Support Jay's TRANSformation
If you want to skip my back story (I'll only be a little heartbroken), it gets real about 4 paragraphs down.
I've always struggled about my identity and who I was as a person. Through High School flipping from one identity, to the next trying to figure out what was keeping me from being completely who I truly was. I had never truly felt like a girl or woman, I knew that for a fact. With that and dealing with being overweight, my top weight being 315 lbs, and how it affected my self confidence and my relationships, society truly felt on top of me. Luckily my only outlet was my art, and I learned to utilize that. Not only did it become my performance diary, but it allowed for me to be able to play with all identities.
I came out as genderqueer after graduating high school. That same year I began to lose the weight that I had my entire life. It was more than that though, it was just the first step for me coming out as a transman. You know, I still believe that spectrum of gender is still a blur, but that is what I most identify with.
Coming out to my family and friends has been a struggle and a whirlwhind I could have never expected. It's still a process, the name change, the pronoun change, but being the type of person I am I understand the struggle it is for them as well, because at the end of the day we're all human and english is confusing as hell.
But now, I want to take the next step. I'm still on the road to getting on Testosterone, though most can't tell due to my naturally deep voice and my strange ability to grow facial hair. But the biggest hurdle that I want leap is Top surgery and Masculization surgery. Being 20, and an artist, you would think money would be an easy feat for me, am I right? But I'm looking for the support of family, friends, coworkers, other artists, other humans, just any and all of you lovely people to finally make my dreams of becoming who I truly am a reality. I know I have a long ways to go until I truly reach self actualization, but anything you could give would help me on this journey and I'd be more than grateful.
I also wouldn't mind baking cookies, pies, writing poems, painting bad pictures and drawing bad drawings for the help! Much Love to you all and thank you for listening.