Our angels need a sibling to watch over! (IVF)
December 2012 will mark one year since our first IVF cycle which resulted in our beautiful twin babies. As you all know, we were able to carry Maka and Ku'ulani for twenty weeks (about five months) until the Lord called them back to heaven. Although April 18, 2012 was possibly the worst day of our lives as we were not ready to let our little ones go,we are very thankful for the time we were able to spend with them here on Earth.
After the loss of our precious children we needed some time to heal mentally, physically and emotionally. We feel that we are now strong enough to start the IVF journey again. Resulting from our December 2011 IVF cycle, we were able to preserve four "snow babies" and would like to complete an embryo transfer the first week of December 2012. Since we have exhausted loans against our 401 plan and our savings, we need your help. We are hoping to fundraise $1500 by November 5 which will give us the last push toward our goal. We understand times are tough so anything you can offer is very much appreciated.
Please help us in achieving our dream in being parents and allowing our angel babies the chance to watch over their sibling from up above.
Thank you from the bottom of our hearts!
Maka & Ona
I started writing a very detailed update post a week ago that described my feelings in depth and a play by play of our appointments last week. I wasn't able to finish and as the days went on it got harder and harder for me to return to it because I didn't want to feel anything anymore. I wanted to detach myself from the situation and move forward but I felt I needed to give closure to everyone following our journey. I really wanted to come here and share great news with all of you after our first ultrasound but instead I have to tell you that no heartbeat was found that day. We made it to eight weeks this time but unfortunately the baby stopped growing at some point. The doc doesn't think it was anything more than a chromosomal issue with the embryo which is very common in any pregnancy and not just IVF. Had we paid to have the embryo chromosomes tested beforehand, we would have known not to transfer that particular one but of course it costs a couple thousand extra. Although our hearts are broken, we are looking forward to healing and moving forward. I'm not sure when we will have the money to try again but for now we will continue to enjoy each other and everything we are continually blessed with. Thank you for the thoughts, prayers, donations, kind words and support. This isn't the end of our journey but rather just a speed bump along the way.
Love you guys!
So we completed our transfer of one single embryo on Friday and with Maka being off his feet...my lovely sis was able to experience it with me. All went well and as uncomfortable as I remember from last time. The full bladder part is the worst. Think...your bladder is beyond full and someone is pushing on your stomach for at least 30 minutes then having to wait still to let the little snow baby settle in. Ugh..but worth it for sure!!
I am now six days past a five day transfer which translates to 6dp5dt in IVF terms. "Five day" means the embryo was five days old before frozen. The technical name is blastocyst. I don't have any pregnancy symptoms as I shouldn't because it is way too early. I am more tired than usual and quite a bit more emotional but I'm blaming it on the progesterone shots which really mess with your hormones. Speaking of these daily shots...they are really killing my lower back/upper bum. I have bruises and welts that hurt like heck. Thankfully, we purchased a heating pad which has been helping the last two nights.
We should know by next week if we have a little one growing inside me. I'm asking for everyone's thoughts and prayers that we will have our miracle. I hope you all have a very Merry Christmas spent with all your family and friends!!
Love you guys!
First off, I apologize that it has been awhile since my last update but so much has happened and I'm only now starting to catch my breath.
We have started the intramuscular shots. These are straight hormones that need to be injected as a mixture of oil. The needles are ugly and painful but we are getting through it.
Maka has hurt himself..bad. While playing in a softball tournament, he tore his left meniscus and ACL. Although painful, he was able to limp through work for two weeks. This past Wednesday was the actual reconstructive surgery. He is now in excruciating pain so I've been playing nurse for the past week. I'm hoping he is able to heal quickly as I will need him these next few weeks.
Last week Thursday was my Intralipid Infusion which I sometimes like to call my "milk" therapy. I have raised natural killer cells in my body that could potentially kick out any wonderful embryos so this "milk" helps to protect the snow baby upon transfer. It is a very expensive and time consuming process but doesn't hurt a bit.
Friday is my scheduled frozen embryo transfer. I am very nervous and scared for all the uncertainty but I have to stay positive and hope for the best. I will post an update after the transfer..while I'm lounging around on bed rest.
I hope you all are having a wonderful holiday season!
Love you guys!
Although oral medication started last Tuesday, the official start of the cycle and injections started yesterday. Some may cringe at the thought of giving yourself a shot in the stomach each morning but it really isn't bad at all. The title of the medication is Lupron and it is used to suppress the pituitary to prevent ovulation. We use the same needle as anyone familiar with insulin injections. It is very tiny and does not hurt at all. We've also added another oral medication which we will continue for the next few months and I have an appointment today for a fluid ultrasound.
I want to thank you all again for helping us to achieve and exceed our initial goal. The doctor's fee has been paid in full! Thank heavens. I decided to increase the goal by $1k to help cover some of the medication costs. The total cost of our medications thus far is approximately $1300. Medical insurance groups in Nevada are not mandated to cover any doctor fees, blood tests, other testing, medication, etc. Everything must be paid out of pocket.
Anyway, hope you all have a wonderful Thanksgiving with your family and friends. We have so much to be thankful for this year and every year!
Love you guys!