Starting Over Clean & Sober

Hi thanks for taking a moment for me.

In November of 2017 I was in a state of despair and suicidal, ready to give up. I was facing a lifetime of addiction and alcoholism, homelessness and failure I felt like life just didn't want me. 

But I had a 10 year old daughter who didn't see any of that. To her I was just her daddy and she wanted me around. She still loved me and saw the goodness in me. So I made a promise to myself to try one last time to clean up. And entered into a treatment program.

I had gone through treatment before but rarely kept sober for more than a couple months after and never with much growth or development. And often I felt like I was faking it or just biding my time. But this time it was different. I was earnest and did it as sincerely as I could. I did what was asked of me. I worked on my addiction and my mental illness, I suffer from severe depression and PTSD as well. I learned much about myself and new tools to become better and healthier.

It wasn't easy and it still isn't. After I finished the program I moved into a sober house. And did as they asked and took my sobriety seriously. Attending 12 step meetings and seeing a counselor. Eventually I became House Rep, which means I am the resident in charge of the house.

Well it is nearly time for this part of the journey to end. I am now 16 months sober and ready to go out on my own. Also they only allow residents to stay for a maximum of a year so that there is always room for new men who need the support the house offers.

But I have hit some serious obstacles. When I left my treatment program I returned to work but was only there for 6 months when they laid me off. And I have been searching for work since that is appropriate and safe for my sobriety. I also had two bouts of pneumonia and my heart has been damaged by the drug and alcohol abuse.  And because my treatment program was 4 months long I had to get rid of a lot of furniture and home essentials like kitchenwares and dishes and so on.  And of course I no longer have an apartment.

That is where you come in. I am seeking support for getting a place to live and the cost of setting up again. I have no furniture anymore. And I will need to find a place where I can not only have my daughter stay with me at, I will need to have suitable furniture. I will need kitchenwares and items like that. Most importantly I will need first and last month's rent to pay for the apartment in  a town where rents are very high and getting started is really difficult. 

I am continuing my job search and am making headway, but even if I found a place to live I only have till April 30th to move. And even if I found work now reaching the amount I need to get started would be nearly impossible. I really am in a frightening situation and am humbled and desperate for any help you could offer. 

Thank you for reading and taking the time and for your support and friendship. I am eternally grateful for my second chance. And for any help you may give.

Thank you
Jeff