Help Overcome Homelessness and Hate

Hello!

I have had such a hard time getting to this point and I apologize in advance for even daring to ask for help. Years back when I started being vocal I was met with doors being shut in my face, in spaces where I had felt somewhat safe before. Going through hip replacement surgery in my 20s truly opened my eyes. The dance world me to shut up, I thought the modeling world would be different but they uttered the same words!

I am currently living in a homeless shelter, getting a job has been difficult as the same people that I trusted before made sure of that. Feeling lost, being homeless is something that I never thought possible because of my beliefs. I have been told countless times that I’m a danger to what they hold dear to them, that’s all been antisemitic and vile. I ended up working at Sephora and they couldn’t even understand why I was traumatized to come to work and I was homeless then.

I am a firm believer that you either stand for something or you stand for nothing! I never signed up to be an activist but here I am asking the community for help. It’s embarrassing and I feel scared. More terrified than any death threat or antisemitic action placed upon me, I do need help! I can’t do this alone and that has been a humbling experience for me. I can’t feel ashamed to ask, I’m not a victim and in no way a failure. This is just my path. I am already training to and starting a new job soon. I just cannot be homeless.

I am constantly in a space where there is no sleep, people who smoke crack openly and always fighting. Police and the EMTs are always there, it’s unsanitary, met with hate for having a Magen David on (not taking it off btw). If you can help in any way, please do and I will pass it forward because that’s just who I am. I don’t believe in hate, it’s something taught and passed on. I just chose to not buy into it.

Thank you for taking the time to even read this whole essay, I’m not myself but I won’t stop. Israel is the only place I will EVER call home and nobody can change my mind,because without her sovereignty “where else do we go”?