Maria's Acne Scar Laser Treatment

Hi! My name is Maria, I'm 28 years old and I have struggled  with debilitating acne for half my life. It has grappled me in ways I can't even begin to explain..thousands of dollars spent on over-the-counter topicals, prescriptions and acne treatments, the countless social gatherings I've cancelled, the many times I've called off of work, then there's the embarrassment of random strangers approaching you with their skin care advice.. others, with an esthetician business card. Acne really zaps the life right out of you, your skin and what others think of you is literally on your mind ALL THE TIME!
As depressing as I sound, I know I'm not alone. But I also know I'm so much greater than what acne has done to me emotionally and physically. My skin doesn't define me. I'm a good person, a fun person. I like to make people smile, I work hard, and I truly want to make a difference in other people's life.  
These days, my acne is under better control. I've managed WITHOUT the use of Accutane, as this prescription really wasn't an option for me. Without insurance, this dangerous drug is ridiculously expensive, I couldn't afford it. Additionally, females are required to be on birth control (which I can't take, side effects) and knowing it would positively destroy my gut due to my already existing inflammatory bowel disease, I couldn't take the risk. Without the fix of Accutane, I really had to endure many more years of acne, It required a lot of patience and research on my part. Oh, the inestimable time I spent googling the "cure" and browsing on sites like acne.org and curezone forums! I've read up on everything from food sensitivities, candida, parasites, hormones, insulin resistance, acidity, vitamin deficiencies, thyroid and adrenal problems, you name it, I've read about its connection to acne! Among things like a dairy-free, low sugar diet, the MOST beneficial key for me was to change my mentality of myself. Its challenging to snap yourself out of the daily, destructive words - "I'm ugly", "I'm disgusting", "I'm worthless". Negativity, stress, and anxiety will slowly errode you like nothing else. It eventually reveals itself through disease and quite possibly, your skin! So if anyone reading this can relate, STOP NOW and switch your mindset!..One scripture that has comforted me so much over the years is found in  Philippians 4:6,7 - "Do not be anxious over anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication along with thanksgiving, let your petitions be made known to God; and the peace of God that surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and your mental powers by means of Christ Jesus." 

Today I'm very grateful my acne has mostly subsided, my skin has improved greatly compared to the cystic state it was in! But even though I try to practice postive thoughts everyday, I'm still reminded of my past with disfiguring scars left behind, primarily on my cheeks. I would love to gain some self-confidence back. I want so badly to not have to spend 2 hours every morning trying to conceal deep acne scarring. I'm extremely self conscious, heck, I won't even walk to the mailbox without some concealer on. It sucks! But I've definitely been determined to get some improvement.

Some of the past discounted (groupon) treatments I was able to afford on my own included:
-3 ematrix treatments for scarring (no improvement)
-2 Radio Frequency Micdoneedling treatments for scarring (very subtle results) 
and most recently, 
-2 TCA cross treatments for scarring, that I performed on myself (helped lift the deeper ice pick scars)

I've researched that ablative Co2 laser is the most aggressive treatment for acne scars, unfortunately my skin will need 2-3 aggressive treatments (according to what the dermatalogic surgeon told me) including subcision and fillers because I have various acne scar "types". I was quoted the estimated cost for the first treatment would be $7000 Wow!! (I'm currently researching other surgeons/laser technicians that are less expensive. If anyone can recommend someone in Arizona/ California please let me know)
I'm not unrealistic. I know my skin will never be the same, but I would love to free myself as much as possible from what this damaging affliction has left me with. I'm humbly putting my self out there, posting bare photos of my skin hoping there might be others that could empathize with my insecurity. The SMALLEST donation is GREATLY appreciated. If I meet my laser surgery goal, I will document my progression photos every step of the way. God bless every one donating for ANY cause on this website. 

Thank you so much for reading, 
 Maria