Manuel

My name is Yaillin Ramos and i’m 20 years of age. This is my first time doing this and I don’t know where to begin. I lived with my father and younger brother, who is currently 15 years old. It was only us three living together ever since my mom decided to part ways with us. I’ve never seen my dad so heartbroken before but it’s crazy how i know get to realize that his big heart accepted the big changes only out family knows was going through at the time.  We got evicted from out home back in October where we grew up and lived for almost our entire lives. My dad being a single parent at the time, only wanted what was best for us and together, we moved into a different apartment and made sure we had a roof over our heads even if it meant that he worked every single day with no days off. My dad was a strong man and made it happen. We were just settling in our new home. Those who know my father know that he is a very hardworking, funny, understanding and good-hearted man. On Wednesday, January 30th, he had a stroke around 4 PM. He was working that morning and all of a sudden he was in the hospital. He had a lot of blood in his head where it wasn’t  supposed to go and unfortunately, chances of him waking up were none and he was only getting worse. He didn’t  open his eyes or have any reflexes and was only breathing due to life support. I knew my dad so well and I remember him telling me that he wouldn’t want to be living with any machines and it hurts so much to have been the one playing God because who the fuck am i, right? On February 7,2019 around 4 PM was when he stopped breathing and passed away. We saw my father take his last breath and said whatever it was we had to tell him. It’s just so unreal.  I wish I could’ve done more. I wish for a lot but reminiscing at a time like this only brings us to tears. I only wanted to do what he would’ve wanted and I need help right now. I can’t do this alone. I don’t know what to do and money is so low. My heart aches and he knows I love him so muchh. I know there are good people in the world and I would appreciate anything even if its a dollar or a quarter or a hug. I would be using the money for his memorial service and to help our little family. It’s so much to explain about what we’ve been through because only our family know what we’re going through but I truly am so grateful for everything and everyone who is sending me their condolences. It is because of you all and especially our God above that give us the strength to go about our day. God bless you all and cherish those you love before it’s too late. Do good deeds and be of good heart. Thank you all and have a Blessed day ❤️.