Please help save my home!

$1,430 of $5,000 goal

Raised by 28 people in 64 months
I really hate having to do this and am a bit ashamed and embarrassed by it, and I can't say I'm too optimistic as to what results, if any, this will yield (its "going viral" prospects are nil, I recognize, for I'm not pretty nor glamorous, and it's not a "fun" nor "exciting" cause), but I have to pursue all angles, and so this last resort plea for help. Some have noticed I've not been more than tokenly present on social media and such the last few months... and that's because the bottom is officially completely falling out, and after years of trying to stay afloat on my hand-to-mouth own, I need a life preserver, or I don't really see any point in going on. I need to raise the rest of my $5000 goal by the end of this June 2017 (hopefully sooner) to get my property taxes current and not lose my home.


One of the unfortunate aspects of navigating in my particular business (being in the film/entertainment business, even as just a writer/journalist) is that you have to put on airs--not necessarily to look successful or better, but the only way anyone will pay any attention or give you any mind is to have that appearance of security. Honestly confess how things aren't going well, and that you do sincerely need help, and suddenly the audience turns a blind eye and deaf ear, both those who know me and my work who are well off and successful and all other points below. And I realize with this, I'm probably shutting off the senses of many more than I already have...

When my father passed away from cancer in December 2006, he left behind a legacy of debt, not only in the financial sense, but also then leaving me to inherit my older brother, whom for whatever reason had settled into the position of layabout shut-in. I had hoped that with now both of our parents gone (my mother suddenly passed of an aortic aneurysm in 2004), this would be a motivating factor in him finally doing something with himself and living his own life. Benefit of the doubt the first year or two, as I shouldered the load of taking care of the expenses and chiseling away at those financial debts as there was a slight safety cushion in a cache of savings bonds my father left for us, and I thought my brother would have the sense that this was a finite resource, and that it was there to keep heads barely above water while he actively looked for work, any work--being a barely high school graduate, there was no room for pride--and the necessary side benefit of him actually getting to know people aside from me. Meanwhile, I've taken additional gigs in various areas to supplement the admittedly modest income that an independent one-man media operation generates. Anyone who knows me knows I never put on an air that I'm "balling" in any sense... I'm not a snappy dresser, have the bare minimum when it comes to gadgets and such (just that which I need for my basic productivity),.

But years passed, and worse case scenario emerges, and my brother's savings is blown, leading me to have to dig into my cache. I made the necessary cutbacks to my every day (not for nothing have people noticed my weight loss--definitely a product of a largely 1 ramen packet a day "diet"), tried to be encouraging to my brother to find some work, as I then shouldered all the expenses from the utilities, what limited food budget there is, the debt legacy, and the home property taxes. All the while, hoping that my brother would realize the strain I was going through, not merely financially but psychologically. I never signed up to have an older 40-plus-year-old "son"...

Long story short, going on 11 years since my dad's passing, I've managed to somehow sustain on what I make through the site and the steady side gigs (some of which have come and gone) and chipping away at the debts, but as lean times endure, sometimes you have to either put things to the side or not make the minimum payments as some basic survival expenses (i.e., electricity and water, plus the monthly transit pass and the web hosting to keep my bread and butter functioning to keep at least some income coming) take basic precedence. But eventually things come back to bite you and the chickens come home to roost, etc., etc. ... and so I get a notice that I need to come up with back property taxes by July or else the process of the county selling the house will begin. Factoring in the utility/Internet/transit expenses (food, as usual, becomes a luxury to be sacrificed)... I need this boost to help me make the payment, which will put me back on course to make all future ones, I feel like the (no pun intended) the walls are closing in and caving in on me once and for all, and frankly not only feel as if I can't make it out this time, by the end of June, I'm about to give in and completely give up and stop taking up space away from those who can function.

So, that all said... any help is greatly appreciated.
Thanks in advance.
Michael Dequina




Michael Dequina is the creator/publisher/sole writer of The Movie Report / Film Flam Flummox, which has has been offering regular film/video/DVD/television/stage reviews, news, interviews, and event coverage since 1995. Every little bit is greatly appreciated and truly does make a difference, so please donate today and spread the word.
+ Read More
Image of my latest bill is attached... Managed to knock the bill down to $1430, which the tax collector by May 31, 2018 to be current. Hoping to raise $1000 by then, for I can manage to scrounge up the remaining $430. So please, if you feel like giving me a gift for my birthday (May 15) or a belated gift for the dual 23-year anniversary of The Movie Report newsletter/28-year anniversary of my film reviewing career, please do so... and spread the word; this is the shortcut address for this contribution page: http://j.mp/tmrhelp . Thanks in advance for your generous support
+ Read More
I really hate having to do this and am a bit ashamed and embarrassed by it, and I can't say I'm too optimistic as to what results, if any, this will yield (its "going viral" prospects are nil, I recognize, for I'm not pretty nor glamorous, and it's not a "fun" nor "exciting" cause), but I have to pursue all angles, and so this last resort plea for help. Some have noticed I've not been more than tokenly present on social media and such the last few months... and that's because the bottom is officially completely falling out, and after years of trying to stay afloat on my hand-to-mouth own, I need a life preserver, or I don't really see any point in going on. I need to raise the rest of my $5000 goal by the end of this June 2017 (hopefully sooner) to get my property taxes current and not lose my home.
+ Read More
homelessness is imminent... please help!!!
+ Read More
someone please help & give me some reason to not put myself out of my own misery
+ Read More
Read a Previous Update

$1,430 of $5,000 goal

Raised by 28 people in 64 months
Created March 3, 2013
Your share could be bringing in donations. Sign in to track your impact.
   Connect
We will never post without your permission.
In the future, we'll let you know if your sharing brings in any donations.
We weren't able to connect your Facebook account. Please try again later.
$20
Anonymous
1 month ago
$25
Anonymous
12 months ago
EA
$50
Erik Abriss
33 months ago

You're a great dude. Wishing you much success!

$25
Anonymous
37 months ago
$50
Anonymous
37 months ago
BG
$25
Blaine Greenfield
37 months ago

Hang in there. And please keep up with your informative writing!

$10
Anonymous
38 months ago
or
Or, use your email…
Use My Email Address
By continuing, you agree with the GoFundMe
terms and privacy policy
There's an issue with this Campaign Organizer's account. Our team has contacted them with the solution! Please ask them to sign in to GoFundMe and check their account. Return to Campaign

Are you ready for the next step?
Even a $5 donation can help!
Donate Now Not now
Connect on Facebook to keep track of how many donations your share brings.
We will never post on Facebook without your permission.