bring isaiah home!!!

today i received word from my lawyer that i did not win full physical custody of my son isaiah. my lawyer was floored. i am numb. for those who do not know my story. here it is. i did. not know the day my son was born. i found out on fb. after several lies and disobeying court orders from his mom. court ruled that i was able to see my son for the first time. his mom continued to deny me visatations whenever possible. i have fought for my son since the day i found out i was going to b a father. i have spent nearly 40 grand in lawyer fees and custody evaluations. the fact is if isaiah was safe. 50/50 custody would b just fine. however he is not. felica battles with mental illness. her last known bf is a convicted felon. has assaulted her in front of my son. and her two others. he is also a drug addict. isaiah is around this guy on a daily basis. isaiah is also around her moms husband often. he has multi felonies for drugs and violence. has threatened me. then u ad the fact that felica has moved 7 times in last two years. i have no moves left. i strongly believe with all my heart that isaiah is not safe. using the courts 11 point system to determine what is best for the child. i was favored 5 times. the other 6 were even. i'm now looking to appeal my case. lawyer told me it was going to cost upwards of 6000 dollars and have a 1 in 5 chance of winning. please help