Trying to survive & care for my son

Life is a struggle...a known fact. However, it has gotten the best of me in the past 10 months since being laid off last July. My job search has been a series of interviews and rejections up to this point. I had one positive arise with a contract job, but it was only for 3 months and that ended at the beginning of 2018. Since then, it has been a continuation of disappointment after disappointment. Never thinking it would happen to me, but it did. Surviving on a seasonal part time job with a local hockey team (which I am tremendously thankful for) and draining what was left of my modest retirement to live and raise my little 2 year old son, with little help from anyone else. But all of those resources are now gone and I am faced with the stark reality of being evicted from my apartment, which in turn will drastically affect my time I get to spend with my son. I want to thank the handful of what I consider close friends for their assistance and support over the past few months. I have not forgotten you for your kindness. 
I was persuaded by a friend to submit this campaign, and it is with reluctance and humility that I am asking for help from a broader group of friends. I have been able to get another part time job, for minimum wage, which does not cover many monthly expenses, most importantly rent. I have never been through such a struggle, and the stress is affecting my health and my faith.
I fear that I have become one of those who have slipped through the cracks of the workforce. I have experience, but possibly too much. I have not enough experience for other things. I am older than they expect when they interview me, and though no one can say it, it affects the decision process in hiring...I know this for a fact, as job after job that I am qualified for, keep slipping by with either a rejection email, or sometimes no response at all. Waiting is the worst part, and I have no time to wait when I am in the situation that I am in, whether I had done everything I could or not. This is not a pity party, but a call for help. 
I am still in need of a full time job with benefits to take care of my son first and foremost, and then myself. But the looming eviction and repercussions of that are my immediate crisis. 
I am humbly asking to raise money to get me back on my feet, so I can live without wondering where my next paycheck will come from and whether I can feed or clothe my toddler. He is the only thing in this world that can make me smile right now in the midst of all the personal turmoil.  My self worth has taken a major blow over these last several months.  Being told I am worthless and void of real friends by certain people in my life, plus the constant job rejections, or lack of interest in my skill set, have me questioning my talents, worth and have taken away a lot of who I am as a man. Wiping away tears as I type this, wondering where I went wrong and still trying to remain resilient and push forward. I am 4 days from losing my apartment if April's rent is not paid in full, plus late fees. I never thought I would feel so removed from society at this stage in my life. My one true focus is maintaining my relationship with my little boy and not losing the ability to see him and raise him. I trust that God will abide and take care of us. Asking for your prayers and your support. I am not proud of this and it is embarrassing and humbling, but at this point those things don't matter any more. Eloquence is out the window, and this is just straight from my heart and soul. It's raw and gritty, but it's where I am right now, trying to claw my way out. 
Any support is greatly appreciated. Thank you.

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  • Daniel Holsinger 
    • $100 
    • 24 mos
  • Rick Ross 
    • $50 
    • 24 mos
  • April Hayes 
    • $20 
    • 24 mos
  • Laura Brunson  
    • $55 
    • 25 mos
  • Jeff Bongfeldt 
    • $200 
    • 25 mos
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Shaun Lenerose 
Organizer
Lewisville, TX
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