Lost Husband, was the bread winner.

Hello friends, My husband Cris Putnam left this earth and I believe is now in heaven, a little over a year ago.  He was the bread winner at the time of his passoon.  I have been left with a large amount of debt. as well as I struggle to cover all my bills independently on a monthly basis! I am working as a lifeguard at a City pool in which I get on average about 35 hours a week with no benefits and fairly low pay.  As I heal my hope is to go back to counseling troubled teens again in some capacity!  I had just resigned from a company I had worked with for 22 years about 1.5 years before Cris passed away.   My family told me about "gofundme.com" for about a year now but I am ready to try.    I now have finally set up some Christian Counseling to help me get out of a pretty dark place that continues to have a strong grip on me! I have known for a long time I needed to start facing reality, but was never sure how to even begin! Accepting that Cris is gone, accepting that God still loves me, and has a plan for me, and that I am going to be ok, has been difficult! People from my Church have helped me so much on a monthly basis.  However, I find it difficult to ask due to so much generosity that has been given already.  I have a storage unit with most of our stuff in it that has no home as of right now, which is only part of the issues I face! I have much to figure out and with the help of others, what I have seen as impossibilities may become possible! -i.e. going to the doctor and dentist, car tag renewal (which is over a year over-due) and my list goes on!  Please if you can not help financially I can use all the prayer possible!  Pray that I can get back on my feet again and that my faith continues to be strengthened again! This all has been an extremely difficult test for me!  Pray that I can believe that God still has a plan for me and that it may be made clear.   It’s been the most difficult year of my life, but I am slowly making some progress and with God's grace and love that I need so very much, I believe I will find purpose again!  (Sorry if I repeated some things as well as some words are unclear since I was never an author/writer like my late husband)!  I know that life is difficult for everyone, so I would be grateful for any help possible! And in the future I hope that I may help others!! I have now got a second job that I will start soon on the weekends. Update: Working once again with troubled youth. I still am having difficulty paying my storage unit and buying daily necessities. Love and blessing to you all!  

Sincerely,Shelley Huisman-Putnam