Save my kids from being fatherless

Hello, my name is Daniel Willis. I am a 30 year old, father of two children. My 5 year old Monster, and my 4 year old Princess...
I've worked tirelessly since my children have been born, and been their only financial provider until my medical conditions prevented me from doing so.  My wife only recently started worked to suppliment our income due to my inability to work as often as I once was able. 
I am looking for assistance in hiring a divorce attorney. Here is my story;

Recently, my wife and I have not been on the same page. Call it incompatibility, maybe because she spends her waking moments on her phone, my inability to get on the same level as her, or the fact that we haven't slept in the same bed in over two years, whatever. After multiple discussions about how we would move forward, we decided a divorce would be the only way, with shared parenting and me remaining in the house, due to the fact that she could not afford it. However, shortly after this decision, I made the mistake of restarting chantix
(a drug known to cause suicidal thoughts/behavior) on top of undiagnosed depression, and anxiety. I became suicidal. My wife called the police and told them. Fortunately I was able to receive the help I needed and was taken off chantix immediately, and for that, I am greatful. Unfortunately, I also suffer from Tachacardia and Neurocardiogenic syncope. During my stay in the hospital, I suffered from two Vesovagal (passing out due to extreme anxiety and stress)attacks, Once released (after one day) from the hospital, expecting love and support from my wife, I was greeted with a protection order that my wife had put on me. I had passed my evaluation, and it was clear and obvious that I was only suicidal due to taking chantix. My wife, however, had seemingly decided to take advantage of not only my medical condition, but also, my moment of weakness after taking chantix. After being greeted with the protection order, I had multiple vesovagal attacks, obviously due to the extreme stress and anxiety. My cardiologist naturally responded by putting me on disability until I can better manage the stress and anxiety in my life. The protection order states that I am no longer allowed at my home, it also stated that I am not able to see my children until my court date one week after being served the order. I proceeded to court, ready to defend my position, only to find out that it had been rescheduled for one month later, Augest 26th. 
Now my wife would seek the divorce I sought, as well as full custody of both of my children, our home, spousal support in the amount of 500 a month, in addition to 620 dollars a month in child support. She knows I'm a good father, as well as anyone who has ever seen me with them. This is an obvoius attempt at taking my children away from me and making me look like a bad person, for her own personal gain. 
 
My children are my world and without a doubt, my heart and soul. I cannot live without them in my life. Its important for me to remain in their life because I grew up without a father in my life. I know what kind of insecurities that it causes, what kind of damage it can do to a child, to not have a positive roll model in their life. 
My wife slept til noon on a regular basis, I've had to wake her up daily, at both my breaks from work to ensure she was looking after the kids for the last two years. Seeing them standing around a mess of toys, with sagging diapers, looking at me as if they broke some rule, I would assure them they needed to wake mommy. They usually responded by saying they tried.... They are fed waffles for breakfast and only waffles, snacks for lunch and usually frozen pizza or mac and cheese for dinner, if they're not full of vanella waffers by then...
Any progress I've made with potty training, meals, ect is usually met with immediate regression when their mom allows it. Dispite my best efforts to confront her on any subject, it only created additional conflict. My children are the only thing in this world that matter to me, they deserve to be raised better than this, I need to stay in their lives. They need their father and I need them. 

The amount of $5000 dollars is for a good divorce attorney, any amount after would be used for housing for my children. 

If I am able to reach or exceed my goal, I would be, and my children would be most greatful to anyone who could donate or share this. Please help me stay in my childrens life. No child deserves to grow up without a father.