I woke up out of the blue on March 18, 2017 with severe brain pain. Without going too far into detail, I ended up in the hospital for over a month with what turned out to be a cavernous malformation that was also hemorrhaging . After doing plenty of research on my positional headache and the constant feeling that my brain was going to explode if I lifted my head out from a flat position ,even just the slightest millimeter, I began to wonder if my positional headache was in fact a CSF Leak. I was told that csf leaks are generally caused by surgical errors, lumbar punctures, gymnastics injuries, automobile accidents or something very physically traumatic ...but I had none of that ; I simply woke up on March 18th feeling like I was dying ( literally ) as I was about to make eggs for breakfast on what would have been a normal Saturday morning . Actually, this was my first Saturday morning in my brand new, gorgeous apartment with all my furniture , as my final moving day was just the day before this nightmare began. I've been in my beautiful apartment 7 months now, having spent about two of those months away from home and much of the time in between at hospitals for day visits, doctor appointments , tests, bloodwork, recovering from surgery, etc. Keep in mind that while all of this is happening I am also a past thyroid cancer patient and ever since having my Thyroid removed I have been struggling with maintaining a normal TSH range. My last bloodwork came back to show that my TSH level was at a 151.5, when I am highly medicated to be at a 0.00. My body is clearly rebelling against me and trying to fight the good fight .
Since all of this began I have had two epidural blood patches , a cerebral angiogram and who knows how many MRI's and CT Scans. I've also had two CT myleograms, a drain in my spine (I cannot even put into words how painful this was ; so painful that I am still apologizing over three months later for how awful my mood was when I was kept so highly drugged to numb the pain (I thought I was in the hospital for just 3 days when I was really there for 15). In June I had a laminectomy at my C1-C2 level at the top of my spine (very painful recovery and the surgery was unsuccessful. The spine surgeon inserted a very large amount of fibrin glue into my spine, however there was a 50/50 chance that this glue would either seal my leak or create a "dead space" for my spinal fluid. Regretfully, it created a dead space . My surgery did not take and I've been suffering since June...again.
At first , I was told this must be "psychiatric" or "sleep apnea" because unknown to my knowledge I apparently have a "shorter neck." I left the hospital in severe pain, still unable to sit up or stand and felt hopeless . I was severely depressed and in tremendous pain daily . The only relief I had was when I was totally laying flat , but even then symptoms were still there . After two long months of waiting , I had my follow up MRI's. Indeed, I was right . This wasn't psychiatric or sleep apnea...I have a spontaneous CSF leak and several tears in my dura. This all led to my CT myleogram which then led to the drain in my spine which then led to my laminectomy .
My symptoms over a combined amount of time are as follows :
Nausea and vomiting
Severe neck pain and stiffness, almost as if I become paralyzed when in many different positions
Muffled hearing and ringing in my ears
Imbalanced and lightheaded, almost as if I feel like I am underwater
Sensitivity to light and sensitivity to sound
Terrible pain and stiffness between my shoulder blades
Brain pain as if my brain is sagging in my skull and pulling down toward my spinal cord
Drainage from my nose and a metal-like taste in my mouth
Drainage down the back of my throat and drainage from my left ear
Left eye pain
High pressure sinus aches
Numbness in my face
Excruciating pain in the back of my skull
These are MRI results of total brain and spine as of June and July 2017 compared to April 2017.
There is extensive bilateral and diffuse dural thickening and enhancement which is consistent with intracranial hypertension.
There is prominent epidural fluid noted dorsally at the C1 -C2 level which significantly worse compared to MRI dated April 11, 2017. The dorsal epidural fluid tracks posteriorly into the nuchal ligament and also extends caudally at least of the T6 level.
Several suspicious general defects were noted posteriorly in the cervical spine for example at C2 and C3 and C4 and C7.
Findings are also consistent with suspected cavernous venous malformation in the left splenium of the corpus callosum and left parieto-occipital fissure.
There are several other punctate Foci of susceptibility including in the right frontal operculum, in the right corona radiata, and in the left Corona radiata; these are likely from small microhemorrhages.
There are a few scattered punctate foci of T2/FLAIR Signal in the Periventricular and subcortical White matter which are nonspecific.
Prominent pituitary gland likely accentuated by intracranial hypotension.
There are mucous retention cysts in the bilateral maxillary sinuses. Minimal mucosal thickening in the ethmoid air cells .
A smaller amount of dorsal epidural fluid is noted in the lower thoracic spine from T62T 12 which appears similar to MRI dated April 11, 2017.
There are similar small disc bulges in the spine.
CT myleogram June 2017
There is questionable contrast dorsal to theCal sack at the scene one C3 level. There is a minor ventral impression on theCal sack at the T 11 and T 12 level.
At the C1 and C2 levels there is a contrast extending extradurally and out into the posterior soft tissues. This appears to be leaking at the c1- c2 level although contrast is seen superiorly and posteriorly to the level of the skull base. Some contrast is seen within the soft tissues inferiorly to the level of C6 and C7.
CT myleogram post laminectomy; July 2017 (I have zero recollection of going in for this procedure)
This exam demonstrated a CSF leak in the C1 and C2 region greater on the left which appears similar to slightly decreased from prior procedure.
Overall findings are that contrast is again seen extravasating from theCal sack in the C1 C2 region .
Post surgery I have had several follow-ups and yet absolutely no luck in any of the doctors at Yale or my several emergency room visits providing me with any relief. I was treated absolutely disgustingly during both of my emergency room visit and I was rejected from going up to the neurological unit. I have been spoken down to, treated like I know nothing of my disorder, and sent running in circle after circle after circle searching for relief. Unfortunately until November 1 I only have state insurance meeting I cannot leave Connecticut for treatment. On top of that, Yale is the ONLY hospital that I can go to for this neurological disorder but they keep sending me in circles and I am convinced they have no idea how to treat me. All emotions aside and negative opinions on my experiences with Yale and related L&M facilities , I am just desperate for a cure or at least for some relief . I have lost my job for now the 7th time in total since becoming ill (including Thyroid cancer ). I am desperate for some pain relief and to get my life back. I am 28- year young and more depressed than ever and in terrible pain 24/7. There is no relief for me .
I needed to reach out and find support from others who suffer from the same condition as me and luckily I found a group for those who suffer from CSF leaks . Hundreds of leakers just like me from all over the world have referred me to Cedars Sinai in Los Angeles, CA where Doctor Wouter Schievink specializes in CSF leaks and torn duras. It is very hopeful that he is going to be soon accepting me as a patient . This could give me my life back. The hardship in this , aside from the obvious existing suffering, is that financially this is going to completely deplete my savings account and potentially may take more than one trip and more than one procedure . Finally I am looking at a potential $7,000 WITHOUT surgery cost . I am doing my best to lower these costs by reaching out and trying to find friends or friends of friends who could help with boarding, an amazing leaker sister who has offered to help with flight costs and friends who could help with my beautiful fur babies . Still, I am looking at many thousands . As I said, this doesn't even touch my surgery costs , which I'll owe 20% of, nor does it cover food, but I literally need this to heal my dura and protect my spine and brain.
I am currently awaiting the results of my MRI from last Friday. I should have them any day now. All I know is that I was (rudely) told that my leak has worsened . Please help me spread awareness on CSF leaks and help me raise any funds at all to help pay for this life changing medical journey for
Me . Any and all help is more than appreciated . Thank you , always.
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