Meryl's GRS Fund

I've been in transition for the past 2 and a half years and it's taken me this long to sift through all of the negative experiences to realize that part of being a better and happier version of me, is genital reconstruction surgery.

It's true that I have a lot of personal issues, that most of my family hasn't been very accepting of me and a lot of my friends have dropped off the face of the planet and/or pulled away from me.

Transmisogyny (transphobia and misogyny) has affected my life in a lot of big ways. I was pushed out of my job after 2 years of harassment and discrimination, plus the denial of my bathroom privileges based solely on my gender identification.

If it wasn't for help from my friends, I don't know where I would be right now.

The clinic I was going to has stopped responding to me and won't allow me to make any appointments, nor have they given me a reason as to why.

My father, his wife and nearly his entire side of the family haven't spoken to me in over 2 years, aside from the short stint in 2014 where my father and I made amends and then a few months later he tried to force me into a men's mental institution based on my transgender status and a few other things that weren't true.

He and I have not spoken since and I'm starting to think we'll never have a real relationship, considering the past 29 years of my life and how his treatment has affected me overall. I'm starting to realize that a lot of my personal issues stem from his general abusiveness.

When I came out in 2012 I lost a lot of friends, including one of my best friends that I had known for 8 years, simply because his religion didn't align with my apparent "lifestyle choice."

I don't even know what my biggest loss is anymore, because there are so many.

I feel like I'm on a road to recovery and this is just one of many steps before I make it there, and as you know, there aren't a lot of insurance options for GRS, if you're lucky enough to have it covered, which I am not.

So, with that out of the way, I'm asking that you, your friends or anyone please donate what you can to help me along my way to being happier and more positive. Anything will help, a dollar, fifty dollars, five hundred, whatever you can do is good enough. And if you can't donate, please share this around.

I've been stuck in the darkness so long I don't know if I can find the light again, but I'll be damned if I don't try.