Johnson’s Adoption Fund

Our story began on June 3, 2012. That was the day we got married. We could not wait to start our own family but God had other plans. We tried and we tried for 4 years to conceive with no luck. We had tests ran and everything came back normal. We began to think having a baby of our own was just not in the deck we were dealt. We had completely given up hope that I would ever conceive naturally. Then in June 2016 I got a positive pregnancy test. We had never been happier!! Our life was coming together and we had hope again! I began going to all my dr visits and in the beginning everything seemed ok. Then I went for my second blood draw and was told that my levels were not rising as they do in a normal pregnancy. We were devastated. At that point, I thought I was having a miscarriage. They wanted to keep a close eye on me so I went to the dr for labwork every other day. My levels would rise at times and at times it wouldn't. Then I started getting sicker and took a trip to the er. They did an ultrasound and said they seen nothing anywhere. The next day my blood pressure started dropping and I was admitted straight into the hospital with surgery set up for the next day. They did exploratory surgery and it showed that one of my tubes were blocked and had burst and my abdomen was full of blood, which can be fatal. How did they miss this in the er the night before?!! The very next day, I had to have another surgery to remove my right tube and our baby that was in it because there was no chance of survival. So then all hope was gone once again. Our hearts were broken and with one tube how could I ever conceive again?! I had already struggled so long with infertility and now here I am with one tube so it was going to be almost impossible. I suffered with depression and just didn't feel like a complete woman. Then, by some miracle, I got pregnant again on June 10, 2017. I just knew everything was gonna be ok this time. I went to all my dr visits. They keep an extra close eye on you when you have had a previous ectopic pregnancy. My levels kept rising just as they should and everything seemed perfect again. I just had to wait for them to get high enough for my ultrasound. I remember how long the days were waiting for that day to see our little baby's heartbeat flickering on that monitor. My levels finally got up to where something could be seen on an ultrasound. I went in that day and got in the bed and the woman started the ultrasound. She never spoke a word to me after she started taking her pictures. She got done and told me to go back to the waiting room and my dr would discuss my results. So I did and the dr came in and crushed all of my dreams once again. Nothing was seen in the ultrasound. He said maybe it's still just too early so come back in 2 days and we will check your levels. Sure enough, I went back and my levels had started to drop. And this meant another surgery to remove anything that may have been in my uterus. All the tests came back and the baby was in the right place this time but just didn't develop. He checked everything else and they were still normal. Even my dr was confused. He told us just keep trying. We did but no luck and I have now accepted that this just may never happen. I have struggled with so many emotions. And so has my husband. It just didn't seem fair. Well guys, I have now been chosen to be a mommy. And my husband to be a daddy. Not through a normal pregnancy but through adoption!! Adoption of a newborn baby! I even find out the sex of the baby next week. But as all of you are aware, this process is very very pricey and we need all the help and support that we can get! I don't want another heartbreak and really don't think I could handle another heartbreak. But I have hope again! And we are so thankful this special lady chose us as parents!! Any little bit helps and every penny counts! My friend came up with this idea and asked me to tell my story. God bless her too. We just want this so bad and I'm willing to do anything to make it happen!! We appreciate any help from any family and friends that we can get! Our dreams can still come true and an opportunity like this one does not come around twice! If you have it in your heart to help us, god bless you and thank you all from the bottom of our hearts. If you are not able to help financially, share this post and pray for us. We are sure praying every single day to bring our baby home from the hospital.