Michelle Wilkins Fund (Colorado))
Michelle is now just over a year navigating a long recovery -- physically, emotionally, and financially. She's beginning to share her story with hopes that her experience can give hope to others facing their own tragedies and looking for answers. Proceeds from fund raising on her behalf will help her write and publish a book which shares her journey and pursuing education in learning how to help others deal with trauma.
All funds received through this page will transferred weekly to the official Michelle Wilkins Trust Fund :
Saturday was the 2 year anniversary of a vicious attack that nearly took my life and the life of my daughter. It's a rocky moment for me as I navigate from this threshold of grief, integrating back into the world. Please keep myself, Aurora, the medical staff and police officers (for whom this also represents an intense anniversary) and Dynel (the attacker, who needs healing as well, I'm sure...) in your prayers, meditations, chants, thoughts, loving vibrations, or however it is that you express your heart.
In other news, life carries on, whether I'm dragging my heels or diving in wholeheartedly, and believe me, I do plenty of both. I've begun doing ceramics again and teach at this sweet studio in North Boulder, Hoi Polloi! I got accepted into graduate school (Masters of Counseling - dancing closer to the dream of healing myself and others). I'm also planning some international travels to continue my agricultural, herbal, meditation, and yogic studies- looking for these opportunities, please share with me if you have opportunities and leads! This crazy journey called life has its own momentum that keep moving forward. I am working on a book but perhaps I should start a blog to weave this grief work in with my life as it spirals and tangles its' way into the future.
Most of all in the present, I feel a mixture of sorrow and joy, sadness punctuated by gratitude; I don't think that joy and suffering exist independently of one another. I simply am trying to listen, to feel the heartbeat of my ancestors, to live into the wisdom of my body. I hope for a meaningful existence in which to love and be loved.
Sending love to you all,
It’s been nearly a year since the vicious attack that nearly cost me my life and ended the life of our innocent and soon to be born daughter Aurora. Dynel Lane, my attacker, was tried by the State of Colorado and on February 23rd was convicted on all charges by a jury of her peers, including attempted 1st degree.
As this chapter has now passed, I am trying to find peace and stability through my spirituality, and faith in humanity. That pulls me through even my darkest days, but I do not mean to suggest that it makes it easy. Sometimes the gifts and lessons of this time are my central focus, and sometimes even then I have to throw those to the wayside and cry and accept the cold brutality without looking for “deeper meaning” or “lessons.” How confusing is it that life can seemingly be so cruel and so beautiful at the same time?
I wish to thank everyone for their attention and the continuing messages, donations, and expressions of love and encouragement, not only for me but for Dan and Aurora and all those who suffered in the aftermath. Your continued support has allowed me not only to survive this, but also to thrive in the midst of a dark and trying time where every dollar… every smile… every message… every prayer… has been a comfort and a hug to me.
As for the future, my goals have not changed. I still wish to support a community with a center that serves people’s healing, for growing organic food, and for supporting art and pottery. But how can you pour from an empty cup? I will continue to focus on my own healing and allow that to blossom in its own time to something that can nourish everyone.
With that lens of love, we can make very real changes in our world that is struggling to keep up with our demands to make it a more peaceful place. *Be an activist, be an environmentalist, be an artist, and constantly shape your intention for being from love.
If there's one thing I've learned its that life is messy and hard but being fully present with all of it is way more gratifying than hiding away. Only that way can we be the change we wish to see in the world.