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First of all I don't want to sound like I am feeling sorry for myself but what I wish is to start a new without worrying about which bill I need to pay today or get I get shopping in.
Okies here the deal I won't spend or splurge ... I just want to live like everyone else is by being normal by going to work and coming home to a house that I can pay for .. At 39 I went to university and got a degree after being at home with four kids but secretly I was living with physical and emotional abuse for a long time it destroyed my confidence gave me anxiety and fear of closed spaces (after being strangled) and stopped me trusting even myself ... It took me many attempts to find housing and even had the promises when letters came through the door that he would change sadly not .. But finally I thought my life has changed as
I got out but I had trusted yet another person who was horrid and now I am now stuck in a little scruffy rented house (no carpets no wall paper) and debts.. the fella I had trusted has now left with gas and electricity bills out the roof plus council tax and a huge debt to a catalogue ... I would do anything to just start anew .. Today i just need some help ... Yet again I am feeling a failure .. My father won't even help with childcare and I am stuck not being able to even pay school for after school clubs I do work but I can't get straight ... Simply i just need help .. I shall see if I can put a link on here regarding my experiences with domestic abuse but I just need a little help to become normal and not worry all the time .. You see people going out having fun eating meals and going to cinema with friends I can't ... I just want to be normal ! I want to show my children that you go to work you pay your bills and you live your own life ... What more can I say ? I always said I don't ask for much I think o should have asked for enough that's all I want .. Just enough X.
https://isthisdomesticabuse.wordpress.com/2012/10/09/justin-lee-collins-found-guiltymystory/
Okies here the deal I won't spend or splurge ... I just want to live like everyone else is by being normal by going to work and coming home to a house that I can pay for .. At 39 I went to university and got a degree after being at home with four kids but secretly I was living with physical and emotional abuse for a long time it destroyed my confidence gave me anxiety and fear of closed spaces (after being strangled) and stopped me trusting even myself ... It took me many attempts to find housing and even had the promises when letters came through the door that he would change sadly not .. But finally I thought my life has changed as
I got out but I had trusted yet another person who was horrid and now I am now stuck in a little scruffy rented house (no carpets no wall paper) and debts.. the fella I had trusted has now left with gas and electricity bills out the roof plus council tax and a huge debt to a catalogue ... I would do anything to just start anew .. Today i just need some help ... Yet again I am feeling a failure .. My father won't even help with childcare and I am stuck not being able to even pay school for after school clubs I do work but I can't get straight ... Simply i just need help .. I shall see if I can put a link on here regarding my experiences with domestic abuse but I just need a little help to become normal and not worry all the time .. You see people going out having fun eating meals and going to cinema with friends I can't ... I just want to be normal ! I want to show my children that you go to work you pay your bills and you live your own life ... What more can I say ? I always said I don't ask for much I think o should have asked for enough that's all I want .. Just enough X.
https://isthisdomesticabuse.wordpress.com/2012/10/09/justin-lee-collins-found-guiltymystory/
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