If you're here from TikTok — you already know the story.-- but just in case, bear with me as I give you the cliff notes --- I was traveling the US in an RV trying to find myself after my stalker, who is my ex business partner began pushing me to suicide again. In promoting mental health and meeting friends from TikTok I was in an accident that should have killed me. After helping the person that was with me recover I thought I could start my life over in France, free from everything that kept burying me in the US --- I was wrong. The person I went to help, who did suffer in the accident with was talking to my stalker. When I found out, I tried to leave and instead of wishing me well, she called the Police on me to force me to stay ---and I have to admit that it truly was scary knowing my stalker who will never stop hunting me - could physically reach me thousands of miles and an ocean apart --- it makes me question if I will ever have safety from him ---- I told this woman about him, she knew how devastating he is to me and that level of betrayal nearly broke me-- now I will always have tremendous guilt over this part of my story -- that woman broke her back and according to the doctors, was recovering better then expected; but she will always have that in her life and because of that I did everything I thought I should and genuinely thought I was helping and was upfront about the help I would need to start my life over --- but when it came time for me to get on my feet, everything went from caring for me to hating and doubting me ---maybe we got lost in translation or maybe some people only see me the way they want--regardless, I hope she heals one day and lives a better life ---- Now, because of that experience, I found myself with no resources, no friends and no clue what I was going to do. --- But I got lucky and some people I barely knew from TikTok and a few amazing grandmas from France took me in and cared for me, by feeding me and my dog while giving us a safe space to sleep,--which we needed, because at that time the people I left in the states and in France were harassing me daily on my social media and website, telling me they were gonna get me thrown in jail--- and my dog would be in a pound.

Now this is not a sob story, it really isn't. If you have been on my website or followed me, you know my life has had ups and downs and regardless of the people or the powerful institutions that were carless with my life, so was I ---no matter how evil some people in my life have been, its still my life and no one is to blame but me.

The only thing I've asked is for the space to just heal, figure shit out and get better in life and in myself. Some people let me, a small few don't -- but I still keep going on.

The miracle isn't that I survived so much, but that people from all over the world not just found me, they lifted me up --some with money, some with thoughtful words of support and some, like my grandmas I France who showed me what true humanity and grace looks like.

With all of this help and my own determination, I have done the impossible. I got my visa approved, I finally have a home, I have made new friends and am making an impact where I live --and am slowly building a new business that will one day let me and my dog travel through Europe ---not just to eat amazing foods, but so she can pee and poop all through Europe annnddd so we connect with people that are like us and one day, find home ---- If I still have this gofundme up, it is because I could still use some help with things until I am truly stable ---but also it is in a way a part of my life, a part that saved me as well and is part of the legacy I have as a memory, ---so as odd as this sounds, I may leave it up just to look back at. Anyway. If you are interested in helping a few lost souls --we would truly love any help --below are some things I will happily appreciate the help on. --- OH and yes, everyday I still fight the good fight for my mental health --- its a horrible thing to struggle like this emotionally and mentally and for so long, I've done it alone, and have done it with people who continue to push me to my breaking point --- but no more---I am not alone and I will not be forced into suicide by me or those people. I will fight for the rest of my long long life not just for me, but for everyone like me.

-- Legal fees to pursue some legal actions that would change my life

-- Just some new or used clothes I have 3 pairs of jeans and 4 polos as my nice clothes and 1 pair has holes in them

-- Some toys and dog stuff for Seven

-- A cheese pizza - just to splurge -- but in reality I will just buy some more groceries to eat better

-- a coffee from a real cafe --it is a luxury item, so it would be really nice to taste that again