Yeet the teet

 

I cant disclose my private information and have to remain anonymous as it is a matter of life and death, since it is illegal to be LGBTQ+ in my country. Several LGBTQ+ people have had to flee the country and/or have had to go into hiding due to death threats. 

Although I cannot openly identify as transgender or go on hormone replacement therapy due to concerns over my safety, TOP surgery could really help alleviate a lot of the emotional pain of being trans and feeling like I am trapped in a body that does not belong to me. It would help me feel at more ease with myself without the consant thoughts of self harm and suicide. On that note- I am also unable to come out to my family and do not have any additional financial support.

 

Since these surgeries cannot be done in my country, I would have to travel to Thailand to be able to undergo my surgery, which costs around $4000. I would still need to be able to afford a return ticket to and from my country to Bangkok (around $600 to $1000 due to COVID) and 6 months stay, food, and travel in Thailand to recover before returning back to my country as I would not be able to deal with any post-op complications in my country without putting myself in immense danger. I would still need to collect some money to be able to afford gender therapy - which without I cannot get my surgery. Gender therapy is also unavailable in my country and I am looking to do sessions online - each costing around $50. 

 

Once I am able to pay for my first consultation with the plastic surgeon I would know exactly how much the surgery would cost - depending on what type of surgery I would need, which would be decided on based on the size of my chest and the elasticity of the skin. I would then give you all an update on the exact finances.

 

I am unable to afford surgery on my own as I do not make enough money to be able to save up after paying the bills and getting necessities. The COVID pandemic means although I am currently employed (after a year without being able to find a job) I dont have job security for longer than 6 months at a time.

 

I would love to be able to pay for all of this out of my own pocket, but I fear that could take another two decades before I can actually afford to do so. If I am being completely honest and putting my heart out there, I honestly dont think I'll make it though another decade if I had to live feeling like im trapped in this body, when I am already feeling trapped in a country where majority of people think I am an abomination and would gladly kill me given the chance. 

 

I would really appreciate any help I recieve from anyone. Thank you guys for taking the time to read this. I hope one day when I am able to, I can pay this forward and help other trans youth to get to a place where they feel comfortable and happy in life.