Bring Jax Home

As mostly everyone knows, Shelby and I have been fighting a nearly two year long custody battle to get Jaxon back home where he belongs. October 1st will be exactly two years that Jaxons father came to pick him up for his 2 weeks, and never brought him home. All because I moved on and would not get back with him. He was TWO years old. I have gone months at a time without seeing him. And almost as long without even getting to speak to him. I’ve had my baby ripped out of my arms while he screamed and cried to go home with me. He has been used against me as leverage. A bargaining chip. A threat. A “promise”. He has been used more at almost 5 years old, than I have ever been at 25. I’ve had to force myself to lie to him about why he can’t stay with me because I refuse to tell him the truth and help him form resentment towards his dad. I have dealt with abuse, threats, lies, slander, broken promises and so many more unforgivable things since this started. From him and his family both. And it will continue. But none of this will ever stop me from fighting for our boy. He is worth every problem that I have to face. Every name I’ve been called. Every visit or phone call that Ive been (and am still being) refused. Every lie that’s been told about my wife and I. All the trips we’ve made to Houston and back. Even when we were just going off of hope that we would just get to see Jaxon for a second, even just playing outside as we passed by. The thousands of miles we’ve put on our cars. The many, many days of work we’ve both had to miss. The THOUSANDS and THOUSANDS of dollars we have spent on an attorney to get absolutely NOWHERE. The extreme frustration, sadness, depression, anger, exhaustion and just about any other unwanted emotion you can think of, every single day. The nights I have laid in bed and cried myself to sleep missing my baby and the nights I didn’t sleep at all, panicking about where he is this time and what he’s being exposed to. What kind of things he is seeing strangers do with his dad or what couch he is having to sleep on. The many dozens of days that I can’t remember because of the haze I’m stuck in. All of this is worth every bit. I will suffer for the rest of my life if it means fighting for my child. Shelby has been such an amazing partner through all of this. She’s supported us without question since day one. Done anything we’ve needed or wanted her to do with no hesitation. She has, for two years, made sure that all of our bills were paid and we had a roof over our heads for Jaxon to come home to when this was over. May 10, 2018, she was in a nearly fatal car accident that broke both bones in her right leg completely in half. She was air lifted to University Hospital in San Antonio where she had to have emergency surgery. Since then, she has not been able to work and I have been the sole provider. Unfortunately, this has caused us some serious issues. We go back to court, AGAIN, October 21st. Where the judge will finally make a decision. We are normal people who pay all of our own bills and work so hard for everything we have, so having to pay an attorney so much money for such a long time has really affected us. We are fixing to loose our attorney with our final court date 1 month away. Which will leave us without an attorney for court in October. Jaxons father lives off of his grandmother and has not one single bill to pay. He has his attorney being paid for him. He has no worries at all and he has no problem dragging this out as long as he can to keep me from my son even longer, because he isn’t the one paying for any of it. And knowing how badly we are struggling makes him laugh. He has NEVER been awarded custody of jaxon. No judge has taken my son away from me. He has only been able to do this because we had nothing in writing and he has asked for continuance after continuance to drag this on because he knows we pay for everything ourselves. My wife and I have done this alone for two years. I haven’t been without employment a single time. Shelby has done anything she could find to make some quick cash while she waits to go back to the prison, but it just isn’t enough. This battle has cost us so much already and now it’s costing us everything. We have spent over $30,000 on attorneys fees and court costs. All I am trying to do is bring our son back home to us where he should be! Where we know he is safe and loved and cared for! Where he gets all of the attention and love and affection he deserves, and then some! To make sure he’s in safer schools and cleaner air and mostly, to make sure that he doesn’t have to remember any of the trauma he has experienced in the last two years. My poor baby is so angry and confused and I just want this to be over for HIS sake. I had him last on July 26th. I drove to Houston for his first day of school on Aug 13th and saw him for less than an hour. His father continues to violate the temporary orders we have so that I cant see or talk to my son and we cant do anything about it until we see the judge in Oct. He has changed his number so that I cant even check on my baby. When I saw Jaxon last the first thing he asked me was if he could come to my house. Everytime I get to see him he begs me not to bring him back and tells me over and over that he wants to stay with me. Nothing breaks my heart more than not being able to explain things to him so that he understands. It makes me sick to think about all the mental abuse he is being put through by being forced to be alienated from his mom, who has raised him ALONE his entire life, just because I left an abusive relationship. Now my sweet baby is suffering from it. So please, help us continue this fight to get Jaxon home. To get him back to a SAFE environment so that he can have a NORMAL childhood. ANYTHING HELPS!! Whether it’s $1 or $100! Please don’t feel obligated. But know that we are so thankful for all of the love and support we have received from you guys this far! Jaxon will grow up knowing how many people loved him enough to help keep him safe and save his life.