#TeamMammaBear Get My Girls Back
Hello supporters,I have been advised by the powers that be to change the details of my campaign, as a result, I am going to tell the truth with pure raw honesty so it can be in no way misconstrued as slander or bad mouthing anyone or anything. Some people may not agree with me to be asking for money or that I don't have a right to ask for money, I am ok with that, I have received plenty of hate mail for asking for help and people have called me names and a lot of other nasty things to make me feel bad about how far I have come in my journey. I am learning as I navigate through this journey we call life, not everyone is going to be understanding or compassionate to everyone or their situation. I know for me personally, I could never fathem the though of drinking and driving with my children in the car, I could not even let my mind thing about anything bad happening to one of m children and then my Emma passed away. I do believe that being honest goes a long way, so here is my story.
Hi, my name is Amanda, I am a single mother of six children. I have 5 girls and 1 boy. My kids are the reason I get up everyday and fight this fight.
On Dec. 8th, 2012 I lost my daughter Emma while she was sleeping in my bed. I had a medical emergency of some sort and as a result my Emma passed away. That was the day before my birthday and my 5 1/2 month old daughter had her autopsy on my birthday. That is alot to wrap your head around as a parent. She left with no goodbye and left a whole the size of the universe in my heart.
As a result of her passing I turned to alcohol to cope with the grief. The grief was so unbearable I just didn't know how to cope. I made some extremely poor decisions and did not have very good or any judgement at that time. I, who bad mouthed other people for doing the same thing as me, drove drunk with my twins in the car and got into an accident. This is not anything that I am by any means proud of, but I am also not ashamed of my story. Like I previously stated, you can never say never until you are personally in the situation yourself. I was lost in so much grief and confusion and sadness that these were the decisions I was aking at that point in my life.
After the accident my ex husband got temporary full custody of our four girls so I could go to rehab and start to work on some of my grief. This was almost three years ago.
I have since been to rehab, go to counseling every week to work on some of my grief issues, and go to AA meetings regularly. I have also been trying to get my timesharing back with my girls. I am in a totally different place today than I was in August 2014.
When you are the underdog or the labeled problem in the equasion, I have to jump through hoops on fire to get my girls back. I have been and continue to do what is asked of me and I actually like myself today. I am learning that this being sober thing is pretty aweome. I have been sober for well over a year and am proud of that. I am proud that I literally have drug myself out of the depths of hell to come back, not broken, just a little bent. I am fighting for my kids on a daily basis. I have tools now on how to cope with my daughters death and how to deal with stressors that don't send me over the top and drink.
This is where the money part comes into play. Fighting in court costs lots and lots of money. I work at my job that I have had for twenty years, which is also somthing I am extremely proud of, I have sold everything that was mine and some of my parents things to earn the money to pay for my attorney. I am a hustler and I do what I have to do, it is just not enough and I need help. I am not afraid to put in the work to make the money at all. I am humbly asking for donations to help me get my girls back. I am doing all the work on myself and all the work everyone has asked of me. It is just that some people in this case are not as reasonable as others, which is why court is so expensive.
Ever since I was a child all I wanted to do was be a mother, I didn't even dream about husbands or boyfriends, I aways just wanted kids. I was then blessed with six of the most precious gems on the plnaet. When God decided he needed my Emma back, I felt betrayed.
I completely understand that MY story is not as compelling or heartbreaking as some other ones on here. The thing is, I am willing to put myself out there for all the world to see to get my girls back. I know I may get some heat and hate mail for even having the audacity to ask for donations and I am ok with that. I am ok with that because I know I am telling the trruth about why I am in this situation and know that my supporters that have donated so far believe in me and my girls.
I am a better person now and a much better mother. If you can donate I thank you from the bottom of my heart. My girls are going to find out one day that their mommy is a warrior and never gave up on them no matter what the cost.
I appreciate eveyone taking the time to read MY story. oh, by the way, if you were looking for pure honesty, you met your match. It does not get anymore honest and humbling than this. I Love All My Supporters<3 !!!!
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