Single mother struggling after losing job
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I created this go fund me because a lot of women suggested I do so based on a post I made on a Facebook mom group. I’m looking to raise enough money for this months rent which is past due so there’s a late fee, and my DWP bill, and have money to buy groceries and other monthly household expenses.
The post I made there is here as follows:
Im sorry if this is long, but I’m so scared. I am not okay, and I don’t know what to do. I just want to crawl into a ball and disappear, but I know that will only hurt me more. I need to be strong and keep working hard, but I’m so scared. My anxiety is making me shake and I feel sick to my stomach. I’ve been like this for a couple weeks but today is the worst day. I’m a single mom, and have no financial help from anyone. Which I usually do just fine, because I work full time hours. But I was let go from my job about two weeks ago and prior to be letting go, the week before my last week there I had completely off because the owner told me to take a week off because on that Monday I food poisoning. I told him I didn’t need the whole week off but he insisted. So then I came back and worked a full week only to be let go on that last Friday. I spent the next week desperately searching for work, and was feeling so blessed when I landed a another full time job that paid me more than my previous job. I thought, okay, I can do this, I’ll just tell my landlords what happened, and I’ll work this next week full time and then I’ll be able to pay my rent. They said okay. Whew! Thank god right?! Well I didn’t end up working full time, I only worked 15 hours because the woman who I was replacing and who was supposed to train me ended up leaving the day I interviewed apparently and so when I got the job and started working, I was at the mercy at who ever else was in the office who was able to train me, which wasn’t enough time. And then last night I get a text from my boss at this job that he’s at the hospital with his son and the office will be closed today but he’ll give me a call in the morning, which he did around 8:30am. He told me this morning that he decided to take a last minute trip with his family for Passover, and that the office would be closed for two weeks and that there wouldn’t be anyone available to train me. So basically I’m out of work for two weeks but he said he understood if I had to get another job and that if I’m still available when they return, they’d like to have me come back. Y’all I’m freaking out!!!! Okay! I don’t know what to do. They said they could give me my check next Friday which is only gonna be like maybe 300 after taxes. I have less than $100 in my bank account, I’m running out of food for my daughter and me, rent is past due which which now I owe a late fee too so that’s $855, my electric bill payment plan amount is due and that’s another $200. I’m terrified of my power being cut. I’m terrified of being evicted
I just don’t know what to do. I’m so scared I just wanna hide away, but I know I need to be strong and look for new work. It’s hard because I don’t have a car. I’m lucky my daughter’s school is across the street, and boys and girls club is only a few blocks away. To make things worse, there’s no record of me actually working for this new company because they never got around to have me sign me any paper work. So like, I don’t know if that’s gonna screw me over. I’m so use to being financially independent and struggling in my own way, of like, when are these bills due, but I managed. I did it. I was okay. But I’m not okay anymore. I feel like my life is falling apart and I can’t even afford to go grocery shopping and buy food. I haven’t been to a food bank in years and it’s not close at all either. I haven’t even filed my taxes yet cause I was a 1099 previously at the job I had before this one, and usually I do my own taxes and have the fee come out of my refund, but I don’t know how to file a 1099, and I’m afraid I’ll screw it up. I have zero savings, and I feel completely defeated. I don’t know what I’m gonna do. My landlords have already texted me asking about rent and I don’t know what to tell them .
I’m in a seriously dark place right now. I don’t know what I’m gonna do. I’ve been trying to sell things on Facebook to earn extra cash, but that’s not helping. I’ve tried let it go and Craigslist too, and still nothing. I hate this feeling. I’m so sorry this is a ridiculously long post, I just needed to vent I guess. I’m so sorry. I’m sorry I’m such a failure. I’m sorry I’m falling apart right now. I’m sorry. I don’t even know what to do right, except continue to keep looking for another job I guess. I hate this. I hate myself right now. I’m sorry.
ETA: Thank you so much for the women who have given me inspirational advice and those who helped me in anyway possible. If my go fund me exceeds my request, I will be using that to help save up for a car or any other expenses That come along before I’m back on my feet. I am still trying to find local work. I’m not giving up even though I feel so lost. Thank you so much!
The post I made there is here as follows:
Im sorry if this is long, but I’m so scared. I am not okay, and I don’t know what to do. I just want to crawl into a ball and disappear, but I know that will only hurt me more. I need to be strong and keep working hard, but I’m so scared. My anxiety is making me shake and I feel sick to my stomach. I’ve been like this for a couple weeks but today is the worst day. I’m a single mom, and have no financial help from anyone. Which I usually do just fine, because I work full time hours. But I was let go from my job about two weeks ago and prior to be letting go, the week before my last week there I had completely off because the owner told me to take a week off because on that Monday I food poisoning. I told him I didn’t need the whole week off but he insisted. So then I came back and worked a full week only to be let go on that last Friday. I spent the next week desperately searching for work, and was feeling so blessed when I landed a another full time job that paid me more than my previous job. I thought, okay, I can do this, I’ll just tell my landlords what happened, and I’ll work this next week full time and then I’ll be able to pay my rent. They said okay. Whew! Thank god right?! Well I didn’t end up working full time, I only worked 15 hours because the woman who I was replacing and who was supposed to train me ended up leaving the day I interviewed apparently and so when I got the job and started working, I was at the mercy at who ever else was in the office who was able to train me, which wasn’t enough time. And then last night I get a text from my boss at this job that he’s at the hospital with his son and the office will be closed today but he’ll give me a call in the morning, which he did around 8:30am. He told me this morning that he decided to take a last minute trip with his family for Passover, and that the office would be closed for two weeks and that there wouldn’t be anyone available to train me. So basically I’m out of work for two weeks but he said he understood if I had to get another job and that if I’m still available when they return, they’d like to have me come back. Y’all I’m freaking out!!!! Okay! I don’t know what to do. They said they could give me my check next Friday which is only gonna be like maybe 300 after taxes. I have less than $100 in my bank account, I’m running out of food for my daughter and me, rent is past due which which now I owe a late fee too so that’s $855, my electric bill payment plan amount is due and that’s another $200. I’m terrified of my power being cut. I’m terrified of being evicted
I just don’t know what to do. I’m so scared I just wanna hide away, but I know I need to be strong and look for new work. It’s hard because I don’t have a car. I’m lucky my daughter’s school is across the street, and boys and girls club is only a few blocks away. To make things worse, there’s no record of me actually working for this new company because they never got around to have me sign me any paper work. So like, I don’t know if that’s gonna screw me over. I’m so use to being financially independent and struggling in my own way, of like, when are these bills due, but I managed. I did it. I was okay. But I’m not okay anymore. I feel like my life is falling apart and I can’t even afford to go grocery shopping and buy food. I haven’t been to a food bank in years and it’s not close at all either. I haven’t even filed my taxes yet cause I was a 1099 previously at the job I had before this one, and usually I do my own taxes and have the fee come out of my refund, but I don’t know how to file a 1099, and I’m afraid I’ll screw it up. I have zero savings, and I feel completely defeated. I don’t know what I’m gonna do. My landlords have already texted me asking about rent and I don’t know what to tell them .
I’m in a seriously dark place right now. I don’t know what I’m gonna do. I’ve been trying to sell things on Facebook to earn extra cash, but that’s not helping. I’ve tried let it go and Craigslist too, and still nothing. I hate this feeling. I’m so sorry this is a ridiculously long post, I just needed to vent I guess. I’m so sorry. I’m sorry I’m such a failure. I’m sorry I’m falling apart right now. I’m sorry. I don’t even know what to do right, except continue to keep looking for another job I guess. I hate this. I hate myself right now. I’m sorry.
ETA: Thank you so much for the women who have given me inspirational advice and those who helped me in anyway possible. If my go fund me exceeds my request, I will be using that to help save up for a car or any other expenses That come along before I’m back on my feet. I am still trying to find local work. I’m not giving up even though I feel so lost. Thank you so much!
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Erin Jane
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Los Angeles, CA
