Retainer fee for attorney

I sincerely need to hire a lawyer to stop frivolous motions being filed against me,
I believe these motions are meant to damnage my reputation, attack and strain my relationship with my son and hurt me. There have been three motions since January. Two are in the attempt to take my son from me. These motions have been stressful, obnoxious, and time consuming. I have represented myself for the past three months and I am beat down and tired. I would like to hire an attorney to help protect my family and make sure that no more motions are filed against me and help alleviate the stress that had been caused by the other party. 

My wish is to move forward
My wish is Love
My wish is happiness
 My wish is protection
My wish is Peace for Gabriel and I.

Please help in making these wishes come true. 
Thank you from my heart. ❤️