely start over and this is the catalyst to change.
I know that this might seem like an odd or petty request. It is amazing how something so common could be a huge game changer. But it really is and it would just mean a lot. Yes, I messed up and yes I know that. Hopefully, I can try again.
I put this under "learning" because very seriously....I have really REALLY learned some unbelievable lessons here. The teacher has been Life.
The photo that I used is actually the background of my phone and has been for a long time. It felt appropriate to use it here as well. It was looking at that statement that got me back up. And it is why you are reading this right now.
Thank you for your time in reading this. I don't know what computers cost so I just put a ballpark number lol. I am just grateful for any assistance in making this happen. I really appreciate it and just...ya. If I can muck it up to this extent, then I am confident that I can rebuild to a higher extent. I have to.
Take care
There have been multiple times that I thought that I was at rock bottom. Nope. Right now, right at this moment....this is, indeed, rock freakin' bottom.
I am going to spare the major details as really, they aren't completely necessary to re-hash and I am trying desperately to hold onto the tiny shred of dignity that I have left here. The fact that I am making a GoFundMe for a computer of all things sort of sums it up. It is taking every ounce of courage that I have here to do this.
So, let's skip the train wreck and get to the end goal. I am going to tell you why, of all things, that my first step in attempting to somehow fix this starts with a working computer.
For years, I have been self-educating myself about creating websites, learning about e-commerce, and making endless attempts at figuring out a concrete and viable way to legitimately work from home. There are factors that have made it very challenging for me to find and maintain "normal" employment. Such as living in a remote podunk town, having a vehicle that breaks down often, being a single parent, yadda yadda.
Poverty is a wretched, mind-numbing experience and quite frankly, I am absolutely tired of the endless struggle and a hamster wheel of problems that I lack resources to solve. Enough is enough.
To change my life, I am starting with a computer.
My ultimate goal is to one day, run an online business. I have been entrepreneurial ever since childhood. This right now seems like a totally out of reach fluff dream, but, I will get there eventually. But first, I need a computer.
In the meantime, while I work on that one above, there are legitimate companies that offer call center, real remote employment to people like myself who live in the middle of nowhere with broke-down-often vehicles. With the proper tools and of course, my natural ability to relate well to others, problem solve, and generate sales very easily, this is absolutely an option to work and have a respectable income. But first, I need a computer.
So here I am. The Queen Bee of the Mess Up Hive, deciding to not throw in the towel. I was real close though a few days ago. I suppose that when you get to such a low place, you only really have one direction left to go. It didn't kill me, so lets just assume that I will be coming out as the she-hulk eventually. Fingers crossed.
I would honestly and truly appreciate any assistance in making this happen. I wouldn't dare ask if it wasn't serious. I have to completely start over and this is the catalyst to change.
I know that this might seem like an odd or petty request. It is amazing how something so common could be a huge game changer. But it really is and it would just mean a lot. Yes, I messed up and yes I know that. Hopefully, I can try again.
I put this under "learning" because very seriously....I have really REALLY learned some unbelievable lessons here. The teacher has been Life.
The photo that I used is actually the background of my phone and has been for a long time. It felt appropriate to use it here as well. It was looking at that statement that got me back up. And it is why you are reading this right now.
Thank you for your time in reading this. I don't know what computers cost so I just put a ballpark number lol. I am just grateful for any assistance in making this happen. I really appreciate it and just...ya. If I can muck it up to this extent, then I am confident that I can rebuild to a higher extent. I have to.
Take care
Organizer
Amber Slater
Organizer
Wheatley, ON
