cat n disabled Rent help

my name is lee. my service cat is Myer. he is on instagram at 'hellomyer'. i am disabled. i need physical help, and myer is a hard worker during my seizures, belbulsy attacks. during chronic pain, chronic fatigue, my cancer, and much more. i am trying to raise money to keep our home of 20 years. in 2015 i finally got a restraining order against my husband of 18 years after my strokee 5 year ago. he became physically and mentally abusive to me and Myer, also stoled my savings and retirement during my stroke he became addicted to hard drugs.  i couldn't afford my apartment alone or et proper medical care or medication, so i got a roommate. who turned out to be also a drug addict. i was selling what i had left to make ends meet monthly-not like much was left of value, but in april she stopped paying rent to do drugs. se also threathened Myer and my life while destroying my property. i spent 2 months weekly taking eviction classes to be safe without her in my house. i even bought a deadlock for bedroom door to keep Myer safe if i didn't take him with me.  i had to take classes because i am poor and couldn't afford lawyer. morning after i won her eviction i sat on toilet and she busted into the room with arizona ice tea glass bottle full and beat me in the head, eyes, lip, ears, neck and arms. i was bloody. this was in first june. again i'm paying and selling everything. i am disabled and can't work. soon after i was offered a room where people could help me with my health, but needed help packing n moving. goal to move in july 5 when get paid.  by end june no packing had started  and my health getting worse. thinking i would not be in apartment in july i took out a loan to pay my car. with the room rent it would be ok but work on the deposit in payments. my health has continued to worsen back to daily seizures n belbulsy starting again. unable to drive now because i am passing out at random several times a day worse if in a car. make tings worse due to the fact i can't afford food and must be in food  bank lines 2-4 timees a week if i want to eat. in june and july chances to meet n sign room papers didn't happen due to health n important situations came up with landlord. on the 5th i took out the rent $400. and kept all month because i hadn't moved. 3 times 3 people from my church came over to help pack. as july continued i voiced my concern i was still in apartment and had no money to pay it and needed to be out soon. my health gets worse each day, myer is staying next to me at all times if start to seizure or pass out he hits me and screams until i follow him to my medicine then screams until i follow him to my bed to lay down. last thursday i recieved my eviction notice for apartment. i only had $400 for room didn't move into and held 2 more sells of my items amounting to $150-$100 of it lost after the guy who paid me left my hous with his items and more when i left the room. i have no family, no friends except who i talk to at church. this is the first time ive ever been late with my rent in 20 years lived here. i tried to pay what i had but manager said all money or nothing. then found out fees not listed on notice.  i talk to manager today willing to give me until wedsenday (was tuesday) with more fees. i took out another payday loan for next month to help raise money.  according to management if i leave i must leave all property and court eviction will continue. they said my cat is their property since is part of apartment i have not paid rent on.  with all sells, loans, rent for that room i have $315 still needed, to clear this month, but will have fees added to next month not on notice. sice took payday loan next month will be short $300. after talking to them today fees extra this month are $75 and $150. with all of this paid on wedsenday they said eviction will be cleared and can stay but pay next month on time. they said the last 2 fees could be paid next month but eviction wouldn't be cleared just new one next month. i have no place to go with my service cat if he's not my property. i haven't ate in 3 days n not reall sleep-just wake up in strange places in apartment with no idea how got there but myer is there with me.i take great love and care of my baby. my food may not come from the store but his does and his tt. i take him for park walks on his leash when my health alllows. he doesn't have many toys from stores but has lots of love and i make him toys we play with. i am disabled and poor sorry. he gets vet care from vets that give free or veery lowcost treatments. he even has saved my life when my heart stopped in bed. he got help n the paramedics had to deal with a mad worried black siamese while shooting me up with adrenaline 2 times. if i roll over in my sleep i stop breathing n can't wear a cpap-but i have Myer since kitten he learned how to roll me back on side or hit n scream until i woke up and turned myself.  i can't lose him. he can't be homeless. he only understands my commands. he will even attack you if he feels you are a threat by yelling n getting too close to me.  i only need $315 to clear up this notice until wedsenday. but it leaves me short to pay next month with the fees attached and loan i took to try n pay this money to keep a home. those now equal $840 would cover this eviction notice, the fees for thi, and broken fees to next month plus the car loan (extra $45 to get loan not added). i must have the $315 before tuesday midnight. most of the rest the fees will take wedsenday then last of on 5th. 5th is when august rent is due. since this notice and now rent increase my rent is $1250.  my check covers the rent if the fees and the loan were paid-otherwise i'd almost have enough if take out another payday loan in advance of september. but if had the full $840 before wedsenday midnight i would be all caught up. my check would then cover each month's rent-1 doctors visit-max of $40-$45 medicine a month(health getting worse because cant buy all meds need a month i have to rotate what meds buy. still unable to see right doctors but i am here for Myer not me. i keep going n took beatings from hell to protect and save him. i owe him he's saved my life and is a gift from god.people give you advice about evictions but after taking the classes to evict someone-advice sux and they don't understand it goes on criminal no time record for 9 years! not to mention all the other problems. this month must be paid or fees worse and if not caught up after pay july next eviction notice after 5th i will inccur $50 late fee for 6th then $25 late fee per day and whatever daily fee charge judge sets until i leave. i keep praying for help. upset when miss church or have to try n get a ride because i can't drive, thank god it is livestreamed now when i am not there, i can watch with myer.the last 2 years recovering from stroke have been worse than hell to the world i woke up to. a husband i didn't know who stoled from me before took months for emergency restraining order, then his theft of accounts after-even though changed n took him off. ive done all my own therapy from stroke mental physical u name it. all the belbulsy (baby strokes) were like practice for recovery of big one. my myer was there the whole time 3 years in the same room i was abanded in n neglected by husband. he even stole my late mother's jewerly (passed 10 years now) n anything of value she left me. i couldn't drive but he even sold my 68 Mustang. took over year to find out because stuck in room. god woke me in time before the worst-to save me and myer! sorry these can get long for me ive only been talking and writing last 1.5-2 years, and walking like normal person little over year. social skills still need help-very few people to ever talk to. but mainly god gave me myer for the majority of my therapy. to walk him is to walk me, to play with him helps me work coordination. plus he learned sign commands before wword commands. all i have is my soul and myer. i live for him n to care for him. i really need this money badly and have no other option but this. ive been on internet trying to find er money help, its not working. need glasses badly x roommate broke mine in january n with seizures eyesight getting worse. this year medicare stopped covering eye exams and 2 year free glasses, unless your homeless. please im scared for us and don't want to be homeless.  ive tried all programs governments has so many cuts in all of them surprised anyone has them.  there is even help to pay rent and free vet n food if you own a dog! not a cat. if your homeless with a dog you get alot of benefits! even worse i have no real teeth they had to be reconstructed-guess why-first of this month i fell on my floor n all teeth on top left and their posts broke n came out! can't be fixed or put back because no posts n yes tried to find help for that too but no. yes if homeless. i live in pain 24/7 or better 48/14! never a moment without pain or medical problem. myer is my only enjoyment. bless his heart i cant even pet him like you would a normal cat. breaks my heart. but if i hold my hand out like to shake q hand he throws his neck on it n purrs then changes sides. i need severe surgery in both hands wrists and arms from nerve and muscle problems.  a few of my issues are fibromyalgia, anxiety, endomitriosis #2, cancer, arthritus, hysterectomy at age 28 after losing my only child, chronic pain,chronic fatigue, tinnitus, nerve and muscle disorders, apnia, enimic, seizures, belbulsy, lower back-L4 n L5 discs,joint problems(pop out), allergic to the world,no sinus my stomach acid went through throat and ate sinuses, epilipsy, cant spell, hard to have new memories, meory disorders, and so much more so much. if need to be up at 9 must set alarm 2-3 hours before so i can test how bad body is n time will need before get up and out of bed. myer is great with that. its like he knows which time i can do it. he helps me get up, walks me to potty, then to meds, then to drink n back to where left meds. anything else for when get up-i watch n wait for him to lay down again n then i know we've covered the morning. i step out of line i get it from the drill sergent! dont even try to do life out of order or you get slapped or screamed at.  he does all this and more without treats! i dont believe in training with treats. but yes he gets treats at random during the day so no begging.  only begging when late at night n he wants to go to bed. he has always slept at my feet, unless i am ill or nero problems and e sleeps above my head(n after 2nd alarm)-it easier to touch my face or roll me over from there.  please please help us with any money you can before wedsenday midnight, or even after. at least the $315 before tuesday midnight, then the rest i can work with from wedsenday midnight to before the 5th. if helped with all the funds october will be on track with my check n no more loans. for last year been looking for cheaper place but never money for deposit. why took in roommate who finished off what x husband started, uncluding months of police called from me n neighbors n myer(yes he can push er button when set up phone.) roommate who ended up being abusive verbal n physical also after coiple months n her drugs to me, she tried myer and he sttacked her 3 times n her dog who tried to bite me. police did nothing even though had death threats recorded! took over month for my face n head to look normal after beat with arizona big full glass bottle! my black eyes, busted lip n side of face, lumpy ear tok 2 weeks to hear from, the bottle imprints on my neck and arm, plus the bumps all over my head. good thing i live in pain or it could have hurt alot worse during it i was trying to figure out what happening! then remember myer in bedroom n had to get to him screaming. when she stopped she lock herself in her room n called police on me n said i hurt her! i just woke i cant raise my arms over my face! seizures n passing out so bad no want to give it back to loan company if cant use and save money, but i can't now cuz if i dont come up with the money that's where myer and i will be sleeping! i am only asking for money to keep this roof over our heads for this eviction notice. would appreciate the rest for the fees n be on track with money in august so no loans or more fees. i swwear ive lived here in complex 20 years this  apartment 18 years and have never been late by even a day. rent is always the first thing i pay you need a place to live. i pray to never have to ask for help like this again. not like much left to sell but will sell to you if you see an ad! or give if donate. this place is run by a slumlord its easier for him not to fix anything n just pay a fine or sue the tenants if the roof falls in. total ghetto but need a place to live and we been here so long we are safe (we=me n myer).bottem line there is only a few of us left nhere lived over 10 years, so out rent is less n he works hard to get you out if he can make money or find problems to get rid of you. rent with increase next month $1250. 2 bedrooms-if you move in now to them depending on your race they rent from $1580-$1700 for same apartment but updated.this apartment caught on fire like 5 years ago from stove-a stove i had been reporting 3 years not work right and down to 1 burner! i spent 1 week negociating a rental insurance policy for it because getting scared of its problems-on friday agreed to go sign papers on monday when they opened. same friday faxed office work order #3 of month about stove n rats in it n wall from next door. on monday 320am i stood outside watching apartment burn from stove! then collappesed n taking to er! he made us live here as they worked on it! they replace stove paint kitchen, paint chelf doors closed took fight for liscsnce electritian for stove and that was it! didnt follow fire chief letter to remove all wood n kitchen-n i had to trash everything in kitchen because destroyed along with most of items in apartment. didnt get penny to replace my items n place still has fire damage all over.  thank god myer woke me! took me to bathtub first but fireman remove me but myer wouldn't follow i ran back in 3 times until became unconcious.  myer was fine n recieved vet treatments(had husband who made good money until he discovered his nose). this means my life to stay here to keep myer. i need the notice and next month paid so i can legally claim him. like said spent this last year trying to find new place but no deposit money and out here housing market crazy people are renting crawl spaces so not to be homeless so barely no one works with you on deposit why people stay where are for years fear of not having a place. eventhough myer service animal another big no to rent to me and him. which is illegal so they say allergies. or you get no reply backs there are so many people applying and have money to pay anything. most cities have housing freezes if you can get housing. ive been trying hard just me n myer now no stupid husband he skipped state to avoid jail and is in miami! comes near me or myer he going to prison.  after he tried to hurt myer also that last time when police finally give me er order after seeing all the blood but not arrest him i did get myer a restrainging order also! he was granted more yards away from him than i was! football field. n the restraining order on the x roommate i also got myer restraing order against her! i have to protect the only creature with four legs who loves me on this earth. please help us out. im at the end here. i have no one to help me but God, and im waiting for heaven for me and myer from him. until then we need a home, for now this one because eviction notices are in place. as long as paid asap then pay the 5th next month we will be legal again. ill keep trying charities and other agencies to help os out of here.  look im not asking anything for myself or health like medical or medicine (would stop seizures) for me. this is about my cat, my heart,my life, why godd woke me from stroke to care for him.  my only purpose. his INSTAGRAM hellomyer. all my work is for him, all i sold was for him to live in home. yes it hurts to see all the pretty cats on instagram n their nice toys big rooms, thier animal families n human families. it all looks so nice and happy. then i look at him n cry he doesn't have all those nice things. all i can give him is all my love, play time, instagram pix, go for walks. i feel guilty but he doesn't know the things the others have that he's missing. iove always been ab;e to give him a home. and i think the other cats have no idea what its like to work so hard for a human n be happy. i see others in yards having fun. but i can leave front door open all day n he wont go out of it unless i step outsidee too-i even try to sneak n the house so he can sit out-but the moment he notices i left him he runs in n slaps my leg n yells at me!  seriously i am always in his sight n he makes it that way. even if i get a rare visitor he doesnnt like i just look around room hes hiding but hes starring at me.  all this and now i can't even secure him the only home hes ever known. im a horrible worthless person at this point in my life. if it wasn't for him id just quit. but i worked too hard to get to heaven for suicide. i cant tell you how much any help means to me. ive spent my life being the only one i can count on, and with my health i can barely do that. in last couple months i had a little help from my pastor with battery for my truck-i loan him my car after he had accident and my car broke down on him! figures.not like i drive it much and it needs struts. but we need money for a roof over our heads.i miss my mother we lived accross the contry n ddnt see  her before she passed from cancer but that was the end of my family-even my stepdad quit me after years of raising me. he got a new wife why need a stepdaughter? my brother in arkansas goes years without talking-if i call goes to voice mail-told me before he busy with his family-like im not family. dont know where aunts uncles or cousins even are. my father has own new wife and daughter goes months n years without talking to me except get rid of your cat! found aunt n cousin in new mexico that lasted 2-3 of txting after 12 years! nobody cares but myer. look what x husband of 18 years did to me after i had stroke! n then kept raping me anyway he could. his rant was you love that cat more than me n he loves you more than me. my reply was yes we do! if myer got paid for the work he does we'd be rich n the perfect mean little son. my son. all my cats before have been female. never wanted a male from what heard.my 4 lb deaf albino cat died night before got myer. myer was god sent.night mlee died had dream of black kitten running accross tv screen. had already decided before mlee died i wanted a siamese. called breeder next day before cremate mlee n she paused saying 1 left and discount because big pause. i said it's black! she replied oh u already called i said no i already have seen him. she ask how i know it was a he. i said told you i already seen him. mlee got sick organ failure after i lost my son-my only child-my cancer n health killed my baby. im horrible person, but during treatments never knew pregnant until 8th month! even had 3 surguries near area by reknowened OB/GYN. went from 180 lbs to 98 lbs! treatment induced menapause no periods. i always vomit nothing new. but my son never had a chance. ill see him in heaven. but GOD gave me another son that no one wanted that was even on sale! his name is Myer Bociphus Ling A. but the whole 8 monthe i had the same dream each night-my husband n a baby boy dressed alike-as the months went on the boy grew bigger and longer hair like my husband! always matching outfits(my x was mr GQ always dressed to ritz even to get mail. but i was never n the dreams but the little boy would ask about me my husband would always say she loved you alot.  anyway my godsend Myer my new baby boy. when we went to get him they didn't even keep him with the correctly marked ones because she said afraid price go down-he was unwanted! but not by me i always wanted him. n this baby has taken care of me n stayed n eye sight of me since day one. i couldn't go on without him. he is my son and will always be. he has taught me to try n live again as much as i can. not many get another chance at living after a stroke. he trained me more than i trained him. my life has been horrible, painful,hurtfull,scared,confused, and more last couple years except for myer. he even knows when to make me laugh. no one has told him he's not a kid yet. i need these funds as soon as possible. please share this with others, i have like 10 facebook friends myer has 299 instagram followers. i dont know how to do all these things since october i have been relearning technology n how to use the new. since no friends i have been teaching myself. please share and help us. even a dollar or pocket change will help. if i could stand long enough i would use a cup n make a sign n stand at an intersection to beg for help. i love my cat. i am even a vet-air force joined when i was 18 the gulf war started while in basic but i got a medical discharge-go figure. i got adult asthma in the desert that's auto medical discharge. ruined my life plan of retiring in the military like my dad and stepdad. please cat lovers help us. please. like i said im asking for a roof for me n myer not money for any of my medical problems or other issues. not that i have an answer or help for them butim trying to find help. just keep trying have been for years but there is less n less help out there unless there is a new food bank-plenty of those if they stay open with the changeing laws. i know i cant afford to buy food at a store so i have to find several a week because just one wont feed 1 person for 2 days. and they get the same as a family of 4-5! the families are lucky to get $50 a month in food stamps and these people work hard! even the kids. please it would mean my life to keep my roof over our heads. soon ill be back to no driving liscence so living in the truck will mean nothing. one last thing i have ive been trying to sale is '94 black ibanez 4 string soundgear bass-hardshell factory-extra strings-electric metradome-silver strap snap ons-70's leather strap-ive had it for 22-23 years bought new-played when younger but had 5 basses-when health went so did arm n hand strentgh had to quit music -when quit sold all basses but this one-kept all these years in the case not played-it was last i bought used maybe 10-13 times. whoever donates the most i will give it to you. i have crapy 40 amp if want to but only thing myer uses for scratching post. may need to cod it in mail unless you live close. if you get this after nthe date please continue to donate because ill be working on the eviction notices more n need a lawyer by then for court. but i promise all money will be going for what said!just found out today to try this as last ditch effort. please help us. even if you cant donate may i ask you to at least pray for us?everything helps n god hears all prayers. he is an on time god doesn't live in our time frame. only reason i haven't given up on a life of so many trials and lessons. and im a good person! its like i never get out of the courtroom! lol. im always the victim. but i learn alot. cept this time myer is a victim too. please share n tag n pass on cat lovers n people lovers. if you do one good deed this year let it be us please. m. lee a.  AKA bandcu fowl(sorry alias to hide from x husband from finding us n hurting us next time we may not make it out alive)