I wanna start by thanking you for taking the time to read my story and donating any amount you can! Any donations towards my goal is much appreciated.. :)
My name is Miko Tagara, I am 22 years old. I am a Transgender Male which means i do not identify as the gender I was assigned at birth.
Growing up, I always had a feeling that i was different but was too afraid to ever speak of it as i thought no one would ever understand me fully. I came out as Bisexual to my parents as i was in denial of who i truly am and i was too afraid of how my family would react. I knew deep down it wasn't just about what gender i was attracted to, it was about who i am and the body i was trapped into.
I spent most of my adolescence trying to repress this feeling, I became more aware of how i looked, how i didn't look, what i felt inside and how it doesn't mirror my appearance. I am uncomfortable with my own body, i think the best way to describe it is - it feels like i'm living in someone else's body. To me it felt like it was impossible to be born into the wrong gender. I was frustrated and confused. Due to this i developed a lot of mental issues - Depression and Anxiety.
With the help of my loving girlfriend and caring friends and family, I started to understand who i am and why i feel the way i do. I realised that my own happiness matters the most than people's opinion. I wasn't afraid of loosing anyone as i knew the ones that matter would stick by my side through this journey. I learned that i wasn't alone in this and that there are hundreds and thousands of people like me.
As soon as i started to accept who i am, I began my transitioning journey. I contacted Gender Care for a consultation, who soon prescribed me with my Testogel. I am one step closer to being who i really am and growing into the man i'm supposed to be.
I have been on Testosterone for 3 months now and can really feel myself being more confident. I currently use a binder to help achieve a flatter, male-looking chest. Binding has helped with my dysphoria but it has caused me to have some back pain as well as a lot of discomfort especially during the hot weather.
I avoid looking at my chest in the mirror as it leads to self-hatred, it reminds how trapped i really am. I miss being able to play the sports i love and being active without being self conscious about how my chest looks or if it's obvious i'm wearing a binder. I know that the only way to be comfortable and happy with my chest is to undergo a Top Surgery.
Top Surgery is the process of removing the fatty breast tissue to achieve a masculine chest aesthetic. I know that undergoing this surgery will reduce the physical pain and mental anguish I fight on a daily basis - this is an absolute necessity as it will make me feel less trapped in my own body.
I've recently had my Top Surgery Consultation with Mr Inglefield who is a specialist transgender surgeon in London Transgender Clinic. He has advised that the best surgery for me would be a double -incision which he has quoted for £6650 this includes; an estimated Hospital fee of £2150 and surgical /anaesthesia fee of £4500 .The consultation fee was included in this as well as one year after care from the surgery.
I have scheduled my surgery for the 5th December 2019 for my Top Surgery which could vary depending on the financial situation. I have chosen a nearer date because i feel that Top Surgery is no longer something i want, but something I need. Due to some Financial problems i was unable to Finance £4,000 in order to speed the process - This has resulted into increasing my Goal to the full amount £6650.
£2150 will need to be paid a week before surgery date and 25% of £4450 (which will be £1,125) needs to be paid as the deposit to confirm the Scheduled Top Surgery date.
Thank you for your time and any contribution that you can make. Any kind of support would mean the absolute world to me. Please share this page with your friends and family; it would be very much appreciated.
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