Help Holden Reunite with His Son Mickey Thompson

Hello, my name is Holden. I'm reaching out to my community and friends in hopes of receiving some help to continue an unfortunate high-conflict custody battle with my ex girlfriend for our son mickey. After taking care of our family and covering her bills for 6 months, I have fallen behind. The funds I scraped together got the ball rolling with the lawyer and the motions necessary to at least stay active in the game. For now. Since our break up though, it's getting incredibly harder to make all ends meet and fund the litigation necessary. She intercepted the tax return, communications that could easily be accomplished amongst each other, she wants routed through our lawyers. A tactic some use to financially ruin their opponents. She's taken out a ppo on January 8th against me to limit, well stop all interaction with our baby boy. I'm heartbroken and devastated that the person I thought I knew could betray me this deeply. She turns on and off the ppo as she sees fit. She has came and went twice now. Once for 5 days and again for 2 days. I watched our son solo for 2 of those days for 6 hours each. She now demands I set up visits at a center and pay hourly rates to have a relationship with our son now that the courts can see our communications and to continue to try and string her false narrative along. It's now been 6 months since she's left and I've gotten a whopping 7 days with him. An she also tried to hint that a violation has occurred to the courts 4 days after spend a weekend with me. She says I'm a safety concern, but her or her lawyer won't let us know what the concerns are to be able to address them properly. I'd say another keep away/delay tactic. I owe 4000 to the lawyer right now and he's threatening to withdrawal from my case. She recently refused me time on father's day. My very first one ever. Quite hurtful to be so blatantly disrespected as a parent and a person. As well as her trampling our sons rights to a relationship with both of us. His 1st birthday is July second. I'm sure she will find a way or excuse to deny me access to him that day as well. Ive missed so many mile stones. Our mediation is the 27th and it's a guarantee that she only agreed to it to waste more time and play keep away even longer. She's turned out to be down right nasty. Does not have our sons best interest at heart. It's hate for me first. I lost my job due to the grief of losing our son. I took 4 months off to be there for him and her and build a bond with our son and as a family unit. We were incredibly bonded to the point mom would get jealous of how much of a daddy's boy he was. She hated that, honestly. An she's making sure that isn't the case anymore. There is no end in sight. She litigates everything and jacks the cost up on lawyer fees and we haven't accomplished anything in 6 months yet. I just want a chance to be there for our son. Nobody is frustrating her time and she thinks she's the only one who deserves to be a part of his life. Out of spite she has cut me off and in turn my entire family. If anything she's the one needing supervised visits at this point. She's creating irreversible damage to Mickey. Especially bringing him into my life and abruptly cutting us off and ripping him away again and I'm sure mickey thinks I'm abandoning him. It is so unfortunate that he's caught in the middle of this ridiculous attempt to alienate me. Anywho, I'm just desperately clinging on to the last bit of hope I have before his mom financially ruins me and severes my relationship with him. I want him to have the best and most healthy shot possible in life while growing up. With a chance to see both parents and love both parents as well as make up his own opinions about us without one parent displaying tactics to make a child fearful, resentful, unsure or feel that a parent can't be trusted over moms made up concerns to limiting a child from a relationship with their loving and supportive father that hasn't done any to not have a spot in his life. It so unfair that she can unilaterally do this to me and mickey. I never ask for help, but this time I truly have no other options as I fall further behind on my living expenses and give all of my unemployment to my lawyer and can't ask him to file anything else and he won't either. I don't blame him. Can't expect him to work for free. I'm doing everything I can to keep from drowning. Feel like im fighting a losing battle. I go back to work monday full time and hoping to get household bills at least somewhat caught back up. But, I'm just hoping for any help you feel you can contribute to help a little boy get back to his father. Would mean so much to me, my son and his whole other half of his family that hasn't seen him since November. Even if it's just a share, it would help a bunch and I'd truly appreciate it. As well as all of you r taking the time to read my story. This is hands down the hardest thing I've had to deal with. I left his mother for the betterment of our sons life and it's essentially just put him in but him in a worse position. I can't give up before we even get started. I would love nothing more in this world than to have even a crumb of time to hug him and watch him open his gifts on his big day! Thank you so much to any one that can help or share or just say a prayer for us. He deserve so much better. He didn't ask for things to be this way and I want to bring him a bit of normalcy in all this chaos. God bless.

P.s all funds will be going towards lawyer fees only. Any thing that left will either be donated to fathers rights campaigns or if it wraps up quicker than expected, I'll pay it forward to a person in the same situation that's just trying to be a father in a world so darn cold to fathers. Wish things would change. Nobody should have to "battle" for a spot in their child's life. An anyone who keeps a child from an involved parent should have a mandatory jail sentence. Seems they just brush it under the rug.

Thank you all once more, have a great day! Please share or tell a friend even. Need some help standing back up is all.