Do I deserve to eat?
Or should I get punished for living the way I do?
Should I get a warning shot for not playing by rules of society?
Should I pay the price for being an explorer — experimenting with new ways so that we, collectively, can adapt our direction into one that isn’t self-destroying?
Should I be punished for giving away my time and life-force for free without ever asking for anything in return — serving in a way that’s not tangible for others, with no measurable impact to point at, no way to be fully understood through the mind?
Or… is it rather the opposite – the awareness hereof simply not yet awakened?
Shouldn’t all members of the tribe be encouraged to play their role, even if it’s an uncomfortable one for the rest?
Shouldn’t those who take the biggest risks in service of the whole — the explorers who discover new terrain behind the mountain (even if tigers might be waiting) — receive the strongest backing from the main tribe?
Shouldn’t there be a level of unconditional support for everyone (including making mistakes on the journey)?
Eat & Serve – that’s all I want to do.
Day by day. Week by week. Year by year.
There is nothing I would rather spend my life-force & energy on.
And yet, it feels as though the world tries to make that as hard as possible — cutting off support until I say:
“Alright, I’ll work a ‘normal’ job…”
Many would be relieved to hear it — even if it meant betraying myself, abandoning my truth, and withholding my greatest gift from the world.
It’s a paradox.
Eat stands for my basic needs — food being the one that requires the most money.
Why? I can sleep outdoors in summer or, if I travel south, all year round.
Other possibilities for this bucket: health insurance (which I haven’t had for two years now).
Serve — maybe less obvious — means everything I do when connected to my True Self, and thereby my intention to play my unique (and tiny) role so that the world becomes the more beautiful place our hearts know is possible.
The money here could be used for ChatJFK or other online tools.
It could support travelling if that’s what life asks of me.
It could be passed on as a gift in the right moment, planting seeds of interbeing.
And for everything else, my intuition leads me to that serves the world to become a tiny bit more beautiful & loving.
And then there are mistakes.
Also being accepted, supported & cared for in the moments I am NOT connected with this deeper truth. I’m not perfect! And I will never! That’s part of the exploration. Maybe even its essence: Living in alignment DESPITE all human imperfections.
Here, the money might go to overeating food (= emotional eating).
Or for giving too much when passing on money to others – sometimes only to avoid feeling bad (= avoiding pain).
And for all other mistakes connected to money.
## Reasons to give
This crowdfunding might be as unusual as my life itself.
Other than what I’ve already shared, I will NOT provide a list of reasons to give me money.
Instead, I’ll give you reasons not to.
Why?
Because if someone doesn’t feel — on a deeper level than the mind — that this is right, then no list of reasons will get them there.
I’m saving you time searching for flaws in a “Reasons to Give” section.
You’ll find more than enough reasons against (to justify your decision to yourself?) in the list below.
## Reasons NOT to give
- I will make mistakes. Many!
- Emotional eating — some food money will go toward pleasure or avoiding pain
- Even my family and many close friends don’t support me.
- I trigger people (including you & people you know)! – That’s unavoidable if I stay true to myself and serve the world with my greatest gift
- I will not “give back” to you — I will give on. Maybe to you, but never because you gave to me earlier.
- My contribution to the world is often intangible and invisible. I could justify anything with “intuition” or “truth.”
- I will not follow expectations.
- I might “change my mind” — using money given for one purpose for another, if that’s what truth asks of me.
- I’m not reliable (in the conventional sense).
- I will seem egoistic to many people
- People perceive me as arrogant or not on “eye-level” → even those closest to me!
I will not “defend” against any of them (even if I would love to…).
If any of them stop you from giving, so be it.
You can even ask ChatJFK for more reasons against.
## ChatJFK
What if you paired ChatGPT’s reasoning power with my voice and worldview?
That’s ChatJFK — an AI infused with virtue and the principles of interbeing rather than separation.
You can use it to:
- Ask for more reasons against donating
- Explore what the money might be used for
- Even find out my current bank account balance
And, if you’re persistent, it will even tell you reasons for giving (something I won’t do here).
Use it however feels right — or not at all.
## This Crowdfunding = Unconditional Support
If you ask what the money will be used for, the only honest answer is: Everything.
From my most basic needs to the highest acts of service.
And even my mistakes – all the moments I’m not connected with any real needs at all.
Rather than list every possibility, I gave you the range.
Everything donated here will end up on my personal bank account.
No guarantees of specific use — only the commitment to follow truth, moment to moment.
## Specific Support? → Possible!
You want to support, but ONLY for the basic needs? Or ONLY for me writing a specific book or for some other specific purpose?
Well… let me say this:
A) it’s possible
→ see this crowdfunding for basic needs + this page for the overview of all possibilities
B) it’s arbitrary
→ my life is an indivisible whole, the parts inseparable from each other, intrinsically interconnected.
C) I accept the challenge
→ to channel & track accordingly
## Decision Time
We arrived at the end.
Not THE END (of life), I hope – but the end of this support invitation.
There are three pathways you can go:
- Give
- Don’t give
- Buy more time → ChatJFK
How does the priest say when a couple gets married?
“May the doubters give now or hold back forever.”
Or something like that…
Time to make a choice.
## P.S. If you choose to give → Here’s How
Only relevant for people who MADE the choice to support!
If you’re on GoFundMe, you can donate directly here.
Other ways:
- PayPal directly (reaches me faster/immediate)
- bank transfer (skips any PayPal involvement)
→ use “Eat & Serve” as the purpose
For more details on enacting these direct routes (my preferred way), see this document.



