Rebuilding After Loss and Tragedies

I am a widow of 23 years, when my husband was killed in a car wreck, that left me a single mother of a new born baby and a 5-year-old son. I have always been independent, with my own place and car.

I worked 2 jobs at times; I helped take care of my parents when they passed away.

I put myself through college and worked full-time to support my children and myself. Those days were very hard. We made it!

 My children are all grown and are on their own.

Fast forward to the reason for this page.

In 2016, I lost a very good job, due to the Temporary agency I was employed through, would not work out the terms with the employee who really wanted to hire me. That ended my time with the company.

Nothing I tried was working out. Towards the end of 2016, the end was beginning, I ended up selling all my furniture and household items.

I must include that during this time, I had major tragedies happening. Death of my only family member left, and heart-breaking tragedies that are personal.

My spirit was completely crushed.  I lost part of me.  I had NO ONE (Family has passed away) to go too.

I ended up in the streets. Sleeping in my car. I was very scared.

I found work with Uber, I worked long hours thinking I could pull myself up and out of the hole. I couldn’t, the hole was GREATER than I was.

 The stress and not eating right, I collapsed, in an elevator (not fun to wake up on the floor of a moving enclosed machine) , I was in the hospital for a week.

After getting out of the hospital, I finally found a job and rented a room. I was very excited, to think I may be getting my life starting again. Unfortunately, I was laid off.

Recently, my car was repossessed.  

I am now renting a room (out of a lady’s home) that is far from town, with no car, and no way to get a job.  

Over the past 2 years, my life has been a nightmare. 

When you have hit bottom, you question EVERYTHING you ever did, or who you are.

I am not a drinker, smoker or do drugs. I am though a woman that has been through a lot and tried to stay strong but failed.

I do not blame anyone, but myself. I don’t regret the experience I have endured, for it has taught me more compassion for those that have lost so much and feel so alone, that this world as big as it is, seems to not see you and how you are hurting.

I know there are so many out there hurting.  Right now, I can help NO ONE until I can get back on my feet and on firm foundation.

The money I am asking for is to help me get back up, for all that I have lost. I need a car so I can get a job.  

I have no words for what this would do for me. Like I said the last 2 years have been a nightmare. After putting so much of yourself into your children and family that needed you, and then you lose everything, to the extent of feeling like you failed.  It is challenging.   

I will make a video and add it as soon as I can.