Help with cremation and bills

Hi my name is Jackie I’m fundraising for my sister in law my brother Jamie passed away

my brother had a cardiac arrest few nights ago and not doing good he’s got a breathing tube and a few other things going on

my sister in law posted this on her facebook she’s devastated and needs help

I am so OVERWHELMED. I have always had a lot on my shoulders but this is more than anyone can handle. The grief, the fear and worry is enough to cripple you. If that's not enough how am I supposed to keep me and the boys from drowning at the same time. I have 1000 rolling thoughts, 1000 things to do, 1000 calls to make, 1000 people to talk to, 1000 bills, 1000 places to be at once. Jamie's insurance and disability hasn't seen a check since August, I'm running my own business, plus I am supposed to start a great new job this week for extra money that the business is lacking and I can't do either right now, meaning we slide further and further behind. We have to eat, and every single bill we have is past due and near cutoff. It's several thousand dollars each month. I think we will need to move to more inexpensive housing... and there is none. Idaho has a wait list for everything and double deposits, there is no vacancy anywhere people outnumber the houses. Plus how do I even get all this house and my inventory, all his tools and business materials personal items, guitar equipment, furniture and the boys things even out of here? Every room is packed with useful, things and I can't bear the thought of selling off all the things we worked so hard to get. My truck is on its last legs, Jordan has school clear across town with no bus access to take him. City bus is never available too busy (it's on demand service). I can't get anybody on the phone that knows what's going on with his missing pay for the last 4 months. I have 100 phone numbers for resources to call and wait a call back, but I will miss the call , cause I'm driving or talking to nurses and doctors and med ppl and case managers and social workers, nevermind the 100 other phone calls a day that I try and get but fail. The kids are devastated and scared and I don't even know how or what to begin to say or explain how a 44 year old seemingly healthy strong man's heart just stops beating. The house is in disarray, and when I'm home it is haunting me with his absence. It's a cold slap in the face and there is no sleeping with the pain, and thoughts and worry and to do's.Guilt and Regret is swallowing me whole. I start on one thing at a time but it seems pointless in the mountain of things piling up. The fear has gripped me to the bone, and turned me ice cold. I have always been strong and independent, but I have come to rely on chuck for everything. We are partners, and friends, a team, artist's, we do everything better together. Without him by my side the life we built does not work with me alone. It was all for nothing, and as hard as it took to get it just like it will be ashes. I will never have it again. We had plans, and goals and dreams, and boys to raise still yet. I am gripped with fear. You always think what it would be like to lose your partner, and if your in love with them, how horrible it must be to lose them. But never did I once think now, or anytime soon. Never did I realize how crippling it is and will be. My happiness for the rest of my life will be gone the joy sucked right out of living. The strength I will need to go on alone for the kids I fear I don't have any left. I have been dealt some real shit cards in my day, but this is just intolerable cruelty. I had it all, we made our dreams reality and we lived it for a second and poof just like that it's gone. All the agony and hard work and laughs to build it just to watch it go up in smoke. The boys future that we worked so hard to change for them, is hanging in the balance, back to hustling to eat, surviving, dog eat dog again for me? Jesus. I am in a stunned panic. I mean frozen in place. I just cannot bear to go to that hospital this morning and when they try and wake him at 9 am and his results come in, and it's not good news. I refuse to believe that he won't come out of this. If he don't, I may very well crumple to the earth beside him. NEVER IN MY LIFE HAVE I EVER SAID I CANT DO SOMETHING. I BREAK DOWN IMPOSSIBLE SITUATIONS, AND KEEP GOING. This though, I JUST CANT. How many lashings can one soul takes before it splits right in two?I feel my soul literally turning black, and dying. Pray, all of our wonderful friends and family that have rooted us on. Pray. I cannot do all these 1000 things and deal with this at the same time. All the emails, juggling bills, finding food, 100 applications, work, school, housing forms, resource forms, insurance forms, shipping out inventory, keeping up with the stores to make money I can't keep up. Our situation was rocky at best since he has been on disability ,we been struggling for a while now. Now it's on me to fix it and keep it all afloat. It can't be done y'all. There is no answers, there is nowhere to turn too, no way to go. I know this is a horrible heartbreaking post, but I am alone, and need everyone to know, that he's not okay, I'm not okay, we are not okay. The situation is impossible. The rent out here is impossibly high to do alone. I would need months to prepare. I don't have the time, and I have used up all the resources already. It all has to take a backseat, I have to be there for chuck. So it all slips away. We need a miracle. Just wake up Chuck. Just wake up. Just had to get that out of me y'all. It's weighing me down and I can't move. I have to get some sleep. I'm so sleepy but I can't lay down now I have to prepare the house for his dad whose heartbroken as well. I have to find a way to get through this day. I just want to curl in a ball and sleep but I can't. I feel like I'm losing my mind.