Building the Lawson Family

Hi everyone! We are Devontee and Jordan Lawson. We met in 2013 and married in 2016. We are 28 and 29 years old and have a willingness to start our family through adoption. For as long as I can remember I’ve always wanted to be a mom. I had such an ‘ideal family picture’ in my head growing up until reality hit me. Devontee and I met while working at a Child Development Center in Europe and one of the first things that drew us together, is seeing how we each interacted with children. Working together everyday we developed a relationship and talked about our desire to have a family. After traveling around Europe, building a solid foundation and moving back to America we decided it was time for a big step in our life. Devontee joining the military and taking steps to start our much desired family. A year goes by and we felt we were getting nowhere...I was constantly getting my hopes up, thinking ‘this is the month!’ but negative after negative test I slowly was feeling defeated and felt my ‘ideal family picture’ slowly slipping away. Finally, we went to see a doctor and they told us to give it more time. Almost another year went by and we went back to the doctor and they decided they were going to start doing scans and all kinds of tests. I was in and out, always at appointments and getting looked at. They told me I had (have) fibroids and a cyst on my left ovary. I remember feeling scared, I wasn’t sure what this could mean. Devontee’s tests all came back normal and I felt so ‘alone’ (why wasn’t my body doing what it is suppose to do?). MRI’s and many ultrasounds and medicines later they told me my cyst was growing. They decided we were going to try surgery, remove the cyst and see what else is going on. I had the surgery and they told me I had one of the worst cases of endometriosis they have seen in a long time. I had a large cyst sitting on my left ovary, I had lesions everywhere and both of my tubes were shut and more. From here there wasn’t much to do. Rest, recover, track my cycles and keep trying. I gave up, I was tired. We were referred for IVF and I just knew it’d never happen naturally. Well, a month after I decided I was done, it happened. I finally got a positive test. We were ecstatic! We called everyone, this was the best news we have ever had! Then a couple weeks later I felt ‘off’. I just knew something was wrong. I called my doctor and told them I needed to come in early that I felt something was wrong. I went in and they told me they couldn’t see anything. There was no baby. I have never felt so defeated, so lost, so empty. They didn’t know what happened, if it was a miscarriage or ectopic. I was getting blood work every 2 days and on watch, ectopic pregnancies can be life threatening. After a week my pregnancy hormones (HCG) were not dropping, this shows it was not a miscarriage but it was an ectopic. Many times after ectopic pregnancies women can no longer become pregnant because her tube(s) can be ruined. Well, as my mom always says ‘God has a plan for you.’ Devontee and I know our path is to have a family and to be wonderful and loving parents. Our path to our goal isn’t ideal; it’s heartache, sadness and a lot of trials and tribulations. We want to take our passion for being parents and become parents to children that need them. We know there are lots of children that are in need of a loving and caring home and we know we can provide that. We would love and appreciate any help anyone could give us to help grow our family and help children into a loving home. Thank you to everyone!