beautiful mom

Yesterday at 430 pm my mom came into lay down next to me not feeling good. within mins she was no longer breathing called 911 and just held her and tried with everything I had to wake her up  by the time 930 came around my mom decided that her heart could not go on and she left me. This beautiful courageous woman strong and sweet loving compassionate woman. My rock my guide my compass my everything my best friend the most incredible mom and meme anyone could want.She never left my side no matter what my champion my everything. yesterday was hard it was her grandsons 14th birthday. I take some relief that she left here happy enjoying his big day she was so happy when she was doing things for them. She left us sept 30th  her grand son birthday is sept 30th,her other grandson is sept 7 her birthday is sept 3 and her other grandson is july 30 her brother in laws birthday that the 14 year old is named after  birthday is sept 30 its a circle of simple numbers that I am trying right now to take comfort in.
 Any one that knows us know we were inseparable everywhere i went she went and vice versa  she was never to far behind and me either i could tell her anything ,no judgement no fear just a smile a hug and a hand in the back saying no worries hija everything is going to be okay as long as we are together nothing can separate us.  She was a friend to so many even to my friends they all knew her her smile the take care of my daughter speech. I was a manager of a store lol and my mom would be telling my boss and employees this. which i would be like ohhhh mom but I sure loved it .
She was a  a teacher for many years before she retired she went and worked at macy's and at champion forest baptist church . Every where she went she made friends her easy going loving caring personality just shined. Many students remember her over the years and said hey you are Mrs Carolyn I had you in elementary or middle school depending on the person she worked for Spring Isd for years.
Sorry for being long winded do not know which way is up right now . But I need help lord knows it right now both of prayers and support. I know funerals are expensive  but man oh man the bomb they dropped on me Just for a simple small outdoor service with a simple but pretty casket is 20300 .My  mom worked hard all her life she worked 3 jobs to support me as a young lady and never fussed or grunted about it she worked till the end I need help to show her how much i loved her and needed her i need help to say seen you later i need help to pay for something this unexpected. Please help she is always the first to help my mom my rock my compass is gone but I need to lay her to rest and i need help doing that .