Disabled & Independent: Moving Out

$922 of $12,000 goal

Raised by 18 people in 33 months
Who am I?
My name is Lisa. I am a 39-year old social justice activist, co-founder of the Transcending Boundaries Conference, a writer, a volunteer amateur historian, and animal lover (especially bunnies!) I live on Social Security Disability due to a fun little mixture of Bipolar Disorder, Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder, PTSD, a Sensory Processing Disorder, and Dissociative Identity Disorder (formerly known as Multiple Personality Disorder), along with numerous side effects from the medications I take.  I managed to earn my B.A. from UConn, work several jobs short-term, and secure a full scholarship to law school before my doctors ordered me to stop working or going to school full-time.

What do I need so much money for?
I need a safe place to live. Since going on Disability, I have lived with my parents in my ancestral home, but this has grown increasingly difficult. I love my parents and I love this house, but my parents' antique business frequently turns our house into a crowded warehouse - an OCD nightmare which has already resulted in one hospitalization. Also, treatment for my DID has left my childhood environment very triggering - I still live next to the house where I was sexually abused, and some of my younger personalities are terrified when they emerge at home, sometimes to the point of fainting, panic attacks, and worse. (They do much better elsewhere.) Even if I manage to get past all these OCD and DID triggers, my parents are aging, and plan to sell the house in the coming years.

Why am I not in disability housing?
I am trying to secure a senior/disability apartment through government sources, but all waiting lists close to my supports are currently closed. I was not selected for the Section 8 Housing waiting list. I continue to make calls and will eventually get onto a waiting list, but it will likely take years to obtain an affordable disability apartment. Until then, I hope to raise enough money to live for at least a year in a non-government controlled apartment while I wait, one that is in a safe area near my supports (family, doctors, friends, etc.)

How will the money I raise be used?
I plan to (hopefully) move in July or August. All money raised will go directly to rent, security deposits, and utilities, excluding cable. I am searching for studio or 1 bedroom apartments under $1,000/mo., which is below average for my area. Roommates are not feasible for me, unless I know them very well, due to my mental illness.

Why is this so important? 
Being able to move out of the house and into a quiet, safe, private, and new environment will not only be extremely healthy for me psychologically, but also a huge leap forward in my life. I cry just thinking about what a positive difference it would make, and how incredibly difficult having my own apartment is to achieve. Without financial help, I cannot make this move, not until I get disability housing, and from my own search, I know this takes years. In my own town, I don't make ENOUGH money to be considered for senior/disability housing!! If I can afford, with the help of others, my own space while I wait for housing I can afford on my own, I will be overwhelmed with gratitude.

The system to take care of persons with disabilities and moderate to severe mental illness is incredibly inadequate. My friends will affirm that I hate asking for money, but when I have no other choice...I swallow my pride and ask. If you donate, anything at all, I will love you forever. Seriously. I will not forget such an incredible gift to help me live healthily. Your name will end up on a plaque or something.

Do you work at all?
I assist my parents with their antiques business, mostly in order to pay off existing bills. I am currently also working on a book of poetry, fiction, and diary excerpts describing my experiences as a "multiple", but I do not expect to see any profits from that for quite awhile, if ever! I am also working on a mental health blog, the link to which I will post as soon as it's live. In addition, I do volunteer work when I am able.

Feel free to respectfully ask any questions or provide suggestions!
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Well, it's been a hard week. The two personalities/parts that I have known since I was 12 staged their own "deaths", entering into a deep sleep in the subconscious where I cannot reach them. It's like having your best friends since childhood, people you spent every day with, who knew all your secrets and could practically read your mind, telling you they need to go away and aren't sure if they'll ever return. I felt like pieces of my heart were torn from me, and have been seriously grieving since. I couldn't bear to stay in the house immediately after, where so much reminded me of them, so I spent the weekend elsewhere in order to process my grief in a neutral place.

I know I'm probably the only one who understands what this kind of grief is like, but it seemed relevant to share anyway.

I am incredibly thankful to all who have donated so far and/or have shared this fundraiser. The more the merrier! I am slowly healing from this loss despite the armada of triggers in the house, but god, I wish I could be elsewhere. As usual, I will be incredibly grateful for any help I receive.
A memorial box for those who now sleep.
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We've reached 5% of the goal - which may sound small, but I will celebrate any multiple of 5 ;) Yesterday was a hard day, with one of my little girls looking at the neighbor's house through the window and unhealthily venting her anger, and another part taking over to sedate her. I was knocked out most of the day. And so life goes...thank you again to everyone who has donated and shared! I'm trying hard to believe I can make this move happen.
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Thank you so much to my first-day donors - we reached $507! That's almost 5%. Stay tuned for more updates, links to pictures of rewards, links to my writing, and more on the search for a suitable location.
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$922 of $12,000 goal

Raised by 18 people in 33 months
Created January 8, 2016
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Wireless level
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$10
Hand-written
For $10, get a personalized thank you card in the mail.
$20
Postcard Level
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For only $20, receive a real antique postcard depicting a location, holiday, or greetings. A link of postcard photos will be sent to you to choose from.
$25
3D Print Level
For $25, receive an object printed on my family's 3D printer. A link of available designs will be sent to you. Colors may vary.
$30
Two 3D Prints!
For $30, receive two objects printed on my family's 3D printer. A link of available designs will be sent to you. Colors may vary.
$50
Sweets Cookbook
For $50, receive our cookbook of family sweets - cookies, pies, pudding, cakes, & more - most recipes having been handed down through generations.
$75
Bunny Level
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For $75, receive one of my beloved bunny plushies or figurines, which I no longer have space to display. Each has been well loved, and are ready for new homes.
$100
Bad Bunny!
Receive one of my sister's fine art archival prints, or $13 off any other product. www.etsy.com/shop/BadBunnyShop?section_id=10313930&ref=shopsection_leftnav_1
$500
Pet Portrait
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For $500, my mother, an experienced painter of pet portraits, will paint a small portrait of your pet in acrylics. Photos of her work can be sent by request.
$1,000
Awesome Level
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You'll receive one of my personal rabbit plushies or figurines, 3 3D printed objects, cookbook, personalized card, and small pet or house portrait.
$3,000
Amazing Level
A postcard, recipe book, personalized card, 5 3D printed objects, art print by my sister, personal tour guide to Hartford or SE Florida attractions, w/ tickets.
$5,000
Ultimate Level
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You receive everything received at the $3,000 level, as well as a small pet or house portrait.
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*hug*

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