The journey to be with my daughter

In 2013 my life had come to a screeching halt, the mother of my daughter and I had been in a rocky situation and could no longer see eye to eye. I'm not here to bad talk, because I try very hard not to think negatively of the woman who raises my daughter with love, but regardless, that person apparently saw it fit to remove me from my daughter's life... One thing led to another and I found myself in jail on my daughter's first birthday because of a text I sent saying "can I see my daughter for her birthday?" Her mother thought it would be a good idea to put an Order for Protection against me 1 week prior to our child's birthday, at the time of being served I was an idiot and didn't read the papers carefully and violated that Order when I sent that text. I'm not here to persuade you into thinking this is all her fault or to think that I wasn't in the wrong at the time, I'm simply laying down pieces of what had happen that has led up to this day. Since that violation with a text, which is classified as a Domestic Abuse charge I have not seen my daughter. Not once. In truth, the court ordered that I could see her in supervised visits through a 3rd party communication, who was court ordered to be my mother. My mother would attempt to speak to my daughter's mom to try and set up supervised visits through a paid service, but they would never get anywhere because the mother of my daughter would completely ignore any attempt of communication from my family members. Blocking out her daughter's grand parents and aunts... This led me to become extremely depressed, a depression I still fight today. Not being a part of my daughter's life has altered me as a person more than I could try to explain, it is a daily battle that I wish the people around me could even have the slightest bit of understanding with. I have a son now, who turns two years old soon. My beautiful daughter Nora will be five this September and they have yet to meet. According to the mother of my daughter, they "will never meet". If you doubt how good of a person I am or if I deserved to have her taken from me, I don't hold that against you. Just ask yourself this question... If I'm the monster here, why does she not want our daughter to be a part of her brothers life? Or her grandparents? Or all of her other family members that she's been blindly robbed of? So I've visited with a lawyer this past week, a very personable lawyer who is famous for helping fathers gain rights to their children, and he feels like we have a real shot. I believe this man, and his 18 years of experience. But considering I still pay $600 a month in child support for the daughter I can't see, it's going to be hard to afford him. His retainer is $5,000, that's the key to this door; the door that could lead me to being with my daughter again and giving her all of the built up love I have within myself... I need help reaching this goal, and if it happens I will be forever thankful because I have not been a whole person since 2013, I have been torn from a child that I want to provide for and love every single day. I want to be able to become whole again and I want to be able to give my son a beautiful sister to play with and build memories with. Please, even if you can't donate, just share this. It would mean the world to me. Thank you so much.