Kingston Lives On

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Back Story. . .

9.2 months, 40 weeks, 280 days, wow! Where did the time go? Well let’s see. Part of that time was spent trying to adjust to the fact that I am pregnant. I’m about to have a baby! The shock of it all is very overwhelming. I have to take into consideration that my body is about to change to accommodate a little one that I can’t even put a name much less a face to. But that will come I guess. Here comes the monthly doctor’s appointments, the prenatal pills, the routine tests, the morning sickness.. Ok, I got this right?

Am I ready for this? It’s time. I’m nervous. I’m sweating in parts I didn’t know I had. Baby are you ready? Are you ready for the world to meet you? You’re my first and the doctor says we’ll be here all night. Lol, I guess you had other plans. You came in less than three hours. On May 31st, our world lit up and changed forever, when our sweet baby Kingston Samir Ahmari Walker was born. Five days after my birthday I might add.

That’s my boy. Wow, you’re so handsome, so angelic, so beautiful, so amazing, so Mommy and Daddy, so precious, strong, you bring tears to my ears. I will protect you forever. I’m a mommy. I’m so proud. I’m over joyed. I’m blessed. I’m thankful. All my fears have left. YOU COMPLETE..

I planned my whole birth from leaving the house to the minute he came out. Nothing and I mean nothing went how I planned. But if you want to make God laugh, tell him your plans right. I had also planned on being back home the next day. The first week of his life was spent in the NICU. Kingston was tachypneic and had some transitional fluid in his lungs. When we got to go home I was overjoyed. The second week of life was full of love and one hospital visit for thrush.

Now we come to the third week of his life. Life drastically came crumbling down when we woke up to him not breathing, just 24 days later. Even now, we still do not now how he passed away, which is an extremely unsettling feeling. Just hoping they will have answers for us soon. However we must find the good in the sad.

Why are we here?

With all the love we can no longer put into our son physically, we decided what would make us feel good, is not having his life lost in vain. Our baby has a powerful name and the world will forever hear it. In that same breath, sad to say we aren't the first parents to experience infant loss. Wanting to connect with others that know what we are going through, as well as having a memorial for our son.

The Plan!

We can turn loss into a celebration filled with great memories, thoughts, etc. This is what we plan to do for the loss of our first son. In honor of Kingston and the other fallen angels that lost their lives at such a tender age, we will remember them. In an effort to celebrate the lives of our loved ones instead of mourn them King's Day is in affect. This is a day we will come together to celebrate loss and life. We will meet new people, make memories, and live.

What you can do?

We are asking for whatever your heart allows. This is an extremely difficult time for us. Our future was taken away and planning a future without our son isn't easy. Finding ways to honor and remember him help not only us but other parents going through this as well. In an effort to accommodate all age groups we will have different stations and activities for everyone at King's day. Face painting, jewelry making, bouncy houses, love letters, color me calm station , and many many more. As you can imagine. this can get pricey, especially because, if it turns out well we are wanting to make this an annual thing.