Nikki needs a boost

While I know that because of natural disaster, people are suffering worse than I am. I also know within myself that I can never walk head high in your presence again, but I have to do this.
Imagine being buried alive and constantly trying to dig your way out. Every time you think you see a pinch of daylight, circumstances kick dirt into the hole making your digging, scratching and clawing seem all for nothing.
What you need is someone on the outside of the hole to grab your reaching hand and pull you out to safety. That is my life right now. I need help out of the hole.
We on the verge of total loss because I chose to suffer in silence all this time. It is my natural practice to do all I can for others and never do things for myself. If I want to live some years longer, this practice has to stop. My health is deteriorating, I cannot die right now as I said in the video, so, I'm peeling off my dignity and baring my soul.
I can only pray that you will not change your opinion of me. That is my biggest fear. However, at this stage, it's a chance I'll have to take. I'm asking a few thousand friends to let me hold $3. Is that too much?
Watch the video &
Thank you in advance for your help.