sudden death of my 22 year old son

Im not one to normally ask for help...Im a single mum with a mortgage. .The death of my 22 year old son Christian James was a sudden and unexpected shock on the 25th nov 2014 ..I will never know why he took his own life the question why is with me every minute of everyday it has destroyed me..But as we know life stops for noone the bills keep coming iam unable to work at the moment So the financial pressure is a added stress im not dealing with...I need to grieve for my son...Im not really expexting for this to go anywhere but I really have no where to turn.. I would be forever thankful for any help...

Christian and his beautiful daughter Nevaeh Lee James