Help Aemi get better!

Update: I will be going for sure on May 13th. Still need to raise $700! if you can help me financially to get to the finish line of this fundraiser, I’d appreciate it so much.  I have faith and am praying, believing, I love you all. Thank you for believing in me, believing I can feel good again in this earth body. Grateful forever, my heart is full. You all have been angels thank you. 


that’s me, with the hat:) 

Hello lovely friends and fam from around the world! :)

Welcome to my fundraiser :)

I want to be able to dance, soooo bad, without feeling sharp pains in my organs. I believe I can get there. I know I can get there again. ❤️

I’m starting this fund because I’m committed to raising the money to get help at a clinic specializing in chronic Lyme and mystery illnesses. I’m planning on going asap, as soon as I raise the money. I've been dealing with multiple issues for 7 years and want to break this cycle of sickness. I've spent all my savings that I worked so hard for. Since early November, I've spent around $8,000 on different treatments and doctors with not a lot of answers. I've been desperately trying to heal from this and get answers  and relief from people that do not know how to help me. Some treatments have helped a little, but I am still having a lot of issues and daily aching, throbbing, and sharp pains in my organs, stomach, neck, and colon. I need to work with some top doctors that specialize in the symptoms I am experiencing. I've tried, so hard, to figure this out on my own, I’m at the end of the line and I need help, the right help. 

Here is where I'll be getting treatment: https://instituteforrestorativehealth.com/
My doctor is: Jonathan Streit, DC

What happened: 

Oh boy, so I I’ve been sick, even to the point of being stuck in bed at times, for over 4 months. It’s been an incredibly rough ride and it’s gotten a bit worse every day. Right now my organs are hurting and aching 24/7, mostly my liver, gallbladder, spleen and some kidney pain. My kidneys aren’t breaking down proteins properly, and the lymph nodes in my neck are swelling and my whole left side of my body keeps having these horrid reactions where it gets severly inflamed and painful. My skin starts itching and twitching, and I hurt have to wait it out. The constant ringing in my ears makes me feel crazy. It’s been so bizarre and so frustrating. 

These are all the symptoms I’ve been dealing with. They are not always at the same time they flare up at different times during the day.

- Shortness of breath
- Pain in liver gallbladder spleen pancreas and kidney area, enlarged gallbladder
- Kidney issues, not being able to break down proteins
- Heart palpitations
- Weight loss
- Hair loss
- Heart beating faster than normal or slower than normal
- Insomnia thats driving me crazy
- Feeling of something crawling in my skin
- Brain fog, difficulty remembering details, difficulty focusing
- Constant headache in sinus area and paid behind eyes
- Extreme fatigue
- Horrible digestion - bloating, pressure, pain, discomfort almost every meal
- Tingling, pins and needles, some numbness here and there in hands legs feet
- Twitching and crawling in skin
- Left side of body more affected - weird sensations on face like crawling under my skin, inflammation, pain, very uncomfortable feeling
- Back pain during most the day
- Lots of pain in feet lately..hurts if I stand too long.
- Floaters in vision


How it happened?

Well, I had just finished a physically challenging and amazing job on a ship in Alaska and also lived on it for 6 months. After I completed my contract, I wanted to reward myself for my hard work! So I decided to venture into the jungle of Costa Rica. Well, I caught something on the trip and I started having symptoms immediately and it’s pretty much  been insanity since. I didn’t know all of this could happen within the human body. My health  issues didn't just start in Costa Rica, my immune system already wasn’t functioning that well before. I’ve had issues for years and it worsened after getting Lyme disease a couple years ago. I want to go get this amazing care from amazing doctors to figure out exactly what is wrong in what areas, what caused my immune system to get this low (it tested 40 on a scale of 60-120 for overall function). I need to get this amazing treatment from talented and knowledgeable doctors so I can make a full recovery and feel great in my body again. I’ve had chronic pain, digestive issues, inflammation, hormone issues, muscle pain, and other random stuff going on for 7 years. 


How has this affected your life?

This has been a rough ride. I haven’t been able to work a job for the last 5 months. I’ll never take that for granted again. Being able to work is an incredible gift that I didn’t appreciate until I couldn’t do it. Every day has felt like a battle, every day I’ve been in fight or flight mode. I feel my gallbladder and liver aching as I write this and I am so exhausted. I want to get better so so bad! I want to work again! I want to heal from the inside out. 

Recommended treatment 

I found this great place that specializes in lyme, mystery diseases, and chronic illness. They have reviewed my case and are confident they can help me!! I also spoke on the phone to a past patient who highly recommended them. I got goosebumps while talking to her after hearing her story of being sick for 10 years and after she went there she is recovered and living normally again! 
I will spend 2 weeks there going in daily for intense treatment to get better but healing won’t be overnight. After I leave the center I will have a detailed supplement protocol for however much time it takes to make a full recovery.


How will the funds help me?

Every single donation is so appreciated!! Thank you thank you thank you from the bottom of my heart in advance!!! The money raised will help pay for the treatment at a integrative healing center in Wichita, Kansas. The total cost is $8900, but I am paying $2500 of my money. Thank you all so much. I love and appreciate you!!

I’m not the best writer. Sorry about any spelling errors!


MORE OF THE STORY

Gosh, what even lights off a chronic illness that goes on year after year slowly breaking havoc in ones precious incredible body….Welp, for me, of course it was a build up. As far back as I can remember I had anxiety, depression, and ocd and phobias..I can remember as a kid, always feeling like the world was crashing down. When my mom told us she was pregnant with my youngest brother, I was angry and sad cause I was convinced in my mind she was going to die during the labor. When going to a friends and family picnic, I had the worst feeling in my gut and was convinced everyone was going to die of food poisoning, so I didn’t eat anything at the picnic. I still have yet to work with a councilor, but I’m sure these things have to do with the build up, not addressing emotional stuff. Depression and anxiety have always been a part of my life. Im not sure if they’ll ever leave, but I’m learning to work with them better and know they can be a bitch but that they have beauty, truth, and wisdom to offer. 


The physical illness has been building up over 7 years. It all started while I was in the heat of a bad relationship. It was unhealthy and I was in a constant state of panic. I started having having symptoms with bad digestion, hormonal fluctuations, ovarian cysts, breast cysts, and chronic pain for so many years. Things in my body will flare up depending on the situation. Stress is huge in all of this. Getting lyme disease made things didn’t help and took everything to another level and the pain in my body got a lot worse. It became hard to work but I kept pushing anyway pretending it wasn’t there. I have become so used to pain in me that Im used to it, and nobody around me would know. I’ve adjusted to it. Writing this, I hate that I’ve accepted it. I hate that I haven’t seen a way out, or believed I could feel well again. For me, whenever there has been a new symptom, Instead of being relaxed about it and finding a solution, I have freaked out and feel again like the world is crashing down on me and theres no hope. Its taken me a while to realize this pattern. Good lord, it feels good to write about this. I’ve learned keeping stuff bottled up for years for bring you the fuck down. I had a doctor tell me, “If you could learn to express your anger, you wouldn’t be so sick” I hated hearing this cause I knew he was right. Instead of telling people what I think, I hold back and drink it up, and the shit that I wanted to express to them. Madness. 

Intuition…

Not listening kicked my ass. 

After I finished my most recent job where I was working on a ship in Alaska, I decided to go to Costa Rica after. In my soul, I knew it wasn’t right. I was really worn out from the job, and I just wanted to go hang with my family for a bit and lay around for a week. But, instead, I went against everything inside me and ran to the jungle. Naturally I crave adventure and uncertainty, and wanted to indulge in it, but knew I shoulda coulda waited till I built my strength back up. I was at my friend, Raisa’s house in Los Angeles, even she was telling me she didn’t have a good feeling about it, but I went anyway, and the first night I was in that open aired jungle hut, I caught something, there were bats and raccoons that frequented the hut, so it could have been anything. But honestly, it wasn’t the jungle that caused this at all. It was the fact that my immune system was already functioning poorly and couldn’t handle all the foreign things coming in that it normally would be able to if it was strong. Ha, funny how life teaches us lessons. This reminds me of Eve, having to pick the apple. Me going to the jungle while knowing my health wasn’t great was picking the apple, and now Im paying.


Now, after 7 years, 

I am committed to ending this cycle. I spent my 20’s accepting being sick, never addressing emotional issues. I wouldn’t date cause I thought, what man would want to date a sick girl? What man would want to take on my health issues? I just figured none would so I just ignored them and bottled up all the sadness..tear, gosh. Writing this, I realize that I didn’t know what love is, I still am not quite there, but I’m realizing more and more what love is, and its definitely not thinking I have to fucking perfect to be accepted. Lately, there has been a shift, this last 12 months really, I feel like I’ve felt love from all sorts of people that I’ve never felt before. I believe it was always there, but lately i’ve learned how to let it come on in :) ya know? gosh, thank you for reading all of this…


I’m SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ready to be better :) and feel great inside this body of mine.

I’m so excited to see what miracles unfold. I’m so excited to feel and see whats possible when I believe. I’m excited to have YOU in my life. I’m so darn grateful for all the beautiful people that are a part of my existence while I roam this planet. Happy tear. Humor……Humor, jokes, fun always must remain an extremely top priority, to me, laughing is oxygen. I miss all of that, I feel i’ve become quite serious while dealing with all of this. Hmmm, I must regain the inner weirdo and start dancing again, and giving back!!! I miss volunteering and helping people. I’ve gotten so obsessed with the idea that since i’ve had all these issues, I’m to qualified to give back. Isn’t it insane? the stuff created in the mind. Ha, well, I must love that part of me, I must and want to love all parts :) Here is to healing, first the heart, mind, soul, spirit…Body after. Hug :)




Aemi Sullivan