A gift for Kyron this Christmas 2015…
A couple of years ago my shadow box with Kyron’s birth photo and baby footprint fell off of the wall and the frame broke. At that moment my heart broke too. It’s so hard when you have items that are so sentimental and can never truly be replaced. My husband felt so bad that he promptly super glued it thinking he could fix it. Well it just hasn’t been the same, the crack clearly visible each time I looked at it.
My intentions have been eventually to replace it with another shadowbox. With my heart finally in the right place, it allowed me to buy another shadow box, just the right one, a couple of months ago. Well there it sat, my head swirling with thoughts of how to make it better than the first one, the original frame was a gift from a friend at my baby shower so I have had it since Ky’s birth. I simply haven’t felt right about replacing, my heart agonizing over the fact that I can’t replace it truly.
Well the other day I decided I would complete it for Christmas, for my Ky. Now that it is complete and hung on the wall, I realize it is much better and means so much more than the first. I incorporated not only the original footprint and photo; I also added many of Kyron’s baby things from my keepsake box. I love this frame in a different way and I think that Kyron will love it too.
This reminds me of so many things that have happened since Kyron went missing. It’s a fear inside that you feel, and you just can’t let go of the items, the things that connect you to him. Keeping all of the memories held tight, without having him here to create new ones, it keeps me going. I feel I have to hold on tight to the old memories, desperately holding on to the hope, that I will see him again. So many parts of our lives have had to continue on without stopping, so many things change, even though there’s a big part that keeps me back at June 4th,2010.
I hope this year, Kyron sees this gift and he feels my love for him. The day that he was born was one of the best days of my life, a gift of love that will never be replaced.
I'm sitting here this morning thinking of you, I can't believe you are 13 today. I'm sad because you have missed out on the past 6 birthday parties and memories, they were taken from you, she took them from you, as if she had a right to take something like that. I think back to our mornings with coffee for momma, and you laying right next to me hugging me watching cartoons, you being just like me, not really awake yet, not really talking yet. Us Just sitting there in the moment, soaking in every second. I miss all of the things you are to me but most especially, I miss these moments of us just being us, so similar, so together in that. I'm sorry I couldn't bring you home for your birthday this year. I love you baby.
The time has come for us to be more aggressive so we can really narrow down our search areas, but in order for us to do that we need all the tips that got called in to the tip line. If you had any sort of tip as to Kyron or Terri’s whereabouts the week prior to June 4th, on June 4th, 2010, or suspicious behavior following Kyron’s disappearance we need to know about it. Please send an e-mail to tips4kyron @ yahoo. com with details on what you saw or heard so that we can get in contact with you. This needs to be done so we can find him. He deserves for us to find him. 5 years is too long, the wait has been too long. It’s time for us to be more aggressive in narrowing our search areas and we cannot do that without your tips. If you know of anyone that does not follow one of Kyron’s Facebook sites and has a tip please pass this info along. The sooner we get the tips the sooner we can accomplish our goal. Thank you so much for all of your support! Tips4kyron @ yahoo. com
Thank you so much to all our volunteers that came out to help us search for our Kyron. It always amazes me to see how loved he is by people he has never even met, how one little boy can make such a difference in the heart of others. There just aren’t the words to express how much it means to us to have so many stand beside us and continue to support our efforts to bring Kyron home after 5 excruciating years. It’s disappointing to walk away without our answers, but our haystack is getting smaller, and it will continue to get smaller because we will never give up! We will never quit searching! Thanks to Pacific Crest Search and Rescue, we have been given the opportunity to search more often. We are going to be shifting gears a bit moving forward, which will be more productive and narrow down our search areas significantly, so stay tuned.
A special thank you goes out to Klaas Kids and Pacific Crest. You are amazing, and we couldn’t do this without you. You continue to fill our hearts with hope, even when walking away from a search with no answers, knowing how much we desperately need it. Thank you to Beth, who runs our Missing Kyron Horman Facebook page and Stacey with Kyron Horman’s World Soldiers. You make sure Kyron is never forgotten and his face is seen every day.
Thank you to our new teams we had the privilege to work with, Jackson County Sheriff's Search and Rescue and Ashland Police. It was a privilege to work with all of you, and we hope you will continue with us in our future searches.
To our Kyron~
Our lives are not the same without you, and we will never be whole until you are with us. We will never give up, we will find you, and the person responsible for ripping you away and stealing your innocence will pay for what they have done to you. As we continue to search and continue to move closer to you, the road blocks that have been standing in our way are going to be torn down. We will no longer stand for being held back, and those people are going to feel the pressure.
We love you to the moon our sweet boy,
Registration form, NDA and staging area map have been emailed out to all volunteers. If you did not receive an email from me tonight send me a message at justice4kyron@ yahoo. I will do my best to get you the information tomorrow as time permits. Thank you to everyone who offered to help us bring our Kyron home.
From Desiree: I was talking to someone the other day and they asked me, “After 5 years do you really need to search, at this point you probably won’t find him?”
That is exactly the reason that I continue to keep going and keep searching. I have a lot of fight left in me. I am fighting against the evil that wants us to give up and go away. I am fighting against time that keeps taking away the new memories of my son. I am fighting against the one person that refuses to set our hearts at ease by remaining silent and not providing the answers we so desperately need. I am fighting for Kyron because he needs it. I will not give up and I will not stop, so I continue to search and continue to fight.
I am taking the power back and I will search until the day he gets to come home. Who’s with me?
We will begin our search this Labor Day Weekend with renewed energy and hopefully a lot of you, our supporters, there by our side, dedicated to finding Kyron as well. We are bringing in K-9 teams, other volunteers, and Klaas Kids will be there to help us launch a successful search this year. We are going to search some new areas and Lord willing, we will get some answers this year. We are looking for volunteers for Saturday 9/5 to help us search and hopefully help us get answers and bring Kyron home.
Our upcoming search for Kyron is scheduled for Labor Day weekend, September 5-6. Right now we are only needing outside volunteers for Saturday the 5th. If you are interested in helping with the search please send me a message here. We still require you to have a valid ID, be 18 or older and sign a non-disclosure agreement. Details will be emailed out to you on the location of the command post and meeting time a couple of days before the search. Thank you!!
Every day we get up to face another day without our Kyron. Some days are harder than others, but days like today bring us hope. Searches bring us hope. Hope that one day there will be peace in our lives. That this void Kyron has left will be filled, and I’ll finally get to post a shiny new picture of that face we love so much, instead of memories. I pray that no one ever has to feel the grief that we carry every second of every day, or feel that desperation of not knowing what else to do. But we will never give up. We will never lose hope. We will keep searching for as long as it takes, and today we race! We Race 4 Kyron! Come join us, bring the whole family and help us bring Kyron home.
Thank you so much to all the people who have stuck by us through the last 5 years, and continue to do so. Most of you I will probably never meet, but your support matters just the same. To Champion Raceway for such a huge opportunity, and Molly who this couldn’t have been possible without. Today my heart is full.
June 4, 2010 is the day that Kyron disappeared and our nightmare began. It has been five years now and we still don't know where Kyron is. Our hearts were broken the day the unthinkable happened, a day there is no moving on from. Each day we live with the unknown, while silently praying today is the day he comes home to us. Our nightmare will not end until Kyron is home.
For the past five years, people have come together in support of Kyron and our family and we ask for your continued support. As we are standing together we ask you to stand with us. Fight for the little boy who has touched so many hearts. Help us bring Kyron home.
Initially this site was set up for donations to help with the civil suit Desiree filed against Terri Horman in the disappearance of our Kyron. While she still believes Terri has the answers we so desperately seek, it was in Kyron's best interest that the civil suit was withdrawn. However, this does not mean we are giving up or going away. We will do whatever it takes to bring Kyron home to us. Donations to this site will now be used in our continued search to bring Kyron home.
(This site is monitored by Kelly Ramirez, Desiree Young's sister.)