Sending out an SOS to the world
Donation protected
The diagnosis is stage 4 metastatic breast cancer and my third death sentence. The options are slim, they will not operate. Chemo or pain management. Drugs or drugs. Take it or leave it.
Reality is, my nerve has been damaged and has had pain and infection since my first round of surgeries, four years ago, my lymph have fluctuated up and down and lymphodema has set in at an all time high; they will not address nor acknowledge these issue. Over the last three years, Ive been face to face with 6 different doctors of all flavors all pointing to the above diagnosis, that is already written, and read and reread by them as sacred, while dismissing my complaint of any infection or injury though its been so obvious. There is also pain from a biopsy 4 yrs ago, that poked into my rib with a spring loaded needle very much like that of an ear piercing gun, and was/ is swollen and has never stopped hurting my bone. They go silent when I try and convey this and redirect my attention to the death sentence, "Do it or you will be dead in 1.5 yrs." (scripted) Not good medicine. Harsh. obviously untrue. unkind. Heard that three times, beat it twice and bout to beat it three times and once and for all.
The pain has been ongoing, constant, and no different since the surgeries except this last injury has left my left arm paralyzed and the pain at an all time high. It has built into this, it didn’t metastasize, or I would be dead already because it started getting really bad just after the Thomas fire and I coddled it until now when I am physically disabled from it.
On another note, there are no tests to conclude their theory. I have two cat scans that show swollen lymph, tumorous lumps, and lotsa inflammation. Inflammation shows up in pet scans as possible cancer, just so you know, and it can also be breeding ground for cancer. Biopsy is the only proof positive to detect cancer. So they are basing the diagnosis on, a possibility, and redirecting my attention to death. No solid proof, and I am unwilling to allow one more needle in my body because fear of even more complication and infection and my choice is same no matter what the actual diagnosis. All tumors are not cancer and can be sorted without evasive practices, it takes longer but the body learns how to respond and the chance of return is far less.
I can get a therapy by real doctors, that is known to build my immune system, stop and even shrink tumors, and clear infection but it is not covered by my current insurance though I have endlessly requested it with a flavorful assortment of answers and further distraction wrapped in fear tactics and death sentences. My out of pocket expenses will be just under 1,000.00 a week for as many weeks as it takes. I searched far and wide to find one this affordable and found them.
I am doing everything I can to not succumb to narcotics and treatments that will cause other organs and functioning systems to also suffer and eventually fail keeping me in the system of sick. I had an independent test done two months back and was put on the nutritional balancing program. I feel better already from it but it isnt taking away the swelling or paralysis. The doctors did not look at any of this which is why I had the independent tests.I was weak beyond belief, low in all nutrients and hormones. Ive been on the program a month and can finally stand without being dizzy or feeling faint. My appetite is grande. This is Progress. I use infrared light daily, along with ice, deep breathing and a great deal of tolerance for the pain. Some days its a dull reminder, others, it has me shaking and pacing, moaning and rocking. I deal with it because the drugs I'm offered are not going to help in the long run, especially considering where I was two months ago, my system would have shut down relatively fast.
Anyone who wants info on what, when, where, please ask, I m not posting it publicly. If you would like to donate directly to the two doctors, and two other practitioners I have chosen, I can arrange that too. Anything is appreciated.
Even if you do not believe in what I am doing, let me be your witness, let me be your research, let me be the example of whatever it is you need to believe or disprove. I am willing to risk my life for the sake of giving all people truths. I am willing to be that truth.
Please help me raise the funds I need to get well once and for all and may you be paid back ten fold for your kindness.
Thank You!!! Thank You!!! Thank You!!!
Reality is, my nerve has been damaged and has had pain and infection since my first round of surgeries, four years ago, my lymph have fluctuated up and down and lymphodema has set in at an all time high; they will not address nor acknowledge these issue. Over the last three years, Ive been face to face with 6 different doctors of all flavors all pointing to the above diagnosis, that is already written, and read and reread by them as sacred, while dismissing my complaint of any infection or injury though its been so obvious. There is also pain from a biopsy 4 yrs ago, that poked into my rib with a spring loaded needle very much like that of an ear piercing gun, and was/ is swollen and has never stopped hurting my bone. They go silent when I try and convey this and redirect my attention to the death sentence, "Do it or you will be dead in 1.5 yrs." (scripted) Not good medicine. Harsh. obviously untrue. unkind. Heard that three times, beat it twice and bout to beat it three times and once and for all.
The pain has been ongoing, constant, and no different since the surgeries except this last injury has left my left arm paralyzed and the pain at an all time high. It has built into this, it didn’t metastasize, or I would be dead already because it started getting really bad just after the Thomas fire and I coddled it until now when I am physically disabled from it.
On another note, there are no tests to conclude their theory. I have two cat scans that show swollen lymph, tumorous lumps, and lotsa inflammation. Inflammation shows up in pet scans as possible cancer, just so you know, and it can also be breeding ground for cancer. Biopsy is the only proof positive to detect cancer. So they are basing the diagnosis on, a possibility, and redirecting my attention to death. No solid proof, and I am unwilling to allow one more needle in my body because fear of even more complication and infection and my choice is same no matter what the actual diagnosis. All tumors are not cancer and can be sorted without evasive practices, it takes longer but the body learns how to respond and the chance of return is far less.
I can get a therapy by real doctors, that is known to build my immune system, stop and even shrink tumors, and clear infection but it is not covered by my current insurance though I have endlessly requested it with a flavorful assortment of answers and further distraction wrapped in fear tactics and death sentences. My out of pocket expenses will be just under 1,000.00 a week for as many weeks as it takes. I searched far and wide to find one this affordable and found them.
I am doing everything I can to not succumb to narcotics and treatments that will cause other organs and functioning systems to also suffer and eventually fail keeping me in the system of sick. I had an independent test done two months back and was put on the nutritional balancing program. I feel better already from it but it isnt taking away the swelling or paralysis. The doctors did not look at any of this which is why I had the independent tests.I was weak beyond belief, low in all nutrients and hormones. Ive been on the program a month and can finally stand without being dizzy or feeling faint. My appetite is grande. This is Progress. I use infrared light daily, along with ice, deep breathing and a great deal of tolerance for the pain. Some days its a dull reminder, others, it has me shaking and pacing, moaning and rocking. I deal with it because the drugs I'm offered are not going to help in the long run, especially considering where I was two months ago, my system would have shut down relatively fast.
Anyone who wants info on what, when, where, please ask, I m not posting it publicly. If you would like to donate directly to the two doctors, and two other practitioners I have chosen, I can arrange that too. Anything is appreciated.
Even if you do not believe in what I am doing, let me be your witness, let me be your research, let me be the example of whatever it is you need to believe or disprove. I am willing to risk my life for the sake of giving all people truths. I am willing to be that truth.
Please help me raise the funds I need to get well once and for all and may you be paid back ten fold for your kindness.
Thank You!!! Thank You!!! Thank You!!!
Organizer
Dawn Rosa
Organizer
Ojai, CA
