Scholarships for Rosebud's Children

If you don't feel good about contributing to attorney fees to help me protect myself from John Dehlin and the Open Stories Foundation's aggressions, another way you could help is by supporting my children's college educations.

I don't need any money myself. I'm safe, live in a nice place and can meet my required share of the living expenses. Plus, there's no point in giving me any money because I also owe a franchise somewhere between $363,000 and half-a-million dollars because I tried to buy a franchise to deal with the name issues I was already having after John doxxed me in 2014. (There were other factors at play as well, of course. Very little in life stems from one factor alone.)

It's a long story how I got from buying a franchise to bankruptcy including witnessing a franchise profit off of illegal recordings and surviving a long civil lawsuit, but here I am. The fact that I now I know how to navigate aggressive civil litigation helps me feel secure and at ease about what is happening now.  If John sues, I can handle it. And I also know that I have a right to sue. I'm not afraid of suing him like I used to be. I'm just not sure I want to.  The object is to get away from him, not to get into litigation with him.  That said, I also know how to let attorneys do their work and not worry about it. There are so many better things to spend mental energy on, but that doesn't mean I can't also sue.    

As far as getting scholarship money to my children:

Even though I'm bankrupt and can't accept any money myself, I can connect this fundraiser to my adult son's bank account and can stipulate that my two children who need financial help share the money equally (50/50) and use it for school. They'll both be very grateful and my son is very responsible and will listen to me and be honest. 

The saddest consequence of all of this has been the harm that has come to my children, but they're okay. We don't have money but I still did a semi-decent job of helping them make it through this emotionally despite the conflict. It has definitely not been ideal... but we're all alive and well.... and we're even better off than we were before it started because now my divorce is behind us. My divorce was one of those that really really really needed to happen.... one of those very GOOD divorces that happen because they must.  It was a good thing. 

So, here is some information about my children so you know whose educations you'd be donating to if you want to help us out in this way. They're both very intelligent, dedicated and hard-working.

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Son -- Age 22

My son is an upcoming college senior majoring in Computer Science. He's busy developing apps and leading a team of other students as they forward their own business startup. He has placed in the top-five of a business competition two years in a row using his creativity, leadership and programming skills. He plays the cello, piano and the guitar, and likes to compose his own music.  He spends his spare time learning to do flips on the trampoline. 

I know I'm his mom and that moms brag, but my son is one of those people you can trust to treat others kindly and respectfully. He's a natural leader and will make this world a better happier place despite all the trauma his family has been through since I started working for John Dehlin 10 years ago. In fact, one of the reasons he'll do so well may partially be due to the wisdom he has gained by witnessing so much of what can be terrible in life.  Some people, with the right guidance, are able to turn bad things into good ones and my son is one of those people.  He'll do well.  

But... he could use some money.  I've lost hundreds of thousands of dollars due to all of this and he has been the one who has really struggled in trying to support himself through college.  He still needs to make it through his senior year -- he deserves a break.  

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Daughter -- Age 17

My daughter is an upcoming high-school senior. She hasn't decided what she wants to do with her life -- and I fully support that -- but is particularly interested in the humanities and psychology. She's an incredible writer: her thoughts are deep, nuanced, emotional and wise.  I suppose all of this has given her insights that others might lack if they hadn't been forced to deal with so much complexity.

She's also an A student and has I-don't-know-how-many AP tests to take next week. She's intelligent, committed, hardworking and has a great sense of humor.

Her sense of humor really came out when she saw my Citizen Kane cover photo and my Scottish clan profile pic on Facebook after John Dehlin and the OSF's Mormonism Live stunt.  She laughed so hard. Her laughter was so genuine and loud that it diffused the tension of John doing everything he can to attach his name to mine on the Internet in a way that will harm me for the rest of my life (so so so creepy.... so so so creepy). 

She knows how important my name is to me. She can of course see the obvious cruelty in John to need to control my real name, too... on top of everything else. But she could still laugh at the Citizen Kain image. And the image is great, isn't it? Fantastic!  What you may not know is that this Citizen Kane analogy was nothing more than the perfect coincidence. I first chose the handle "Rosebud" after walking past a rosebush.  I can still see the image of that bud I am now named after in my mind.  It was a small, sweet, red bud. I've sure grown a lot since then! 

I obviously did not have a clear idea of who I was dealing with between 2010 and 2012. John is very scary and stops at nothing. It's been a lot. A lot a lot.  People think he's only attacking those with power, but the reality is that he attacks those without power, too. 

But... now I know. And you've gotta admit... my daughter's right, the Citizen Kane cover photo and Scottish family clan emblem profile pic are pretty funny. I will defend my name! John doesn't get to own that too. It's mine, not his.... and it's the worst thing he can take from me because it will connect me to him forever in a shameful way. I don't want to be connected to him. I want to be away from him. I want my name out of his mouth and the false story he tells about us off of his podcasts.

I want to be happy and move on with my life. 

GoFundMe will allow me to set your donation to anonymous if you are concerned about your identity.  But they will only allow me to make the change after your donation has gone through. To request anonymity, please email me at [email redacted].