Alex's Adventure of A Lifetime

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Raised by 49 people in 36 months



My name is Nicole Ryan. Some of you may have heard my story but most people may have not.

I had a brother. His name was Alex Ryan. My brother Alex was just 18 on the 1st of November 2015. He died on the 23rd of January 2016 from a synthetic drug overdose. He suffered irreversible brain damage and was brain dead. Standing tall at 6'7" it was hard to believe that he was gone.As a result of this I made the decision to make him an organ donor. We gave away his heart, liver and 2 kidneys so that he could save lives. And he did. 4 peope now benefited from his organs and as far as I know are all recovering very well.

There were many articles about this, you can read it here for yourself:

You may wonder why I am telling you this?

I want to share and show to people not just here at home but all over the world, the kind of effect my brothers decision had. Alex was not a bad person. He was a kind hearted soul that would do anything for anyone. He made a bad decision and in turn paid for it with his life. I want to go out and share my story with others out there. I know there are people who have gone through the exact same circumstances and I want to give them a voice, share my story so maybe they can share theirs. Share Alex's story of how he was. His final moments and how I live now that he is no longer here. I want his story to be a warning to other people out there, especially young people who may consider taking drugs be it synthetic or not. If I can as much as change 1 persons mind with Alex's story,then for me that would be enough.

I plan to begin my travels soon along with my best friend Aoife. I plan on going to schools and colleges first all in Ireland and move over Europe and moving onto Asia, essentially as far and wide as I can to tell them of his story and give kids the information they need to not make the same mistake my brother did. I will document every single aspect of this journey and share each step I take with the world so they can see everything we're doing and hopefully follow us,feel and see what we see on this journey. I have gained alot of information from research that I have done on Sythetic Drugs.We plan to volunteer for projects and help anyone we can on the way.

The money raised I will donate some to both the Irish Heart Foundation and the Irish Organ Donation as well as the Irish Kidney Association

Today marks his 2 month anniversary and I have many many more months without him. There will be a mountain of experiences I will have to share without him for the rest of my life. He would have loved to travel and see the world experience different cultures and help other people. Alex has only been here for 18 years yet he managed to touch and change so many lives in that short space of time. I just want to do the same. In his name and in his honour. I want to share his story and mine.

Many people posted messages on his wall that moved me to tears:

Alexander Jay Baldwin Bai22 January · 

"Alex Ryan hey man. Really wish this wasn't good byes.
you have been one of the biggest influences on my life. We had our adventures and story's. When we first met we instantly got close, when I walked into the gaff we bonded over the fact of the same jacket and name. Ridiculously it couldn't have been a better way, it shows how friendly you were to all.
You help me in so many ways you couldn't imagine. You taught me to just enjoy life and don't let anyone or anything get in the way. Anxiety or boredom didn't exist when you were near. You always had everyone's back without a taught..
We your friends will have you in our memories till the very end.
Love you man."

‎Kim Tyther‎ to Alex Ryan
22 January · 
"You told me I'd have to "Be and Live Music" if I ever wanted to make it. Its advice I remember everyday. You were ammazing Alex in every respect. The world will not be as good as the one that had you in it. I love you and will miss you dearly. Goodnight my brother."

Brenda Petrassi22 January · 
To Alex Ryan,

"I'll never forget when I was busking on the street and you came and joined me, you rapped over a song that I was playing on guitar and it worked so well that we mentioned it most times we saw each other since then.

One of the most heartwarming memories I have of you was the 18th of January 2015, my birthday when I turned 21. I didn't have much interest in celebrating butTania had her birthday on the same day so we had a joint party at the gaff. I was sitting down while people were dancing, I felt so bored and my heart wasn't in it. But you started calling my name to the beat of the song. You chanted it with such vigor and admiration that I couldn't help but get up and join you. From then on I danced for ages and I gave you a big hug and thanked you for pulling me out of my stupor and supporting me to enjoy my birthday.

Strangely enough, I just partied with you again a few days before my birthday but I decided against celebrating it this year. You went into a coma on the day of my 22nd birthday which I had decided not to celebrate beforehand. I don't know if I will celebrate any more of my birthdays but I do feel there is significance in the timing of all of this...

Anyways I can interpret as much as I want, but what is most important are the memories. They are what keep you alive and what will continue to keep you alive in your friends, family and in me. These are only a few of the memories that I will make sure to retain as I get older and eventually join you. And when I do, I will be proud to recall so many of those moments as if they were yesterday, because you deserve that and it's everyones responsibility to keep you alive in the countless positive memories you've played a part in."

He was funny, loved to laugh and was a self thought musician

I ask you to donate anything you possibly can, if not then the only thing I ask is that you can share this story. I have so much more to share with everyone and so much more to tell.

Thank you for taking your time to read my story and thank you for your donation.

I can be contacted via Facebook at any time 
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Well guys I will be launching a synthetic drug awareness poster in the Cork City Area.

I will be giving a talk and it will be filmed for an upcoming documentary called Edge of Oblivion on Tuesday June 7th

Updates to follow
This is the start!
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I have made a video to give you all an insight into alexs short life, Have a look :)
The Life and Times of Alex Ryan
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Today we put Alex to rest at sea. It's sad to think that this is one of only two photos of me and him I have as we were grown up. My final photo with him, never in my life would I have imagined that I would be physically able to hold a 6'7" guy in my arms. As sad as the day was, it was truly beautiful and it gives us a bit of peace and closure now knowing he's finally at rest. I miss you and I'll love you forever. I'll be seeing you soon big man...
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Time. Time is the only thing we have in this world when we are born and even at that, how much time you have is an uncertainty. Time seems to be the only thing I have alot of at the moment. My brothers time was cut short and realistically speaking it was due to his own fault. How many of us are guilty of looking at somebody and instantly doing an opinion? That homeless guy? He's an addict. That drunk guy shouting in the street? He's just an alcoholic. My brother? A selfish teenager who should have known better.

Now let's think again for a second. Let's think twice. That homeless guy. He had a wife, children and a bright future. The alcoholic.He was a brilliant doctor. My brother. An innocent teenager who was just about to begin his life but made a stupid decision and paid for it with his life, with his future, causing a ripple effect in all the lives of the people that loved him. Had my brother thought twice he may still be here and I would not be writing this now, and we would be normal and carry on with our lives, joke, laugh and grow old together. But that's just it. He is not here nor will he ever be here again. I took him for granted. I just assumed he would always be here with me. How naive of me to think so. Alex never asked for much out of life only to be happy and make others happy along the way. And isn't that the ultimate goal in life? To be happy,to share happiness? Isn't happiness only real when shared? I like to think so. Yes my brother was selfish,yes he made the decision and rolled that dice. I do not praise him nor do I idolise him. All I do is just miss him, every second of day. All I am is a meditator. I tell his story and I make the dangers known while raising some money for a few charities close to my heart. The only gain I will receive is a little bit of peace knowing that I MAY have changed somebodys mind.

So I prepare to give the world the only thing I have which is my time, my full effort and my brothers story and I have so much to share with you all.

I do it for your son or daughter, your brother or sister,your friend but most of all I do it for him.

I take this opportunity to thank everybody that has donated thus far. It's unimaginable that people can be so kind. When I first took this leap to do this I was so scared, but my best friend told me the worst thing that can happen is nothing. And she is right.

I know I would regret this decision if I didn't not take this chance, this adventure of a lifetime. Alex's Adventure of A Lifetime.....
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Raised by 49 people in 36 months
Created March 23, 2016
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Newcestown Foróige Club
25 months ago

Hi Nicole, Thank you so much for your open and honest talk at our club. We wish you all the best in the future.

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hazell Harrison
29 months ago

You all came so far, for this to happen is beyond sad

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