recovery of chronic illness

Hi everyone, my name is Amanda. For as long as I can remember Ive always wanted to live life to the fullest, I just thought I’d have more time. After a Covid infection I did not recover. I did not go back to work. Ultimately, it was an all-out assault on my body and brain,wreaking havoc on my central nervous system. I’ve been debilitated and bedridden with chronic fatigue and pots for almost two years. And I’m fighting to get myself as much help as possible for a chance to get back to the old Amanda again.

I may be smiling in my picture, but inside I’m completely devastated and traumatized internally. You probably haven’t seen me in person lately, and that’s because I can’t go do activities. Since 2021, after a Covid virus infection I had over 60 symptoms. I developed chronic fatigue,I experienced post exertion malaise, and a severe case of postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome.I can’t stand for more then a couple minutes.My heart rate would shoot up to 140 bpm. I’d try to push myself and crash in bed for days unable to get out of it because the fatigue was so bad. I was once such an active girl who enjoyed nature walks, seeing her friends, dancing, and travel on weekends, I was so full of life .Having pots leaves me with a rapid heart rate every day when standing up, causing me unable to exercise, stand in the shower, lifting heavy things, and I’m housebound. I lost my job, and apartment, and moved back to my childhood home where I am not emotionally safe. I’m kept in fight or flight mode and i care about myself too much to continue to stay here but I feel stuck.

This has been not only physically traumatizing on me but emotionally as well. This was a crappy hand dealt to me, I’m unable to get my own groceries, or even stand to cook myself a meal without needing to sit shortly. I see functional medicine in December, to get started on running more testing and expensive treatments done to give me my best shot at healing. Even if you can’t donate anything at this time, your support is what is most important to me , your encouraging messages and out pour of love is helping my recovery and for that, thank you. I love you all. Stay safe, and blessed.

THANK YOU❤️