Bunnie

Hi everyone, bunnie here - my cat's nail is doing really well! His cone is off because he was refusing to use the box, and he seems back to normal. I discovered the injury a little late, anyway, so I think we're just about at the one month mark since it tore off? I do see a little bit of nail growth, so I'm hoping his nail will grow back healthy and strong. Time will tell. I received some cat food from a community member, and the cats have thankfully taken to these fairly well with the help of the probiotics folks have been sending us (FortiFlora). I can keep going for the rest of this month for sure with these. The routine wishlist contributions of cat food and litter have truly been extremely helpful! As for income, I applied to a job a couple days ago, but at the advice of community members, I have been taking it slow. I'm barely managing to coordinate the different pieces of my move right now, so I'm relying heavily on friends and community to send me job listings. You can see my email of interest on the receipts padlet. If I can find more to apply to, I likely won't upload proof for every single one as that will take a toll on my mental health, too (admittedly, it's unsustainably challenging constantly showing my humiliating business like this after the recent job loss); instead, I'll upload enough to show you that I really am trying out here. I sent out thank you notes yesterday, so I'm all caught up! If you've contributed recently, you should see those in your email inbox or wherever it is GFM sends those. Thank you so much for your help and attention (especially your attention) as always. It is the thing that keeps me going despite the pain of shame because there's nothing as horrible as feeling completely stranded and alone. I hope that all of you still reading these and/or giving funds will get your kindness returned to you in amazing ways. Everything you contribute helps me fund my immediate bills, the move itself, new rent starting December, and household items I won't have post-move!

Hi everyone, bunnie here - heavy update. Don't worry about my cat! His claw is doing great, so as long as my cats don't get hurt or sick, nothing to worry about for the time being. I canceled my upcoming vet appointment because I already know them - they'll just peek, say it's fine, and send me home, which will cost me like $80-100; his quick is pink with some red scabbing from where there were wounds. It's progressing well, and he seems pretty happy. The heavy update: to preface this, please know I uploaded screenshots of documents (redacted for baseline privacy) to back this up since I know it might seem ridiculous. I have been fired. Well, sort of. For two months, I've feared and then more strongly suspected discrimination. On paper, it is a voluntary resignation because the way the appointment with my boss went is, everything got phrased as wanting to help and seeing if some time away would help. But she used words like "separation" and "taking time [for myself]" that I understood I was being fired. I cried in the appointment and said I understand that people have to make decisions for their business because okay, I'm being fired. I only realized seeing the document that technically, I allegedly resigned. No, the way I, a human being, see it, is that I got fired. And now I'm not eligible for unemployment benefits. I don't have access to company materials that can even help me document anything I could even try to use. At this workplace, only one other person was a person of color like me, and I have felt consistently micromanaged, questioned, and honestly? harassed to the point of wishing every day I could just quit. The other person of color validated my feelings, saying that I am not wrong to feel how I feel. I kept going because I knew I couldn't afford losing this income, not in this job market, not after the years of having nothing. I pushed even after I saw their critical and even mean backend notes about my work in my application that were things like "not even good" and "I hate it." All in all, I have a lot going on affecting my mental health, but a lot of the things I got criticized for were things I didn't know through training as they had to be learned literally on the job or weren't covered sufficiently in ways that are supportive of my brain or even at all. Even when I tried to go out of my way to learn better, my efforts were criticized as a waste of time, and I was berated for trying to put time on the calendar after hearing from others I could do that. Meanwhile, the other new person was consistently praised. Whenever I did receive praise, it was worded differently; I could feel the appreciation radiating from my boss when talking to the other new person - whenever she said anything like that to me, I did not feel reassured. But I kept going. For one case, I processed things as I should, and yet I still was asked why I didn't process it because my boss had made a typo searching for the client's name, couldn't find them in the system, created a new file for her, which then just synced it all back to the work I did. That file has two initial documents on it. So I did do my job, yet I was blamed and talked to like I wasn't retaining anything from training, which isn't true. When I gently pointed this out, I was not heard, and she told me that I can do better. At every place of employment, I have been a star employee, someone who gets promoted at breakneck speed, and etc. I've never been as aggrieved as I have been at this company when it comes down to just pure work. This is not a matter of my competence in any way, and I feel punished. I'll receive the pay for what I worked this week eventually, which is barely over 10 hours due to missing some work after my recent COVID booster, which caused a high fever that wouldn't go down fully for two days. This was also cited as part of the reason I had to have that conversation with my boss, despite everyone always pulling out all the time for various reasons such as feeling unwell or being busy with family. The job itself is flexible, and I had a good reason every time I couldn't be here and did my best to communicate well in advance. I am so tired of these Ls, and I'm really sorry that all of you have to get these genuinely and completely depressing bits of news from me back to back. I am going to look for other work immediately because I can't afford this, not right before a move and having higher bills on my plate. I can't stop crying. Please keep me in your thoughts, and again, please check out my Padlet at this link if you need proof of this awful update: https://padlet.com/bunniepad/bunnie-receipts-s024caif6ghxer2sczzd

Hi everyone, it's bunnie - dropping an update, hope to circle back to 1:1 thanks notes to recent donors soon! My cat's injury bled, but I'm doing my best to keep it clean, still. I fully gave up on keeping it bandaged, so that just means I have to clean it constantly (wash off litter, etc); I've decided I just have to sacrifice some of my time to keep a closer watch on him and sadly, also his brother who is not having a good time (vomiting, starving himself, etc) after his brother came back with vet smells from the clinic. My local friends are contributing boxes, a mattress protector, and tape to cover some of my moving needs, and I'm seeing if some other folks I know might be able to help with the rest of the moving supplies via buy nothing groups, thrifts, and what they can lend out. With the donation funds, I'm going to try to get some space-saving items while there's still stock as I will need specific dimensions. Receipts going up on Padlet. $140 (before fees) were donated since the last update - thank you, thank you, thank you. Literally anything helps me plan this in a way that lets me have space for my cats and everything I have to take AND have enough to pay my bills. Help allows me to feel more of the positive aspects of finally doing what I've needed but couldn't brave for a long time. I hope nothing else goes wrong before the move and that I can get everything I need for it. I want to feel like I'm at home with myself, in my own body.

Hi everyone, bunnie with an actually short cat update since I'm sure folks want to know how the cat they've helped support for almost two years is doing. The short of it is, he's doing a little better! As well as he can just a few days into treatment, honestly. The quick doesn't look as horrible, although it's still inflamed and angry. I'm doing everything I can as often as I can, so hopefully it only gets easier from now. There's less pus, too. Please send him good bowel movement wishes! Thank you SO much for helping him get seen at the vet!! Hopefully the followup visit 1.5 weeks later confirms that he's healing as he should, and hopefully I won't have to randomly take him in before then for bowel obstructions or something else :(

Hi everyone, bunnie with updates about my injured soul cat - he's not doing worse, at least! Before I get to it: I was sent $130 via Venmo today, and two of you guys donated $550 total (before fees) on this campaign. Thank you so much for this relief - more on the math further below, and what my *current* anticipated urgent needs are. About my cat: I managed to find someone to give me a ride to and from the clinic and lucked out with a same-day appointment. The doctor confirmed my cat's nail has been completely torn off and looking angry - quick entirely exposed - and is very infected. She says he is in immense pain and his claw may never grow back; she hopes it will by the 90-day mark. The whole visit cost $189.46 for an exam, antibiotic injection, pain relief meds, and bandaging. I have a followup appointment on 10/21. Unfortunately, he's a smart, stubborn cat who shook his little arm relentlessly until the bandaging fell off even while stumbling around on gabapentin. I know my cat well - he actually uses his little "thumbs" and he'll worm his way out of literally everything unless you do something creative, including his e-collar: We ended up cutting up some shirts to sew long socks for him, lined with sterile gauze strips and hooked securely around his upper torso through his emergency harness. We'll be changing these out 1-2x daily depending on how he does in addition to saline flushes and rinses every time after he uses the litter box. The collar never stays on the whole day, but I'm doing my best to put it back on him whenever I notice. I placed an order for pet wrap (bandaging), a wound care spray (I was using a sterile saline eye rinse for cats the other day), and two toothbrushes for $39.93 to help me stay stocked through his healing and secure his new "socks" better. I raised $680 for this, and the visit + order amount to $229.39, leaving $450.61. This prepares me for the followup visit and whatever else may be needed for him to heal. Transparently, I would like to keep raising funds for it and dedicate some of what I got to actually secure things for emergency go bags, shared storage post-move (can't take everything I own since my family needs things, too), and catproofing. That way, what I make can be saved for my new rent. Accountability link: padlet.com/bunniepad/bunnie-receipts-s024caif6ghxer2sczzd I made a Padlet show screenshots of pertinent docs like invoices, receipts, etc. If it doesn't work well, I'll just give up, but I have no idea why I didn't think of this before? I hate adding images on GFM because they crop oddly, and Linktree/Carrd were limiting for this. I have a long however many weeks/months ahead of me, planning my move and micromanaging my cat (fun fact: he took about two months to heal from his neuter back in kittenhood because no matter what, he'd find a way to get to his stitches - he had to be hospitalized at the time; he fascinates me) all while trying not to take too much time away from my seasonal job. Your help is immensely appreciated, and your support makes a true difference in the life of a chronically ill person of color.

Hi everyone, bunnie here with a cat update - I just paid two bills and really can't do this right now, but I realized while trying to clip my cat's nails that something is wrong. I'm not sure if he got his nail snagged on something, but part of it broke off, exposing the quick underneath. That toe was fused to the toe beside it with blood and pus, which I just cleaned up. I applied saline solution on it and even spoke with a vet surgeon on a 24/7 chat on one of those telemed vet care sites. She told me I should get him seen at the vet for antibiotics and pain meds. I don't know when I can get my cat to the vet, I'm no longer given the occasional rides by family, and I haven't met my cat's deductible this year. I'd be paying for his visit and the meds along with rides to and from, if I can even get in. I'm already floundering trying to find free moving supplies and other items to get out in December or January. I feel crushed that every move I take forward with income seems to come with immediate setbacks. I got a free giftcard of $20 for groceries this week, but I'm just stressed. Even the other night, I was thinking that I might have to suck it up and commit to the idea of getting acupuncture for some digestive relief since the providers with Medi-Cal have not been working out and acupuncture is usually more affordable than a single PCP visit. I'm so tired, and I don't know what to do. If you can help pitch in so I can cover the costs of whatever this upcoming vet visit and treatments might require for my cat, I'd be very grateful. I'm going to have to take time away from work tomorrow if I can get in soon, and given the clinic's hours, I do think I'll lose hours no matter what. Thank you as always. I'm truly out of words.

Hi everyone, bunnie here with news just about the housing stuff. Predictably really struggling with energy here, so my apologies if I seem brief. I am trying to move out for good in December, after my license gets processed and I can try to save up literally any money I possibly can to pay my partner and their family $900/month for the ability to stay with them. This really, really all sucks, but if anything, that's the great part - I am fortunate enough to have a place lined up with the full consent of their family. Moving and settling in will cost a lot, and the transition will come with new bills (like the rent above). I am doing what I can by recruiting help where possible from folks around me to help move everything I have to take. While some things will be easy to take in someone's car, other things like my mattress will be quite challenging. I also don't have any DIY moving supplies. Although my partner can offer a roof and walls, they do not have stable income, either. I will need to get... 1. Things that allow me to save space while keeping my belongings with others' 2. Things that will help protect their items from being destroyed by my cats 3. Things I'll lose by moving out of my family's 4. Things they don't have but will soon need because of me 5. ...and more. I'll be trying my hardest to find what I need on secondhand markets for cheap, but there just aren't guarantees. I've started a work-in-progress wishlist/gift registry partly for inspo/reference and partly in hopes that I can get assistance directly there (ignore the move-in date being in 2027, please): amazon.com/registries/gl/guest-view/28MC7KL0ZX6F4 Full disclosure upfront - many of the items on the list are not the cheapest options for what they do. But I have chosen them in hopes of showing people exactly what I need (specs such as material or size), having seen the general dimensions of the place already, and well, I'm... just really scared to get things that will break easily. So some of these things are more substantial than flimsy. They're things I hope can last me for a long time. In some ways, I feel like a failure. After struggling for long trying to land any job at all, I've bumped up against these limits with my mental and physical health, creating new problems and expenses for me to worry about. While that's just part of life, it brings me a lot of embarrassment to keep asking for help. Anything helps. Cat food, litter, a bill covered, anything. Anything at all would go toward me no longer living in extreme emotional distress. Thank you as always for reading. It means so much to me, and I'm grateful for your presence. If you're here, you haven't given up on me yet. And as ashamed and depressed as I feel, that gives me enough hope to get up right now because I've had new winds blow in my life already, like with that new job. Please stay safe out there. Thinking of everyone.

Hi everyone, bunnie here, just here with a mixed bag of news as usual. I'm sorry it isn't very uplifting, but it starts with great news: 1. I passed the exam. I need to get licensed now. 2. Per my previous updates, my expected income is hardly stable, even with this job; I do hope to have a better sense soon, even with 20-30 hrs/wk promised through the next few months. It's such a flexible job (when it comes to scheduling) that I actually don't know if it'll pan out as stated? 3. My housing situation is unsustainable. I am having a hard time surviving mentally/emotionally and have hit a limit; I didn't know I could even reach this point, but without going into further details on a GFM update, I now have hit an unprecedented low. My body just can't do it anymore; I'm still talking to the doctor, but it is rather apparent (doctor confirmed) that at minimum on an acute level, my stress is causing most of my god awful symptoms - she just can't rule out if there are other causes that we can remedy. 4. The bills have been brutal. If I choose my own safety and sanity right now and relocate (this may not even be an option, but I am in talks with someone), my bills will double or triple in amount. I don't know how I'm going to survive that. At all. I don't know if I even have an ask right now. If you feel called to help financially in any direct way, please do so - it always goes a long way. But if you cannot, then I request that you please share my links so I have better chances of surviving. I know half the folks here are in online communities with me. If you have access to me on socials, please feel free to ask what happened in case you feel hesitant about anything I said; I don't want to cause distress, even if it simply is a fact that I'm doing worse in certain ways. I'm really sorry. I hope all of you are doing all right.