Sexual Abuse is not the End

Hello, my name is Sophie. I'm currently about to turn 24 years old and I'm here to share my story. I also want to ask you if you could help me in my journey. I want to grow further and surpass my older self and give love to women who are wishing the same. We're human. We live by our story. Our story is made up of two opposite yet interconnected parts. One is filled with blissfull moments of our growth. The other is composed with the most traumatic experiences that we've had to face. I believe in synchronicity. I believed that Life is moved by a wonderfull power. A power that arises into our awareness when our soul meets itself. A uniqueness that transcends our oldest most scared selfs. A special self that reveals itself when we connect and love those that gather around it. I'm moved by loved and I want to learn how I can use my own uniquess in order to create an online community built on loving circles of kindness and support. I want to provide free of charge knowledge and tools for young women who had to go through the worst experiences that a women may face. My journey has been quite bumpy and through slopes and degraded steps, I made it through. I was hesitant to write this at first but I've reached a new cycle in my life. One that is blessed with love and life long lessons, where all I'm going to is faithfully follow my inner light. I used to fear failing. I used to think that I wasn't enough and that no one would care about my story. Nevertheless, I had countless miracle encounters with women who struggled with the same thing I did, which inevitably led me to share my story. Through those events, I've learned that I could make a difference. I followed my inner voice and I've stopped fighting against my fears. I started working with them and since then, I've been dramatically transforming my life. What made it possible was the fact that I started to share so here it goes. I was sexually abused when I was 21 years old. Everything started when I ingenuinely and blindly believed that everyone had good intentions towards me. Now I know that people are motived by their own stories and that their intentions are not always that good. A great part of my story revolves around people that needed help and that were continously abusing themselves and the people around them. Through personal experience, I could relate with what they were feeling and I always extended a helping hand. At some point, being with people who were the perfect opposite of what ''light'' is, erupted into an episode that I am sharing online for the first time ever. I was fearfull and relunctant to share but my inner voice was sturdier than what I thought. At the age of 21, on November 21st, I went through one of the episodes that gave me the most radical transformations in my life. I was abused by three men who I saw as ''friends''. I will never forget that dreadful story as I will never forget the lessons that made me surpass it. Like I wrote earlier, I was hesitant. I was afraid to write this and I was afraid to share. What kept me going was the fact that I met several women who shared with me their own stories about sexual abuse. By sharing their stories, they also told me what was blocking them somehow. Through simple conversations I could connect and help them see that I could actually cause a positive impact in someones life. All emocional blocks that held them back were caused by the fact that they couldn't accept what had happened. They blamed and judged themselves wrongly while not being able to see the light that could end their internal conflicts. My journey is one of forgiveness, acceptance and love. That was and still is my guiding light. I've been blessed with loving people who happened to cross my path and that have helped me learn what love truly was. This led me to the conclusion that nothing happens by chance. I wondered what made those women come to me with something so intimate and personal. I know how hard it is to share this types of events for a women. That's why I want to commit to help women like myself achieve the same or even an higher level of courage. I always wanted to be a therapist, coach or counselor. Someone who holds the knowledge and tools to truly help someone in need. Someone who truly cared about the specific healing process of an individual. Someone who could see and know the specific issue and resolution for each person that came to me. I need your help to start this part of my journey. I need financial help as I am in a deadlock. I moved out from my old life recently. I found a new home and a new job, just to help the fostering family that received me. I want to help them but I also want to shine. I know that there are countless women that still don't know how to recognize the light inside them. Before I could see my inner light, my voice was clouded by my fears and I didn't have the ability to effectively comunicate with my outter world. I know that its possible and I want to help other women to achieve the same. I'm more than what I used to be. For the first time in my life I'm moved by unconditional love towards myself and others who have blessed me with so much. It's by being engulfed in this love that my desire to connect deeper with others is growing. Right now, I can't afford to invest in myself in order to go deeper. I want to train myself into a therapist, armed by the most loving tools that will make the best out of myself and other women who are like minded. I have been trough the best and the worst and I'm still here. I want to grow higher and teach other women how they can do the same. This is my commitment. I believe in love more than money. I know that not having money is not a limitation but an opportunity to grow. To spread my message through different means. To share my essence. I'm creating my own journal and I wish to share all that I am with those who wish to grow without limits. I sincerely ask for your support. I know that I'm not alone. This world is abundant with good-hearted people who believe in the goodness of others. I give you this little piece of me and in return I ask you for a symbolic contribution or a simple share of my story and initiative. Thank you so much for reading untill the end. I wish to continue writting for you so, I hope this is not a goodbye but a see you soon. Wish you the best, Sophie Blog: http://sexualabuse-isnothend.blogspot.com