Building the New 蜕变与新生

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Raised by 38 people in 29 months
Morgan McKinnon
on behalf of Morgan Mckinnon
 WEST BEND, WI
I am currently working and living in Beijing, China as a 2nd grade teacher. I have been here for almost 5 years. I love my life here in Beijing, but I am ready for a new journey so I have accepted a job in Morocco beginning this fall. Last spring, I decided to take control of my weight here in China and have lost over 100lbs. I would like to get extra skin from my body surgically removed before I leave China.

If you wish to learn more about me and about the surgery before donating to my cause here is a little of my story.

I have been considered “obese” most of my life. I always made excuses for myself. Saying things like, “I am big boned.” “I don’t need to be skinny to be happy.” “Big is beautiful too!” I would hide behind jokes and my loud personality to make it seem I was okay with who I was, but I’ve always been insecure about my body. I would hide when I had to change my clothes, I would wear layers to try and cover every roll in my stomach, I would wear cardigans even if I was hot to cover my arms, and I would avoid mirrors.  I wouldn’t even go to the doctor when I was really sick because I didn’t want the doctor to check my weight  because then I would have to confront my weight. Last March I finally decided that I needed to take control of my life and start caring about my health. It was time for me to stop making excuses and stop living in fear that I couldn’t do it. Because of my bad choices, I was in danger and at risk of killing myself before I was 40. So I jumped into weight loss and, honestly, it’s saved me.

So, what did I do first? I went to the gym and sought help. I didn’t know how to do this on my own, so I hired a personal trainer. Then, I started researching and seeking help on how to change my diet. I started seeing my trainer 3-4 times a week and then, the other days, I would do cardio. I cut out snacks, soda, bad carbs, and started meal planning. I started learning how to control myself at dinner parties, learned how to eat healthy in restaurants, and as a traveler. My schedule has become more hectic, as I go to work at 6:30am, tutor children to pay for trainers after work and head straight to the gym. I then arrive home at 8:00pm, and I cook and plan for the next day. At first, this routine was challenging, but as I began building a healthier lifestyle, the routine became easier and my body got used to it.

In the last 8 months the change I have seen in my body and my personality has astonished my friends, fellow workers, my trainer and myself. The small goals are what drive me to keep going. I can now wrap a normal sized bath towel around my body. I can cross my legs when I am sitting. I don’t sweat or get body odor as easily, and I can lock the seatbelt on the airplane. I don’t feel as clumsy anymore. I sleep better and feel more energetic. When I first started working out, I walked on the treadmill and as I slowly built up stamina, I can now run a 7K in under an hour. I even joined the girls rugby team in Beijing because I finally believed I could keep up. My confidence in athleticism has grown. Now, I enjoy these healthier activities and enjoy trying new sports and classes.

My goal was to learn to build a healthy lifestyle so I can stop yo-yoing with my weight. I feel like I have done that and am determined to continue my whole life! I didn’t do this to only look better, but to feel better! I don’t want to be fearful to try new things because I am scared I can’t keep up. I never want to hear or use the excuse I can’t do something because of my weight ever again. I don’t want to feel tired when I wake up in the morning or when I walk up a flight of stairs. I want to love myself and challenge myself and conquer any activity that is thrown my way.

My weight started at about 290lbs. Now, I weigh 170lbs. – 20lbs from my goal weight. When you lose this amount of weight, extra skin hangs from your body and becomes impossible to tighten all on your own. It becomes a health risk and a veil covering all of your hard work. After much consideration and discussing with doctors here in China I am hoping to get the extra skin removal surgery this spring. As I am moving to Morocco I want to focus on my new job and my new healthy lifestyle. I would like to not have to worry about surgery during my transition and honestly, I want to move to Morocco with the past behind me. The skin hanging from my body is a sad reminder for me of the unhealthy person I was. It’s uncomfortable and hard to find the best clothes with the skin in the way. I want my next chapter in life to begin with the new healthy, confident Morgan with every intention of continuing the lifestyle wherever I go.

I am asking for help to pay for this surgery from my friends and family. The surgery is less expensive in China, but still beyond my budget as a school teacher. I know that we all have our own financial situations. I am asking that if you can, if you believe in my story, and if you want to donate just a little to my cause, your contributions will help me begin the new life I have in front of me.

Thank you for reading my story and contributing to the next part of my journey. I hope that my story also inspires you to reach your own goals in life and makes you realize that anything can be achieved with hard work and determination.

我目前生活和工作在北京,是一名小学二年级的老师。我在北京生活近5年的时间,现在我已经准备好开启新的旅程,这个秋天,我接受了一份在摩洛哥的工作。 去年春天,我决心开始控制我的体重,至今为止,我已经减掉了100磅。我希望在离开中国之前通过手术将多余的皮脂去除掉。如果您想在捐款之前更多了解我和手术的话,下面我就给您讲讲我的故事。


我生命中大部分的时间都患有“肥胖症”。我总是给自己找借口说,“我的骨头很大”,“我不需要瘦下来才开心”,“大块头也很美”。我会用我的玩笑以及大大咧咧的性格做掩饰,让人看上去好像我对自己很满意。事实上,我对自己的身体并不满意。当我需要换衣服的时候,我会躲起来;我会穿很多层衣服只是为了盖住我肚子上一层层的肉;即使天气很热,我还是会穿一个外套,为了遮住我的胳膊;而且我还会尽量避免照镜子。甚至生病了,我都不敢去看医生,因为我害怕他们会检查我的体重,那样我就不得不面对这个现实。去年三月,我终于下定决心我需要重新掌中我的人生,开始关注我的健康。是时候停止为自己找借口,不再生活在恐惧中了。由于我不负责任的选择,我差点儿在40岁之前丢了性命。所以,我开始了减肥,说实话,减重救了我一命。

那么,我首先做了什么呢?我去了健身房寻求帮助。我不知道如何锻炼,所以我请了一位私教。然后,我开始研究并在改善饮食方面寻求帮助。我开始每周去3-4次健身房, 有的时候做有氧运动。我减少了零食,饮料,碳水化合物的摄入,开始了计划饮食。我开始学会控制自己晚餐的食量,学习在餐馆吃健康食品。我的时间表变得异常忙碌,我6:30开始上班,下班后辅导学生来付教练的费用,然后直接去健身房。我8:00到家,做晚饭,为第二天做准备。刚开始的时候,这个常规对我来说很有挑战性。但是当我开始健康的生活方式的时候,这个常规变得越来越容易了,我的身体也逐渐适应了。

在过去的8个月内,我身体和性格上发生的变化让我的朋友们、我的同事们、我的教练以及我自己大吃一惊。小的目标是我前进的动力。我现在可以用一张正常尺寸的浴巾包裹我的身体。我坐下的时候可以跷二郎腿。我不再那么容易过度出汗。我可以在飞机上系上安全带。我不再感觉很臃肿。我睡得更好,精力更充沛了。我刚开始锻炼的时候,我只能在跑步机上慢走,而坚持一段时间后,我现在可以在一小时内跑7公里。我加入了北京的女生橄榄球队因为我终于相信我能坚持。我在运动方面的信心与日俱增。现在,我非常享受这些健康的活动,希望尝试新的运动和课程。
我的目标是学习开始一种健康的生活态度,以便我可以停止忽上忽下的体重的困扰。我感觉我已经做到了,并且决心坚持下去。我这么做的目的并不仅是为了让自己看上去更好看,更重要的是感觉更好!我不想害怕尝试新事物因为我害怕我不能坚持。我不想再用我的体重作为我不能做这,不能做那的借口。我不想早上一起床就感觉很累,或者爬几层楼就气喘吁吁。我想爱我自己,挑战我自己,征服成长路上的障碍。


我之前的体重是290磅。现在,我的体重是170磅,离我的理想体重还差20磅。当一个人减掉如此大的重量的时候,多余的皮脂并不能自行伸缩。于是这些多余的皮脂就成为了我的一大健康隐患。经过再三考虑以及与医生商讨,我希望这个春天能做一个皮脂移除手术。由于我即将在摩洛哥开始新的生活,我希望将重点放在我新的工作和生活上,不希望过去的阴影影响我未来的新生活。而这些多余的皮脂总是能让我想起我的过去。 它们的存在让我很不舒服,而且很难找到合适的衣服。我希望我的新生活能够以健康的、自信的方式展开。无论到哪里,我都坚持我现在的健康生活方式。

我现在寻求我的朋友和家人的资助。在中国的手术费用会低很多,但是对于一个学校老师来说,还是大大超出我的预算。我知道我们都有自己的财务情况。如果你可以,如果你相信我的故事,如果你愿意捐助我做手术,你的捐款将能够帮助我开始我新的人生。


感谢你阅读我的故事并为我新的旅程贡献力量。我希望我的故事能够激励你实现自己的目标,使你相信只要付出努力并坚定决心,任何事情都是可能的。
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It's coming! The 27th is coming so quickly and I feel more ready then ever! I feel great and the most fit I have ever felt in my life. I can dead lift around 60kg! Almost my body weight. I wanted to scream at one point, but I did it. Weights not fluctuating too much, but I can see more definition in my body and can tell in my clothes. #bestneverrest #14daystogo #peaceoutskinseeyouneveragain
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Haven't updated in awhile, but will do better this last month! I have been working really hard to tone up as much as I can before my surgery on June 27! I can't believe it's only a month away. In this update, I finally got over my fear of working out with a group. I always feared I would look weak and super unhealthy in front of everyone else! But now I'm over it and see how much fun they can be!!!! Find a class that motivated you. Here is a pic of me at an ab work out and a pic of me trying to become more flexible in yoga!!
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By the way, I got another 1,000 dollars from my daddy and mommy. 1,000 dollars from my original goal :)
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My surgery is approaching and I am a bit nervous, but I have met with the surgeon again and feel confident he can help me complete this part of my journey. I am scheduled for the first weekend of May! After, looking at this picture I know for sure I am never looking back.
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Melissa 'Spurling' Burnell
28 months ago

Morgan, I can't begin to tell you how proud of you I am! You are such an inspiration to many! You have given yourself the best gift and I pray that you are able to get the surgery you deserve. Love you!

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Raised by 38 people in 29 months
Created January 15, 2017
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Tracy Young
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KN
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Kendall Nagy
24 months ago
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Congratulations on all your hard work! We are so proud of you, and want to support your success. Hope to see you soon!

DS
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Danielle Sonnek-Bouchard
26 months ago

Really impressed with your hard work, courage, and honesty!

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Anonymous
26 months ago
NK
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Nicki Krout
26 months ago
MR
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Missey Russell
26 months ago

Love you girl keep it up!

PE
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Peter Edwards
27 months ago

This is incredible, and will inspire so many others! I don't want to just say 'well done,' I also want to say 'Thank You!' :-) Belief!!!! XXXX

KK
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Kathryn Kelly
27 months ago

Congrats!

CT
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Chelsea Theriault
27 months ago

We're so proud of you!

SR
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Suzanne Renggli
27 months ago
Melissa 'Spurling' Burnell
28 months ago

Morgan, I can't begin to tell you how proud of you I am! You are such an inspiration to many! You have given yourself the best gift and I pray that you are able to get the surgery you deserve. Love you!

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