Fallen on hard times ( please don't judge me)
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A big ask i know
As people who know me already know i have fallen on hard times and im a very proud person, I would normally go without rather than ask for help, I am single grandma working at the local hospital as a health care assistant, but due to everything that has happened in my life in the last few months I am off with stress/ anxiety, I am 49 years of age also struggling with degenerative arthritis, but I will not give up work as I am independent, but in the last 4 months my car ran its course and had to get a car on finance that I couldn't afford ( as I had no disposable cash) to enable me to get to work to do my job, my 11 year old grandson who has his own medical conditions ( which require constant tests with a possibility of having to visit Sheffield hospital) came to live with me due to personal reasons but it wasn't a choice issue, although I wouldn't change it for the world, he is my life. I am also a carer for my daughter, The problem is when my grandson came to live with me they had to move me due to his conditions to a bigger house and gave me 3 weeks to do so, I had a very small amount of savings and had to completely furnish, decorate and carpet a house, myself, the power of Facebook helped me furnish some of my house with bits people donated and my savings, a charity bought me a cooker, as the last house was gas and this is electric, this is embarrassing and demeaning for me as a proud person to ask for help when I know everyone is struggling at the minute, I'm entitled to the tiniest amount of benefit due to me working l, which doesn't even cover the food bills, I have applied to everyone for help and I keep getting the door shut in my face, I am worried, I am anxious, and I just feel like I'm in a circle that keeps going round, any small amount would be appreciated if anyone can help Christmas this year is going to be hard as in the last 4months as I said I have had to take a car on finance, made to move to a bigger house that was just a shell and given 3 weeks to do it, I haven't been at work due to stress and anxiety with everything that has happened in such a short space of time. And Xmas just adds to it, if I didn't need help I wouldn't ask
1) because I'm proud
2) I am seen in my workplace as a strong independent woman.
3) all my friends are in Facebook personal friends and work colleagues ( which has dented my pride knowing they will see this.
4) I should be back at work helping to save lives in the current climate .( but can't due to the worry)
5) anyone who knows me I would have to be pretty desperate to do this.
If anyone requires proof I have it.
Lastly please don't judge me i don't think I could do with the stress of that on top,
I'm a good person with morals and already feel like I'm begging.
Thank you for taking the time to Look at my page I really appreciate l it.
Feel free to share.
As people who know me already know i have fallen on hard times and im a very proud person, I would normally go without rather than ask for help, I am single grandma working at the local hospital as a health care assistant, but due to everything that has happened in my life in the last few months I am off with stress/ anxiety, I am 49 years of age also struggling with degenerative arthritis, but I will not give up work as I am independent, but in the last 4 months my car ran its course and had to get a car on finance that I couldn't afford ( as I had no disposable cash) to enable me to get to work to do my job, my 11 year old grandson who has his own medical conditions ( which require constant tests with a possibility of having to visit Sheffield hospital) came to live with me due to personal reasons but it wasn't a choice issue, although I wouldn't change it for the world, he is my life. I am also a carer for my daughter, The problem is when my grandson came to live with me they had to move me due to his conditions to a bigger house and gave me 3 weeks to do so, I had a very small amount of savings and had to completely furnish, decorate and carpet a house, myself, the power of Facebook helped me furnish some of my house with bits people donated and my savings, a charity bought me a cooker, as the last house was gas and this is electric, this is embarrassing and demeaning for me as a proud person to ask for help when I know everyone is struggling at the minute, I'm entitled to the tiniest amount of benefit due to me working l, which doesn't even cover the food bills, I have applied to everyone for help and I keep getting the door shut in my face, I am worried, I am anxious, and I just feel like I'm in a circle that keeps going round, any small amount would be appreciated if anyone can help Christmas this year is going to be hard as in the last 4months as I said I have had to take a car on finance, made to move to a bigger house that was just a shell and given 3 weeks to do it, I haven't been at work due to stress and anxiety with everything that has happened in such a short space of time. And Xmas just adds to it, if I didn't need help I wouldn't ask
1) because I'm proud
2) I am seen in my workplace as a strong independent woman.
3) all my friends are in Facebook personal friends and work colleagues ( which has dented my pride knowing they will see this.
4) I should be back at work helping to save lives in the current climate .( but can't due to the worry)
5) anyone who knows me I would have to be pretty desperate to do this.
If anyone requires proof I have it.
Lastly please don't judge me i don't think I could do with the stress of that on top,
I'm a good person with morals and already feel like I'm begging.
Thank you for taking the time to Look at my page I really appreciate l it.
Feel free to share.
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Amanda Jayne Johnson
Organizer
England
